Sure I would've loved to be the one she wanted to rescue her, protect her, be her hero.
That day brought her so much pain, and it made my chest sting. But, hey, I should start from the beginning!
Well, once I found out it was Raven's birthday, I got real excited. I thought 'this is my chance to show her'
I think I've cared for the radiant gothic sorceress for longer than I realize. Sure I knew I was drawn to her; she was interesting and new to me- a challenge. And I vowed to make her laugh again,
even if it killed me. soon that promise became more.
So I hatched an(at the moment) ingenius plan: a surprise party!
And so it began. Preparations took almost all night, but the team and I somehow managed to finish just fast enough since right when we had turned out the light, Raven came in to investigate the noise we were making.
We switched the light back on and yelled some odd mix of "surprise!" and "happy birthday!" and some other weird tamaranean 'festive words'
And to make a long story short, the plan didnt go as well as I had hoped.
I mean I wasnt expecting a kiss or anything! But I definitely didn't want her to explode like that.
But back to the story, that is, if i had more to tell you. Thats what bugs me! She didnt choose me.
Nope, she picked Robin to unfreeze, and she picked Robin to help her, and she picked Robin... instead of me.
I suppose that can only be my fault. I wasn't good enough for her yet; hell, I dont even know if I am now! But, dammit,
I won't stop trying until I am.
Oh, I'm getting off topic again. Sorry.
So, from what I heard, Raven somehow froze time, except for Slade and Robin and this whole big chase thingy started.
Our 'fearless and perfect leader' fought with Slade to give Raven a chance to get away. I would've fought harder;
given my life in a second if it meant her safety. Robin didn't or doesn't love her like I do, and Slade caught her, and something terrible happened.
Pfft. Frozen in time. Geez, if I could have helped being stuck in a halted dimension, nothing bad would've EVER happened to her.
She doesn't deserve it. And I was helpless to stop it. Ah, well I beat myself up enough for that one, witout Trigon's pummeling included.
Speaking of which, even later on, Robin was the one to delve into hell to save her again. I was stuck topside to deal with her father.
Sure, I was 'helping' by stalling Trigon, but the whole time, I would've rather been with her, no matter what age she was stuck in.
I could've found her without Slade, too. I could've gotten her out way faster. And hey, first time we met, she thought I was funny!
She wouldn't have had trust issues with me! One look at 'the face' and she'd be happily on a nice, safe, pterodactyl ride outta that awful place.
*sigh*
And then.
*double sigh*
Once everything was good again, she just had to go and pounce on Robin. She held him the way I've always wanted her to hug me.
I tried to laugh it off, like I do with everything, but I couldn't help doing some pouncing of my own.
Once it sunk in that she was back and I didn't have to lose her again I had to, so I did.
I launched right at her- and it was kind of a more comical hug, but hey, this is me we're talking about-
and she didnt even smile. Worse, she told me icily to "quit it."
I can never tell if she means it, but just hearing her say that.
I'm not that bad.
I would do anything for her.
Ya know, I'm not trying to sound braggy,or whiny, or jealous.
I'm just trying to say, I wish I could've shown her how much I care and that maybe she could've cared a little more too...
I guess I've always been a screw up.
But dont worry, Rae. I'll be worth you someday...