Chapter one
Dear A
Dear A
I hoped one day
To find out the answer
To the question
I've been scared to ask
But Dear A
I was too scared
Too afraid
Too weak
To ask
Because what if it was me?
What if it was me?
(I couldn't live with myself)
Dear A
All those nights
Sat in silence
In the corner of your bar
My shame hidden by my hood
You never meet my eyes
Not even once
Dear A
Loss is a powerful tool
But guilt is stronger
My guilt
It's eating me alive
It makes me fight harder
Makes me love more
And even though
I know I am going to die
I don't believe
That even death
Could soften the weight
I carry inside
Dear A
I know you hate me
Even after all these years
It doesn't matter
I hate myself more
But I wish
Deep, deep down
That I could have been more like you
Little Brother
And less like me
(so power hungry)
Dear A
If I'd known what the potion would make me see
I wouldn't have had the strength to drink it
And Harry would have been lost
(and all hope with him)
And, oh, such terrible things
But the scariest thing
Was that they were all true
Dear A
I am about to die
I can feel death coming for me
As surely as the Chudley Cannons
Will finish bottom of the league
Again
But the plan I have set in motion
The wheels that have begun to spin
Cannot be stopped.
Dear A
One last favour,
please,
I know I shouldn't ask it of you
Not after I murdered our sister
But Harry needs help
He's a better man that I
But he can't do this alone
So when he comes to you
When it is about to end
Please don't turn him away
Give him a choice
The choice Arianna never had
To fight or flee
But let him fight
Because that is what he will choose
Dear A
I'm sorry
Oh my brother
You can never understand
how sorry I am
Yours, always,
The lesser brother