All the legal blah, Selphie, the name does not belong to me, it belongs to squaresoft. This is the story about Nicole Tilmitt, Selphie's mother and why she made the decision to give up a girl such as Selphie.
She is, so young, so bold, how I could ever let her go, I will never know. But, in a way who could blame me? I am sixteen, who needs a responsibility, NO who wants a responsibility like this one, a child? I can remember the day it happened, like a stab in the back, an undying pain. Oh, how I forever regret going to his house now. It started out so good, a nice dinner, a late drive.........Thinking about it I dosed off into a dream world.
There I was with the man of my dreams, on the way to his house. I just couldn't wait. He said that his parents weren't home so we couldn't stay long. We pulled in to the long windy driveway and finally reached the end and pulled up to a beautiful house, it almost looked like one so those castles form a fairy tale. Before I knew it we were in the house and in his Library, I had never seen so many books in my whole life, we kept getting closer and closer........
I awoke form my daydream, it only seemed like yesterday, but it wasn't, it was over nine months ago and now I was in the hospital with a new baby girl in my arms. Should I keep her, what would my mom think if she were here. I don't know, I am so lost. so confused. All I know is I can't I simply can't. With the way my farther treats me, I couldn't bare seeing that done to a child, he was always drunk, always demanding something or hitting me. No I wouldn't let it happen. I grabbed the orphanage papers that were set next to my bed of my to think about. I took a pen and signed my name to the bottom of the papers, I knew very well she would go to an orphanage but it had to be better then the wreck of a life I lived. I let my hand slide across the paper spelling out,
N-i-c-o-l-e T-i-l-m-i-t-t. Well there it was, the papers that gave this precious little girl Selphie away, to a place of who knows what. A mistake? I don't know, I can't say.
A few days later a lady form the orphanage came for Selphie, she was a nice lady, her name was Edea Kramer, she promised that my daughter would be safe and wanted at her orphanage. As she walked out the door, my so called normal life came back. I watched them, I watched the door after they shut it. My eyes were hot, and tears fell form them down my cheeks and onto my shirt. But, I knew I had made the right decision, the best one for Selphie. Or, at least I hoped.
*Ok this is very short, but you know, I didn't want to make it very long and then no one like it, if I get good reviews then I will keep on going, if not then well, this is it. I hope you enjoyed. =^_^= Selph
She is, so young, so bold, how I could ever let her go, I will never know. But, in a way who could blame me? I am sixteen, who needs a responsibility, NO who wants a responsibility like this one, a child? I can remember the day it happened, like a stab in the back, an undying pain. Oh, how I forever regret going to his house now. It started out so good, a nice dinner, a late drive.........Thinking about it I dosed off into a dream world.
There I was with the man of my dreams, on the way to his house. I just couldn't wait. He said that his parents weren't home so we couldn't stay long. We pulled in to the long windy driveway and finally reached the end and pulled up to a beautiful house, it almost looked like one so those castles form a fairy tale. Before I knew it we were in the house and in his Library, I had never seen so many books in my whole life, we kept getting closer and closer........
I awoke form my daydream, it only seemed like yesterday, but it wasn't, it was over nine months ago and now I was in the hospital with a new baby girl in my arms. Should I keep her, what would my mom think if she were here. I don't know, I am so lost. so confused. All I know is I can't I simply can't. With the way my farther treats me, I couldn't bare seeing that done to a child, he was always drunk, always demanding something or hitting me. No I wouldn't let it happen. I grabbed the orphanage papers that were set next to my bed of my to think about. I took a pen and signed my name to the bottom of the papers, I knew very well she would go to an orphanage but it had to be better then the wreck of a life I lived. I let my hand slide across the paper spelling out,
N-i-c-o-l-e T-i-l-m-i-t-t. Well there it was, the papers that gave this precious little girl Selphie away, to a place of who knows what. A mistake? I don't know, I can't say.
A few days later a lady form the orphanage came for Selphie, she was a nice lady, her name was Edea Kramer, she promised that my daughter would be safe and wanted at her orphanage. As she walked out the door, my so called normal life came back. I watched them, I watched the door after they shut it. My eyes were hot, and tears fell form them down my cheeks and onto my shirt. But, I knew I had made the right decision, the best one for Selphie. Or, at least I hoped.
*Ok this is very short, but you know, I didn't want to make it very long and then no one like it, if I get good reviews then I will keep on going, if not then well, this is it. I hope you enjoyed. =^_^= Selph