I don't know what to think anymore. I'm back home. I have everything I've ever wanted. I am the prince again. My dad welcomed me back saying my honor was restored. He even thinks I'm hero! Everything should be perfect right? Well, it's not. I'm angrier than ever and I don't know why! I guess, I'm just angry at myself. I don't know what is right or wrong anymore. I thought to restore my honor I had to capture the Avatar. If I did that, my honor would return and my father would accept me. My dad thinks I killed him. He thinks I am the one who killed him, but I didn't. Azula did. I don't know why she told dad I killed him, and I'm not sure I want to know. I talked to her last night and she told me there would be nothing to gain, unless…. Unless the Avatar was still alive. Could he be alive? I remember Katara had that Spirit Water, is it possible it could have revived him? Katara had said she was a healer, but could she do that? Bring someone back after death? I don't know if the Avatar is still alive, but I have to watch my back around Azula anyways. I don't know what Azula has planned, but I'll have to keep my guard up until I figure it out. I have been thinking about talking to Uncle. He can lead me the right way and tell me why I feel like this. I need his help. I want his help. But If I go and see him, I'll risk someone seeing me. Or worse, I'll risk Azula knowing I went to him. If Azula found out, she would for sure tell dad. But if I don't go and see Uncle, I will never know what to do. I need… I need… I don't know what I need! I just want someone to tell me what is wrong with me! I feel like I'm being torn in half! One side of me is urging me to relax, stay here, and do what the Firelord prince would do. The thing is… I don't know what the prince would do. I've been away so long, I feel like I'm a completely different person. Like, I don't even belong here. The trouble is, I don't know where I belong. I need to know what is going on. I need to talk to Uncle. I don't care if someone sees me. I don't even care if Azula sees me. I have to talk to him. I want his help and his guidance. I want him to give me one of his metaphors. I want, I want, Anything! I just need him. I need to know he cares. I need to know that he doesn't hate me. That he doesn't think I'm a disgrace. I betrayed him and I'm so sorry. I just hope when I go and talk with him that he will accept me. That he will embrace me and tell me everything is going to be alright. I want to be a kid again! I don't want to have to make these decisions! I don't want this confusion! I just, want… to be me again. I'll see him tomorrow night. The sooner I find out what's wrong with me, the better. I'm coming Uncle. I'm Coming.