* My Playlist while writing this:

Snow Patrol - If There's A Rocket Tie Me To It , Crack the Shutters, Lifeboats, Somewhere A Clock Is Ticking, Ways and Means, Make This Go On Forever

Sia - Breathe Me

Iron and Wine - Naked As We Came, Flightless Bird American Mouth, Lovesong of the Buzzard, Sunset Soon Forgotten, The Trapeze Swinger

Safetysuit - Find A Way, Stay

Twilight Soundtrack..of course ;) *

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I stood still in the warm ocean waters, breathing deeply, taking in every scent, every feeling, every taste. I listened with my eyes closed to every sound that encompassed me. I could feel the full moon beaming down on me from above. My palms carefully traced each ripple in the ocean's surface. The water felt so warm against my cold hard body. It moved around me, creating small waves that rolled softly onto the shore behind me with barely a whisper. The only sounds I could hear were my own deep, steady breaths, the waves on the shore, the light breeze that ran through the palm trees and Bella's heartbeat and quick breaths from inside the house.

'Bella…' I sighed into the island air.

I grinned widely as her face came into my mind. I focused on her face. Her beautiful pale alabaster skin that blushed so easily under my fingertips. Her bottom lip that pouted out when she was being stubborn. That same bottom lip that pouted out when she was frustrated or confused. That bottom lip alone drove my thoughts and body crazy. She had absolutely no idea what she did to me physically. She knew exactly what her blood did to me. She knew that I had that lust somewhat under control. I was having a harder time trying to resist the urge to suck on that soft bottom lip. Her body was more alluring to me than her blood. Her blood would always taunt and tempt me. But with time, that lust faded slightly, letting this new incredibly forceful lust blur my vision. Every move, every word, everything she did was done so innocently and every reaction I had to that innocence was far from innocent. My reactions were dangerously sinful.

Dangerous was putting it lightly. In reality, if I didn't control every thought and every move of mine, I could crush her to death with a tiny flick of my finger. She was so fragile and I was so strong. Yet she was so brave, and I was such a coward. She put herself in mortal danger every second she was near me. She knew this, yet still touched me, kissed me, loved me. She was amazing. Amazingly beautiful and amazingly confusing. I would never understand her actions or her thoughts. But everything she did, she did so selflessly. It made me love her even more. It made me push her away and pull her closer at the same time, afraid to hurt her and afraid to lose her.

My breathing grew quicker as my thoughts became deeper and more troubling. Could I control myself, my strength? More importantly, could I control my animal instincts? Those instincts were the ones I was most worried about tonight. On any normal occasion, I could pace myself, control my breathing, and swallow back the venom that pooled in my mouth. I loved to breathe her scent in, but at the same time it scorched my throat like I was swallowing flames. I doubted my self control under these circumstances. I promised her we would try. As fragile as she was physically, by not trying tonight, by not fulfilling my promise to her, I could so easily break her emotionally as well. So breakable. Humans.

As my thoughts started to unravel any confidence I had, I heard tiny little footsteps shuffle across the fine beach sand. I kept my back towards her and eyes closed as I breathed her scent in greedily. Her scent, sweet, warm, inviting, soothing…painful. She slowed to a stop, her breathing and heart still quick and in sync.

'Don't be a coward' she whispered under her breath.

A smile played on my lips as I chuckled to myself. If she only knew how much we were alike in this thought.

I began to tremble as she made her way slowly into the water. Her warmth radiated out from her body as she approached my still form. Her heartbeat and breathing steadied to a normal, calming pace. My heart, if it weren't dead and lifeless inside my cold chest, would be pounding. As nervous as I was about this experiment, it took every ounce of self control to keep myself from taking her right here, right now in the ocean.

She slowed to a stop beside me, laying her hand lightly on top of mine that rested on the water's surface. Just her touch made me tremble even more. 'Don't be a coward' I repeated in my mind. I slowly opened my eyes, taking in the scene above me. The full moon, not a cloud in the sky, the silence, the stillness. The only sound that mattered now was the sound of her heart. It resounded in my mind. It pulsed through her hand and in turn throughout my body. She made me feel alive, like my own heart was pumping again. How I wish that was true.

'Beautiful…' she whispered upwards towards the moon.

I tuned towards her, taking both of our hands and intertwining our fingers together underneath the water, rubbing circles on her palms with my thumbs.

'This?' I jerked my head towards the moon. 'It's okay.'

I freed my right hand and cupped her blushing cheek, tracing it with my thumb.

'This, Bella, is beautiful.' I burned my gaze into hers.

Her breath hitched in her throat and she bit her bottom lip as her blush got even deeper. She had absolutely no idea how amazingly beautiful she was.

'Close your eyes.' I asked of her.

All too willingly, she did, while I gently ran my cool fingertips over every inch of her face, her skin feeling like fire underneath my touch. Her breathing became quicker and her chest heaved up and down as my fingertips trailed down her neck and over her shoulders. I ran them down her back and wrapped them in her wet curls that lay on her bare back. I hadn't noticed before, but this was the first time we were together completely naked. I had been so mesmerized by just her face, her eyes and her lips, that I failed to notice that just a few inches separated our bodies from one another. My breaths came just as quick as hers now.

'Bella, open your eyes.'

The moonlight illuminated every inch of her. Her pale skin was just as white as mine underneath its light. The only difference was the blush that now covered her body in whole. At that same moment, we both looked each other over for the first time. My eyes took in every new inch of her. She shifted her weight nervously as I looked her over much longer than necessary. When I finally met her gaze, her eyes burned into mine with a new fire. My eyes met hers with that same fire.

I closed the distance between us in one careful step. When our naked bodies touched, Bella bit her bottom lip. I kept my eyes on hers, pinning back a low growl that tried to escape my chest. I held my breath and wrapped my hands around her waist and pulled her up so that her feet stood on top of mine on the oceans floor. She chuckled and we both smiled at this familiar position.

'Remember our first dance?'

'I wouldn't call that a dance. I was a prisoner, Edward. If you remember, I was tricked into that night. By more than one person if I recall.' she scowled. Of course she would remember Alice's participation in that night.

'Just admit that you enjoyed that night, Bella. After all this time, you still deny it. Get over it.' I teased. Her eyes narrowed and she pouted her bottom lip, preparing some sort of sarcastic comeback.

'Stop that.'

'Stop what?' She blinked rapidly, her annoyance replaced with confusion.

I traced her bottom lip with my thumb lightly. Her hand ran up my arm slowly and joined mine on her face. She sighed and closed her eyes as I moved our intertwined fingers over her lips.

I drew my lips an inch away from hers.

'That bottom lip is driving me crazy, Bella.' I breathed into her parted lips.

Surprised by my proximity, her eyes darted open and her breathing stopped.

'Breathe, Bella.' I ordered.

She exhaled into my parted lips as I inhaled her sweet warm breath. My eyes flitted closed as I breathed her in. It set me on fire in every possible way.

She softly groaned as my body reacted to her breath. Her lips were on mine then, softly parting and moving gracefully with mine. Her hands ran up my neck and into my hair, pulling gently. A let out a low hiss and forced our kiss deeper, gripping her hips tightly against mine, swaying with the oceans current. Chest against chest, her heart pounded against my still heart. I ran my hands up her waist and slowly let my thumbs run over her breasts. Bella groaned loudly this time, pulling my hair harder and my face tighter to hers. I let my thumbs draw tiny circles along her breasts, feeling every inch of this new skin. She hitched her legs over my waist as she moved her lips to my neck. A threatening growl ripped through my chest, but she continued. This new position, the new friction, it felt too good. I could feel all of her against me and all I had to do was shift her weight up just a few inches. I buried my face in her hair and breathed her in. She continued at my neck but began shifting her hips rhythmically into mine. My eyes shot open and I gasped into her hair as she lowered her head and groaned into my shoulder. I held onto her tightly as she continued with her hips. I held on for my life, for her life. I fought off any reactions I had to move with her. She kept her head into my shoulder as her breaths came quicker and her shifting became faster. My teeth grit together as I fought for control.

I wanted to lose some form of control with Bella. I wanted to feel this with her. Her moans, her fingers digging into my back, her breaths quick in sync with her hips. I wanted to move with her. I wanted to feel the release with her. But, I was afraid that if I contributed even for a second, that I would be too careless. I could endure this feeling, her sounds of pleasure. I would have to endure it for her.

Her chest heaved up and down, her heart thudding noisily against my silent hollow chest. Her moans grew louder as she came closer. My breaths came quick as she began to tremble in my arms. Her breaths came in gasps now and she bit my shoulder as she shuddered at her release. She moaned loudly and I growled into the ocean air. She darted her head up and pulled my face to hers as her hips slowed their pace. Her lips fought with mine as her hands tangled in my hair. I loosened my grip for life on her as her hips slowed to a trembling stop. Her shaky breaths filled my mouth as our kiss became gentler. I pulled her face away from mine to let her breathe, rubbing her flushed cheeks with my thumbs.

'Thank you, Edward.' She said when she finally regained her breath and steady heartbeat.

I kissed her lips softly as I untangled her legs from around my waist with a sigh. Before her feet could hit the oceans floor, I swung her around onto my back.

'What are you doing?' she asked, confused and clinging to my back.

'Going for a swim.' I grinned at her from over my shoulder. I pulled her arms tighter around my neck. 'Hold on tight.'

And with Bella on my back, we both headed deeper into the dark ocean waters.