Disclaimer: K now obviously I don't own Harry or any thing to do with the books - that's just silly.

K this is ma first Fic so please be nice!

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Life and Envy

Life. It's a funny thing life. Lives are given and taken every day. Some people think you have the perfect life even though sometimes it's the farthest thing from the truth possible.

I never thought that anyone would be jealous of me. Who am I apart from Hermione Granger? The bushy haired, bookworm, the Gryffindor mud blood.

But that changed in seventh year, when the war was over…I changed.

During the war I had taken private lessons with Mad-eye and Professor Lupin, learning about the dark arts and preparing for the war. I was more knowlegable and powerful than ever.

During the war I was able to cast a crucio on my first go; I didn't have the problem Harry did. I was just so angry. Bellatrix LeStrange was just standing there; she'd killed my mother over the summer. The amount of pleasure I was getting from seeing her writhe on the floor in pain frightened me.

My personality wasn't the only thing that changed. I had dyed my hair a mahogany colour, as I couldn't deal with people recognising me and coming up to me and congratulating me on the war. I was no heroine. My hair also became more manageable and lost its bushy state.

Back to jealousy, it seems that I am now a main target of envy. Girls whisper as I walk past in the hall thinking me to be oblivious.

"Don't envy me!" I feel like shouting, "I have nothing!" Half the time I can barely restrain myself from hexing them.

People envy my relationship with Harry and Ron, but no one sees what I see. Not even Ron sees Harry falling apart like I do. I wonder if Harry and Ron will care that I jumped off the astronomy tower.

I realise that it would be easier to simply say, "Avada Kedava," and have done with it, but I want it to be special. That's why I got dressed up in this pretty white summer dress. Its funny but I've always been afraid of heights. Well I guess its time to face my fears.

Life. It's a funny thing life. Lives are given and taken every day. Some people think you have the perfect life even though sometimes it's the farthest thing from the truth possible.

As I'm about to jump I whisper, "Welcome to the wonderful life of Hermione Granger. Still jealous anyone?"

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