Author's Note: This is the first in a series of one-shots that will bridge What I See and I Feel the Earth Move. IFtEM is set several years in the future in San Fransisco. These one shots will consist of their life through college and for a few years afterward. Keep an eye out for I Feel the Earth Move which will be out in a couple of months. Please feel free to review and let me know what you think.
The title comes from the Evanescence song Good Enough.
Happy reading!
I Can't Say No to You
(First in a Series of One Shots)
By Danielle Cheri
"Are you sure about this?" Sebastian asked as they drove back to his house.
"I am." Dave slipped his hand into the other boy's. "You have everything we need?"
"Yep."
"I don't know if I'm entirely ready for this." He said nervously.
"Then we don't have to do it, baby. There's no pressure. There never has been." Sebastian played his fingers over Dave's palm.
"You're leaving for Connecticut tomorrow and it's going to be a long time before we're together again. And I don't want our first time to be in a dorm room where we have to share a tiny, uncomfortable bed and worry about roommate schedules. And you've waited over a year. I don't know how long I can honestly keep saying no to you. It's getting mean."
"Not mean. Dave, you've never done this before. It's going to be awkward and uncomfortable at first. I just want you to know that I'm not expecting it. We do plenty of other stuff." He pulled into his driveway and put the car in park. "And I like the other stuff almost as much as the rest of it."
"Sebastian, babe, I…"
He was silenced with a kiss. "Stop. Breathe. It's okay. We'll go upstairs and just relax and work our way to it. It won't happen right away. And it shouldn't. We have tonight and then months of nothing but sexting and Skype and waiting for it to happen again." He kissed Dave again and then got out of the car. He ran around the front and opened the door before his boyfriend could open it.
They walked slowly upstairs together. Laird wasn't home. After spending all week having quality time with his son, he had set up a date with his girlfriend so that Sebastian could have a guilt-free good-bye date with Dave.
Sebastian turned on his iPod to a slow mix he'd put together earlier. It was a mix of the top forty he loved and the cheesy slow jams his boyfriend enjoyed. The first song was Spice Girls 2 Become 1.
"Seriously?" Dave said with a laugh. "Is this supposed to get us in the mood?"
"It's supposed to relax you, baby." He sat down beside Dave on the bed.
"Spice Girls is kind of my guilty pleasure." He admitted awkwardly.
"Really? No way, me too."
"No."
"Yes. Come here and look." He opened up his iTunes as his boyfriend leaned over his shoulder. He clicked the plays button and scrolled down a little. "See? Right under Maroon 5."
"We really are perfect for each other." Dave said. He kissed Sebastian's cheek.
Sebastian turned his head and caught his lips. He pulled Dave down onto his lap.
He tried to resist. "I'll crush you."
"Come here, baby." His boyfriend insisted.
Dave sighed and lowered himself to Sebastian's lap. He pressed his lips to the other boy's again and again. He stood after a while and let out a long breath.
"It's okay." Sebastian said.
Dave shook his head and paced the room. "I don't know how to do this."
"I know." He stood and stopped Dave. He placed his hands on the side of the other boy's face. "You don't have to know all of it. We've done enough that you know the basics. Just calm down. It's not going to happen all at once." He kissed him softly. "Sit down."
Dave sat on the bed.
Sebastian stepped back and kicked off his shoes as he unbuttoned his shirt slowly. He slipped the shirt off his shoulders and let it fall to the floor. He stepped between Dave's knees and picked up his hands. He kissed each of his palms and then guided them to his stomach. "Breathe." He said softly.
Dave let out a breath he didn't realize he was holding. He moved his hands up Sebastian's torso. He leaned forward and kissed his hip bone above the top of his jeans. He kissed a trail to his belly button and then rested his forehead against the other boy's stomach.
Sebastian leaned over and kissed the top of his head. "I love you."
Dave looked up and smiled. "I love you, too."
Sebastian tugged at his boyfriend's shirt until he raised his arms for it to be removed. He kissed the other boy's now-bare shoulder as he dropped to his knees. He lifted Dave's feet one by one and slipped off his shoes and socks.
Dave kissed his forehead and slid his hands over his boyfriend's chest and shoulders and back.
Sebastian moaned and pushed Dave onto his back, kissing him fiercely. His hands struggled to touch every inch of his boyfriend's exposed flesh.
Dave's hands roved over Sebastian's back and then moved around to his stomach to unbutton and unzip his jeans. He pushed them down his hips a little and slipped a hand down the front of them, rubbing him through his boxers.
Sebastian moaned again and thrust against Dave's touch. He broke the kiss and looked into Dave's eyes. "Let's finish getting out of these clothes."
"Yeah." He said breathlessly.
Sebastian stood and shucked his jeans and boxers. He caressed Dave's face. "You're so… handsome."
"Thank you. You're… a lot of things that I'm sure you've heard before."
"Tell me anyway, baby."
"Hot and sexy and more than I deserve."
Sebastian chuckled before he bent down and kissed him. "I thought we were getting more naked."
Dave stood and removed the rest of his clothes as Sebastian turned to rummage in his desk drawer. He wrapped his arms around the other boy's waist and kissed his shoulder. "What are you looking for?"
"Well, baby, if you really want this to happen, we're going to need a couple things." He turned and held up a box of condoms and a bottle of lube.
Dave blushed. "Oh. Right."
Sebastian kissed him. "You're already naked. Not much else can happen at this point."
The other boy nodded. He wrapped his arms around Sebastian's waist and kissed him softly. "Let's do this."
Sebastian chuckled and sat down on the bed. He grabbed Dave by the hips and pulled him closer. He pulled out one of the condoms and ripped it open. He stroked Dave a few times before he slowly rolled the condom on.
Dave ran his fingers down Sebastian's face. "What now?"
"Come here." Sebastian pulled Dave on top of him. They kissed lazily. Sebastian broke the kiss. "Give me your hand." When Dave complied, Sebastian took his index finger and squirted some of the slippery substance onto it.
Then he guided Dave inside, throwing his head back. He urged the other boy on in his movements as he rocked his hips along with the clumsy rhythm.
Dave inserted another finger at his boyfriend's urging. And then another after a few more strokes, stretching his entrance deliciously.
"Now." Sebastian moaned. "Get in me now."
"Babe, I—"
"Here." He thrust the bottle of lube at him.
Dave took it and shakily applied some to himself until he felt it was enough. He leaned over Sebastian and kissed him as he slid inside.
"Perfect." Sebastian breathed, looking into Dave's eyes. "Remember to breathe, baby."
"Sebastian…" He didn't know what he wanted to say. So much was running through his mind and body.
"Just move, Dave. And don't think about anything else. Just be with me."
Dave slid out slowly and then back in a little faster. It was awkward and wonderful all at the same time. And after a bit, he came to a steady rhythm. He stroked Sebastian as he moved within him, adding to his boyfriend's pleasure.
"That's it, baby." Sebastian crooned as he moved his hands all over his boyfriend's body. He felt the tightening in his body as he got closer to his climax. He gasped out, "Dave!" just before he came, his head falling back on the mattress.
Dave continued to stroke him through his release. And then he let go and ran his hand up Sebastian's chest. He ran his nails back down and his hands came to rest on his boyfriend's hips. He gripped them and leaned back, thrusting more quickly until he met his own climax wordlessly moments later. He stood panting and looking down at his sated boyfriend.
Sebastian tugged on his arm. "Beside me." He requested softly.
Dave stepped back and awkwardly slipped the condom off. "What am I, um…?"
"Toss it in the trash can under the desk. I have to empty that anyway."
He did and then sat down on the bed. "Was that okay?"
Sebastian tugged him down. "It was great for a virgin."
Dave slapped him playfully. "Not a virgin anymore."
"Well, not in that way." He slipped an arm around him and then nuzzled his neck. "Let's take a shower, baby."
"That sounds like a good idea." He sat up and stretched. He looked down at Sebastian and rested a hand on his chest. "I'm going to miss you."
"I'll call you tomorrow and talk to you the entire time."
"You need to focus on the drive, babe."
"Then I'll call every couple of hours." He got up and headed toward the shower. "Come on. Don't make me do this all alone." He said over his shoulder.
Dave got up and ran toward him. He scooped him up.
"Oh, my god." Sebastian laughed, wrapping his arms around Dave's neck. "I didn't realize you were so strong."
"Well, you're kind of puny." He kissed Sebastian's cheek. "Let's get cleaned up." He carried him into the bathroom.