Hi everyone,

I've been reading a lot of stories with much joy. now I've written something myself as a tryout. i'd like to know what you think of my first chapter. I haven't tried anything like this before so please notify me here i can learn to improve myself.

also English is not my first language so i might have made mistakes or weird sentences. please excuse me for that.

i dont own anything about the character's.

AU, BL, Kaname/Zero, try out

CHAPTER 1

"Hmmf " I can hear myself moan in discomford. As I try to turn on to my right side I can feel a uneasy stiffness in my back between my shoulders. 'God, last night was sure as hell a rough one.' As I open up my eyes I can see the piercing sunlight entering my bedroom. No, no this was not my bedroom. As soon as realisation strikes I sit up and look around. I hear someone take a deep breath right next to me. I look at the figure lying next to me. All I can see is the top of the head with silver hear escaping from underneath the blankets. I gasped as I recognize the person laying in the same bed as I had slept. Looking around everything from last night fell in place. 'Me and Zero!?' No that couldn't be.

I get out of bed as quite as possible so I won't wake Zero up. I try to find all of my belongings and clothes. While tiptoe-ing trough Zero's room I bump my little toe against his desk and I can hardly suppress my urge to scout. "Are you oke?" I squeak and turn around slowly facing the bedside of the room. Zero lies on his belly with his arms wrapped around his pillow. His eyes look still a bit tired yet they hold sparkles like he has gathered all the stars and kept them in his eyes. His pale skin has a healthy, wel taken care of glow and his soft pink lips are opened up in a relaxed manner. I can feel my cheeks turn red as my body heat rises. This can't be real.

Zero frowns as he is still waiting for me to awnser his question. "I, I..." my heartbeat accelerates leaving me to take a deep breath to try and calm down. "I'm fine." Not really convincing but it is at least a response. Zero pinches his eyes but doesn't make any comments suggesting that he is on to my doubts. "Where are you going?" He asked me. "Home." I said. How was I going to explain this to Shenri?

~2 months earlier~

Kaname is out to meet with some friends at a local bar. They hang out there quite often. Today would be different though. Shenri was bringing two friends along and Yuki would bring a cousin. He's heard a lot of stories bout these people which made him question the stories they knew since both his friends were really good at gossiping.

In this group of friends, Kaname, Shenri, Yuki and Hanabusa, Kaname was known to be a male slut. Not only that. It was always a surprise who and what he ended up bringing home. Both male and female would do and Kaname was never really picky when it comes to a one night stand. Just as long as they move out when he was done with them.

Walking down the street Kaname could already see Yuki standing outside the bar with a tall blonde man. He had a somewhat familiar face. Yuki looks up and starts scouting towards Kaname. "Look who I brought!! I told you it would be someone cool." Now Kaname recognised the man. It was Kaien, the troublemaker at Yuki's birthday. For some reason everything he touched and everyone he spoke to, something went wrong. It made the party twice as hilarious yet twice as troublesome.

Then Shenri and Hanabusa came from across the street followed by a woman with long toffeed coloured hair waiving over her shoulders. The man had silver hair lavender coloured eyes. Kaname stares at him for a moment unable to hear that Shenri has already tried to introduce the woman he brought along.

"Kaname!" Shenri looks at him with a bored expression and raises an eyebrow while observing Kaname's embarrassed look. "Seriously can I never bring someone along safely? Anyway, this is Ruka, one of my former classmates." Kaname shakes her hand briefly wondering what the man's name would be. It must be something unique just like his looks. "And this," Shenri continues "this is Zero." Kaname shakes the man's hand and felt surprised by the softness of his skin. It didn't feel like a man's hand at all. The group then enters the bar and take a seat.

Shenri quickly takes Kaname back for a second "He's not prey material. If you do anything stupid, anything to hurt him, even look at him for too long, I'll make you regret your decision for a lifetime." Shenri sounded serious and threatening. Just as quick as he got serious he turned back to himself and joined the group with a sparkly smile. Kaname didn't know why but apparently Zero was off limits to him.

As the night proceeded Zero seemed to try and get Kaname's attention. Constantly showing up where Kaname stood, locking eyes with him and smiling in an innocent matter. Kaname didn't know what to think of it yet kept as much distance as he could. Eventually the two ended up at the man's restroom at the same time. Alone. "What did Shenri say to make you back off?" Kaname was taken aback and didn't quite know what to say other than the truth. Zero listened carefully and busted out in laughter. "He's such a dickhead sometimes. Don't take him too seriously. I am capable of making my own decisions and what could you possibly do to hurt me?" Zero smiled at Kaname soothing his uncomfortable feeling standing in the same room as he does.

By the end of the night Kaname and Zero exchanged phone numbers and soon they started texting. It didn't take Kaname very long to find out Zero was hurt by people who claimed to love him very often. That was probably the reason Shenri told him to stay away. Kaname was all about one night stands and unable to keep up a relationship. Zero turned out to be a very naive and trusting person ready to do everything for someone he loved. This made him vulnerable. Kaname kept him at a distance because of it. Despite the fact that Zero was off limits and a few years younger, Kaname couldn't help but noticing his heartbeat raised with every text message he got from Zero.

As the conversations started to get more and more personal Kaname started to love the image he got from Zero. He even talked to Shenri about it trying to find out if Zero was still a no go for him. Even now he had a feeling he could actually bond with him. "No! I won't allow you to get so close to him Kaname. Find yourself another fuckboy for the weekends. He's told you his heart wasn't just broken but purposely crushed and abusd yet you still won't back away." Shenri's face turned slightly red of anger when Kaname approached him. He thought he had been clear about Zero. "Why do you care so much anyway?" Kaname asked him " I don't intend to hurt him I just really want to get to know him. You can't get pissed with me for something I feel!" Kaname started to raise his voice as he felt like he was not being taken seriously. For God's sake how could he make Shenri believe him?

Current time

Zero sat up and stares at me with a questioning look. "What's the rush?" I didn't know how to awnser. I had to promise Shenri not to go down this road, whether I liked it or not, but Zero was off limits and he would stay that way. He has been a close friend to Shenri and together they shared a lot of personal dramas. Every time Zero got hurt it took Shenri months to get Zero back on track and knowing I was the slut of the group he didn't trust me at all. That's why he kept Zero away from me all these years. Shenri already feared I would fall for Zero's looks but he never imagined me actually falling in love.

"Lets get some breakfast before you leave" Zero said as he got out of bed. "I would like that but I need to go." I looked down a little worried this might hurt his feeling already because it sure hurts my own. "Still worried about Shenri? You know, he told me all about you and your lifestyle. I knew what I was getting myself into Kaname." Zero paused and stood with his back towards me. Every inch of me wanted to grab him and tell him this time it wasn't the same but Zero was already ahead of me. "How many times has it happened before that you actually get to know someone before ending up in the same bed? How many people do you share your feeling with? When was the last time you got shy because of a compliment you were given?" Zero now looked at me with a comforting smile. "I'll handle Shenri, you just come with me and enjoy breakfast together." My heart jumped by the way he was so calm and sweet.

Could Zero really get it into Shenri's head that Zero was special to him? Why was Zero even special? I didn't know myself. I just knew it the moment i looked at him. Zero was a perfect example of a balanced man with feminine characteristics and looks. The best of both worlds. Strong yet gentle. Tough yet vulnerable. Honest yet kind. How could I not fall in love with him? He's got everything at once that all the others have combined. He is all of his types in once perfectly beautiful and strong body. I knew this could cost me a very good friendship but it was worth it. Eventually I have to go for my own happiness. And for the first time in my life I actually believe I can achieve that goal with someone. I will achieve it! As long as I keep fighting for it. I won't back away from Zero anymore. I won't be afraid of what Shenri and the others might think and I won't let their opinion weigh down on me.