Disclaimer: I don't own Beyblade...that's why I is writing a fanfiction!! wooo!!!
Anyway....this is the 1st chapter of I change my mind!!
Chapter 1: Hello, My Name Is Dead; Rei's P.O.V
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How did this happen? What did I do wrong? Is it that God hates me or did I really screw up in my 16 short years of life? What ever the reason, my life is over. Literally.
I guess it all started when I was four. My mother had died from a drug overdose and my father wasn't taking it very well. He had started drinking huge amounts of alcohol. Sometimes, when he was drunk, he would hit me and sometimes I wouldn't be able to walk or even move for a couple of days.
When I turned five, I started school. Because my father beat me so often, I missed a lot of school. I could tell the teachers were suspicious, but they never said anything. They just looked at me, eyes filled with pity. I didn't want their pity, I wanted their help! But that never happened.
Now, here I am, 15 years old and still living with my abusive father. The bright side? Tomorrow's my 16th birthday and I always get a break from the torture my father gives me.
I started a new school, see as the teachers made frequent calls about the strange bruises on my face and arms. That really made him angry. He beat me before we left my old house and after we arrived at our new one.
So anyway, I'm sitting in my least favorite class, math. I've been going to this school for a total of three weeks. No one talks to me and I don't talk to them. They all hate me and I'm fine with that. The math teacher absolutely loathes me. She always calls on me even when I don't know the answers. This is one of those times.
"Rei." she calls to me."Please answer the equation."
I wasn't even raising my hand. Why couldn't she have called on someone else? I sighed and looked at the problem. It didn't seem to hard. seven cubed plus six squared divided by 3 squared. Yeah, I lied. I bit my lip as I tried to do the math in my head.
"It's um...uh..." I trailed off.
Suddenly, I felt something kick my foot. I glanced over at the boy out of the corner of my eye. He was mouthing something, but i can't lip read. He seemed irritated as he rolled his eyes and turned back to the notebook in front of him.
"Any day now Rei." the teacher, Mrs. Shana, said annoyed.
I was at a loss for words. I don't know the answer. I felt something kick my foot again so I peaked at the guy sitting next to me again. He had a piece of paper in his hand just enough for me to see something written on it. Was that the answer he was giving me or just some random number? Oh well. might as well give it a shot.
"347?" I more asked than answered.
She seemed a little upset as she huffed angrily. "Correct."
She didn't call on me for the rest of the period. For that, I was grateful. I didn't look at the boy beside me and he didn't kick me again. When the bell rang, I packed my things quicker than usual. I had to thank the boy after all. It may have been a small and insignificant thing he did for me, but he did help me. No one had ever bothered before.
I looked up and he was already walking out of the classroom with some other guys. I shyly went up to him and softly tapped his shoulder. He spun around, face completely expressionless.
"Um." I quietly uttered, not knowing what to say exactly. After all, I don't really talk much.
His two friends kept glaring at me as he watched me with a bored look. I struggled to find something to say to him but I couldn't. I gasped as I was suddenly jerked up, my feet no longer touching the ground. The tallest of his two friends had picked me up by my shirt collar and had a fist coming straight to my face. What did I do? Images of my father started flashing in front of my eyes. I could no longer see the boy holding me up. I could only see my father. I no longer saw the school walls. I only saw the walls of my hell.
"No." I whispered, fear clear in my voice and eyes. "Please stop! Not again! No!"
I started kicking at the image of my father, trying to get away.
"Dude! Put him down!" I heard someone shout.
I hit the ground hard as I was dropped to the floor. I panted and began scooting back. I covered my head with my arms, whimpering as one of them started walking towards me.
"No!" I thought frantically. "Go away!"
"Rei! Calm down! What's wrong?" a soothing voice breathed in my ear.
I don't know what possessed me to wrap my arms around is neck, but it felt like my only lifeline. I don't remember what happened next. All I know is that I lost consciousness.
When I woke up, I wasn't in the classroom anymore. In fact, I was in a dark room. The walls were painted black with silver trimming. There were red splatters all along the walls. No one ever realized the red splatters were real blood, not paint. I sighed. I was in my room.
I sat up, quickly regretting it. Everything hurt, especially my head. I groaned as I twisted around, swinging my legs over the side of my bed. I was about to stand up when I felt a hand on my chest lightly push me down. I looked up and saw deep crimson eyes. Studying his facial features I saw he was the boy who sat next to me in math. What was he doing here
"Hey. Nice to see you're finally awake." he said smiling. His smile looked more like a smirk.
I stared at him for a few minutes before he finally got the hint.
"I'm Kai." he finally introduced.
I nodded and tried to stand once again, but ended up falling forward. I didn't hit the floor like I expected. Instead I landed in Kai's arms. I felt safe, but I knew I shouldn't have. I didn't really know him. He was just some guy who I sat next to in math who helped me with one stupid problem.
I reluctantly pulled away from his strong embrace, the secure feeling instantly leaving me.
"Why do you care?" I whispered quietly.
I didn't mean to ask the question. It was just bothering me that he seemed to care so much. He didn't even know me!
"I don't know. You just seem like you need someone." he answered.
Before I knew what I was doing, I hugged him. I felt like crying, but no tears escaped. I didn't know if he really cared or if he was trying to get close to me just to hurt me. At the moment, I didn't really care. I had finally found someone who cared, even if it was all a lie.
"Rei." I heard an angry voice call from behind me.
I felt Kai's arms leave my small frame once again. I also let my arms drop back to my sides. I slowly turned towards my father who stood at my door.
"Yes father?" I struggled to keep the fear out of my voice.
"Your friend should get going. You need to rest." my father said, actually sounding like a concerned parent.
"Fine. See you later Rei." Kai smirked as he walked out of my room and house.
As soon as Kai was gone, my father dropped the 'worried father' act. He grabbed a fistful of my hair, slamming my head into the wall. I leaned against the wall to maintain my balance, but he just kicked my legs out from under me. I hit the ground with a thud. He started kicking me everywhere as I was down, my legs, stomach, arms, and even my face. When I tried to cover my head with my arms he stopped kicking me to pry them away. Then he just continued his assault. He finally turned and walked out of the room, not even bothering to see if I was alright.
I stood up, wincing as I jarred my new wounds. I grabbed a pair of boxers and pajama pants from the dresser and limped to the bathroom for a long bath. I filled the tub up with warm water before undressing and slipping under the surface. After just soaking for a few hours, the water turned cooled, signaling that it was time to get out. I quickly dried off and dressed in my pajama pants before I climbed in my bed to sleep.
I awoke the next morning with the sun shining in my face. My head was pounding. I sat up and stretched, wincing as my muscles ached. I forced myself to get up and limped to my dresser, After I finished dressing, I gathered my things for school.
"You better last all day today, got it?" my father growled as I scuffled to the front door.
I nodded my head as I walked out of the house and to school. When I entered the classroom, everyone was just staring at me. I felt really self conscious and uncomfortable with everyone just staring at me like that. I heard a few snickers as I walked to my seat so I looked down at my clothes. I had them all and nothing was on them. I sighed. I should be used to them by now. I sat down in my seat, resting my head against my palm. I hissed quietly in pain as my hand touched my cheek. That's when I realized I forgot to cover my bruises.
I tried to hide my face, but it didn't matter. They all knew someone had to have caused them. Then why would they be laughing and snickering? Oh, that's right. No one cares. I whimpered to myself as the teacher, a substitute, came over to me.
"Um," she paused to look at the seating chart. "Rei, what happened?"
What did I say? What could I say? I couldn't just go "I fell" or something like that, and I couldn't lie and say I got into a fight because then I'd have to identify who ever I got into a fight with.
"It was me." a voice to my right spoke up. "I punched him."
Kai? What was he doing? Why was he taking the blame for something he didn't so?
"Is this true? Did," she paused once more to look at the sheet. "Kai hurt you?"
What was I supposed to say to that? Did I answer yes or no? She took my silence as an answer.
"Well, since I'm not your normal teacher, I'd like you to go to the office and explain what happened." she looked around the room. "Would anyone like to walk Rei to the office please?"
No one said anything which I already expected. Like I said, no one likes me.
"I will." Kai volunteered.
"I'm afraid I can't let you do that. The sub denied. "You did say you harmed him and he didn't deny it."
"Fine. I'll do it." That voice sent shivers up my spine.
I turned and saw the shorter, but more built of Kai's two friends. I looked back at the substitute teacher, pleading with my eyes not to make me go with him.
"Very well," again with the pausing, but now she was smiling. "Bryan. Thank you."
"Come on Rei." he said in a sickening voice, grabbing my arm and dragging me up when the teacher turned away.
He pulled me out of the room and down the hall. We stopped in a deserted hallway. No one was in any classrooms down this hall. I bit my lip as a fist slammed into my bruised cheek. I yelped when Bryan slammed me into the wall, glaring at me with total rage.
"So, trying to get Kai expelled or something? Are you trying to send him to jail?" he sneered as he kneed my stomach.
"I don't even know why he pretends he likes you when it's obvious he doesn't! He hates you!"
That hurt me more than anything. I didn't understand why though. Maybe it hurt so much because I thought I had finally found a friend. Or maybe it was because I kind of liked him. What ever the reason, I felt as if my heart had shattered. What he said had hurt me more than anything he could possibly do.
After he was done beating my already battered body, he laughed. I didn't even bother looking up at him. I just stood up and ran out of the door. It really hurt to run. I didn't care that my father would be angry I skipped school, I just had to get away. When I finally stopped running, I was at the bridge.
I looked down at the rocks below. Most bridges went over roads or water, but this bridge was over loads of sharp and blunt rocks. I found myself climbing up on top of the railing, turning so when I fell, I wouldn't see my approaching death. When I was about to lean back, I heard a frantic voice.
"Rei! Stop!" it shouted at me.
"Kai?" I whispered, shocked.
"Rei! Don't do this!"
Why was he even bothering to try? He hated me didn't he? He seemed to be reading my thoughts with what he said next.
"Don't...please." he whispered, just loud enough for me to hear. "I love you."
Those three simple words surprised me. I just wasn't expecting them. Sadly, those three simple words were what sealed my fate. I was in so much shock that I lost my balance and leaned backwards, slipping off the slick railing and plummeting to my death.
This can't be happening. I finally got a happy birthday. I finally found someone who loves me.
"Please God. I change my mind. I don't want this. I love him too." Was my last thought as I fell to my end.
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well thats all for chapter 1!!! How was Rei's P.O.V?? Well....next chapter is Kai's!!! woo!!! anyway....review please!!!