Hidden Feelings

Summary: What happens when Joey told his feelings for Rachel before she moves in with Ross. And doesn't tell Ross what's going on with him. Takes place in season 8.

Disclaimer: Don't own the characters...Sadly...but if Ross is for sale I'll take him.

Keeping the Secret

Joeys POV:

The entire day was filled with questions of how I felt. It was just a practice date so I can try something new and all the sudden I felt like this. I was so scared to go near Rachel because I had a feeling that whatever the hell I felt was going to come back. I had just walked out on my date after asking questions about looking at someone completely different and how I was feeling. The whole night I spent thinking of Rachel and that was only the beginning I knew that this feeling wasn't going to end unless I told her how I really felt and knew that she didn't feel the same way about me. But if she did then I'd have more problems to deal with so much more.

I entered my apartment after taking a deep breath and I noticed that Rachel was watching a movie. It was Cujo and she looked terrified. "Hey Rach." I said, entering the apartment. I looked at the TV. "Are you watching Cujo?"

"Yea." She looked up at me. "How can you watch this alone and what the hell is wrong with this dog?" I smiled at this. She just kept looking at me.

"I can't believe that you're watching this alone." I finally managed to say

"So how was your big date?"

"It was ok. I really had no connection with her so I figured end it before I started anything up."

Yea right! I told myself. I started to walk towards my bedrooms

"Where are you going? You're not going to let me finish this alone are you?" She asked keeping her eyes on me instead of the TV.

"No" I told her as I walked to the chair and sat on the armrest.

I held Rachel close as the movie played on. "Ok there he is. That's Cujo." She told me

"I know" I replied back.

A loud growl came from the TV as she covered her eyes.

Cujo. How could she watch something like this by herself and I know its not something to watch by myself. "How can you watch this, Joey? Aren't you scared?" She asked me. The movie made her jump as she put her arms around me burying her face in my chest. I felt myself shake as I slowly put an arm around her and tried to comfort her. It felt so nice to have her in my arms and I couldn't tell her how I was feeling.

"Terrified." My voice was shaking when I said this to her. What was wrong with me? Why was I all the sudden falling in love with someone I've known for the past eight years of my life?

I knew I couldn't tell her. It would be way too hard. Besides she's just a really close friend of mine. This is normal...well maybe for some people. I'd get over it in a day or so.

The movie ended and she was practically in tears and I still held on to her. "Well that was an interesting movie but what the hell was wrong with that dog?" She asked me.

"Beats me. I guess rabies are really that bad." I flashed a small smile.

Rachel must have noticed that I was hurt or something because she kept looking at me.

No. I told myself. This Rachel. I don't get deep feelings for anyone. She just a close friend of mine... but what would it be like?

"Joey. Are you ok?" Rachel's voice caught my attention.

"Why do you ask?'

"Well you seem sort of spaced out"

Oh god.. How was I supposed to say something now? Yea I'm fine everything's going to be ok? Yea right that a great way to go Trib.

"I'm fine. Just thinking about a few things that happened tonight with my date." I told her.. Nice going that wont bring up a question.

"Really. Like what?" Rachel looked at me like I had done something. Something wrong.

"You know what its probably nothing. I just wasn't feeling well. Nothing serious." I told her.

"Ok." She said and walked to the kitchen. I watched her. Never kept my eyes off of her for a second. I'm not staring just looking.

Just looking? This is Rachel I can't just look. Something was wrong and I needed figure out why I was feeling this way. I just needed to know that she was feeling the same way. What about Ross? He'd kill me if I told him I was falling for his ex and the mother of his and Rachel's unborn child. And to think, me, Joey Tribianni, falling in love. Chandler would have said 'hey you're finally growing up'.

Maybe it was time for me to think about what I was doing with my relationships instead of just sex and never calling back. After all knowing a friend for eight years can help out when you don't know what to do. The thing is I was going deep. Falling for Rachel Green...something that wasn't supposed to happen. and the only reason was that I never get strong feelings for anyone...until now.

For now I didnt want to share anything. The only thing on my mind was what if she didnt feel the same way for me?

A/N: I hope you enjoy this. Reviews are welcome at anytime and once i can figure out how to update this i'll get the next chapter up as soon as i can