Yo! PruIta shippers! Here I am with my first Hetalia fic! And it is PruIta! I hope I'm not messing with anything, I just thought that Prussia and Italy was sooooooo cuteee~~~ I can't resist the desire to make this fic. Sorry! I'm not very good at English, I knew that I messed with grammar much, please bare with it! Anyway~ Enjoy !
Human Names used.
Italy – Feliciano Vargas
Prussia – Gilbert Beilschmidt
Germany – Ludwig Beilschmidt
Disclaimer : I don't own Hetalia or any of its characters.
Warning : Yaoi, bad words.
Italic=lyrics
According to You
According to you I'm stupid, I'm uselessI can't do anything right
Today is Feliciano's birthday, he can't be happy enough to be reaching 17 so soon. He's very happy that he has Ludwig as his boyfriend now. The younger German boy who just moved in to his school 3 weeks ago. Their relationship had moved fast, very fast. The first week had few classes together and hanging out sometimes afterschool as 'friend'. After a week together, as 'friends' of course. Feliciano discovered that the Germany never felt love before. The poor boy, and Feliciano decided that it would be a great idea if he could teach the younger German how to love. Surprisingly, Ludwig agreed. Feliciano can't be more happy at time. Even though sometimes the German didn't treat him right, he thinks Ludwig is still cute. And that's how their relationship starts, the next day they instantly had their first date. The 'not-so-romantic-date' watching movie together at the theater. The Germany keep pusing him off and won't let him do anything romantic, at all. He had attempted to snuggle Ludwig at some point during the movie but the Germany push him off, saying things about being in public and he even call him stupid, that hurts the Italian of course. But Feliciano decided that it was only because Ludwig is still not used to be together in the public,because, this is practically his first date, so Feliciano let this one slid off. But as Feliciano think about Ludwig further, that is not the only mean things the German had ever said to him, there is some time in school that he called him useless during their 'friendship' time. And that is only because Feliciano can't tie his shoelace together. Okay that is a little intolerable, but hey, that is no reason to call your friend useless right? And there is also time the Germany accused him for can't do anything right, even the simplest one. That hits Feli hard, and this time was because Feli forgot to bring his jacket that left in Feli's house the previous day during their project-making. But it was Ludwig's fault is it not? And Ludwig shout at Feli too that time. Feliciano is upset.
According to you I'm difficult, hard to please
There is sometime too the Germany said that Feli is difficult and hard to please. That thought made Feli mad, hey! Only because your boyfriend demands a little attention and love during their dates is normal right? Feli only want to hold Ludwig's hand at a walk on a beach for the romantic evening. But the Germany refused. Claiming that the Italian demands too much. That makes Feli's head boil. For the hecks sake, there is no one at the beach but them now. The Italian was dissappointed, but kept smiling through his fake smile.
Forever changing my mind
The Germany has ever mad at him too for can't stay up to one decision for too long. If Feliciano think about his relationship deeper, their relationship will be hard to work at. There had been lack of understanding in Ludwig's side and himself was just too understanding. Feli practically understand all of Ludwig's flaw and Ludwig never understand his. Even once. He always critics everything that Feli done wrong and never thank him for everything that Feli gives. That's right. Feli always give, rarely ever receive. And it is not working on the vice versa.
I'm a mess in a dress, can't show up on time
Even if it would save my life
According to you, according to you
Feliciano always think that Ludwig is to critical. Too judging. Only because of what he was wearing, Ludwig is mad at him. It is up to him right what he would wear for the day, for their date. He wore sleeveless shirt and a jeans that reach his knees, true that it is a bit too colorful, but Ludwig should be more accepting right, at least on this matter. What upsets him the most is when Ludwig told him that he is unresponsible. Can't even be on time, even if he usually late for 10-15minutes. Ludwig has to understand this matter, he don't know what Feli had been through. He had to go through an overprotective brother of his, which would meant dead or alive (LOL).
But according to him I'm beautiful, incredible
He can't get me out of his head
Feliciano started to think about Ludwig's big brother, Gilbert. He can't help but think that maybe, maybe Feli better off with Gilbert more than with Ludwig. Gilbert is a lot nicer than Ludwig, he think. The first time they talked Gil already told Feli that he is beautiful. Not too far off there is another compliment. He also said that Feli is incredible,awesome. And that is only the second day of their meeting. Nhe cant help but think that Gilbert is a lot more appreciating. The older Germany never called him mean names, Gilbert gave him compliment,appreciation. And with no reason, Feliciano can't help but feel more comfortable around Gilbert more than Ludwig. But his heart had been blinded by the love he had for Ludwig, no matter how Ludwig treat him, he can't brought himself to hate the younger Germany.
According to him I'm funny, irresistible
Everything he ever wanted
Gilbert also told him that he is funny, cute, and outgoing. That makes his heart flutter, Ludwig never compliment him like that. This is not the first time Feliciano got the comments funny and cute of course, a lot of people had said those words to him, but for no reason, hearing the words coming from Gilbert, he felt more special. He felt more loved, heck, Gilbert also said that he is irresistible, if not for Feliciano dates Ludwig, Gilbert would date Feli. That made Feliciano reconsiderate his decision of dating Ludwig, he can't help but think that he might be better if he dates Gilbert instead of Ludwig. Gilbert paid attention to Feli a lot lot more, the moment Feliciano remember the most is when Feli fell on the basketball court during PE, Gilbert carried him to the infimary. While Ludwig continues play basketball and did not help Feliciano. During breaks, Gilbert bought him food and kept him a company, and Feliciano didn't see Ludwig visiting him in the nursery. That breaks Feli's heart, he's glad he got Gilbert as company, otherwise, the Italian might cry fron the pain of his heart and physically.
*flashback*
*Feli's POV*
.God, why do PE had to ever exsist in this word, I hate it, damn! I should have skipped the school today! Ugh how stupid of him, during PE, everything seems to get worse, the last time I played volleyball he got few hits on the head and succedeed in harming all of my enemies, which resulted in being hindrance on my team, Ludwig yells at me all the time won't work. Ahhhhhhhhh I wish I would just die right here right now on the spot.
"Alright, everyone! Today we will be playing basketball, I will divide the group into two teams, the team is the same as the volleyball before." The teacher told them.
"Whatt!?" I said loudly, and covered my mouth quickly, i can feel my cheeks getting red. All of my classmates looks at me now. I cant help but yell because of the team organization. This means I had to team up with Ludwig, not that I hate it… He is good at sport. But I'm afraid if I'll get yelled at again. I don't like it. At all.
"Do you have any objection Vargas?"
"U-ugh, no sir."
"Good, everyone! Get into your position and let the game begin!" The teacher smirks abit, everyone started to move towards the basketball court, but i'm still rooted to my current position. I can't find the strength to move. I'm afraid to be the hindrance for my team.
"Feli-chan? Are you alright?" Gilbert's word snapped me of my thinking mode.
"U-uh… I'm alright Gil! Lets go! Ve~" I tried my best to not stutter in my words. Too bad I'm not one team with Gilbert, it will be so much fun if we did. It's alright though, probably I'm going to be his hindrance too if I join his team. I started to move to the basketball court, he followed me not so far behind.
The first period of basketball went smoothly, right now I'm trying to avoid the balls at any costs, and it worked just fine, my team can beat the opposing team without my help fine. But then, I don't know if there is someone running behind me. The moment I realized is when he is so close and I don't have time to avoid it, then it happened. He bumped into me and I fell forward, I can feel my leg is twisted and I fell on my knees. And I can feel its getting a strach too. I looked up and see who bumped into me, it is Ludwig.
"That's what you get for not paying attention to your surrounding." Ludwig said nonchalantly, without any effort to help me. I was getting upset, my leg wasn't helping too. Ugh I'm so pathetic. I can't even find the words to threw back at him. And then I noticed a hand in front of my face. I thought it was Ludwig's but when I look up, it was Gilbert, my face fell. I took the hand slowly and tried to pull myself up. I got into standing position, he let go of my hand and I fell backwards because of the lack of support. I closed my eyes, waiting for the expected pain that never comes, I opened one of my eye and felt strong arms in my waist.
"You can't walk?" Gilbert's red eyes staring into me with worried expression, I can feel myself getting shy at his gaze. I shook my head slowly. And then I can feel myself getting hoisted up bride style. My cheeks getting redder.
"V-ve~ what are you doing Gil?" I stuttered at my words
"Bring you to the infimary" He said shortly.
"Sensei! I'm bringing him to the infimary!" Gilbert shout towards my PE teacher. I looked into Ludwig's direction and feel his icy cold eyes on mine. I shivered.
-infimary-
"Ve~ thanks Gil!" I hugged him after he put me to the bed and sat beside me.
"N-no problem! Helping people is what awesome person do!" His cheeks gets abit red, or maybe just my imagination.
"Well well, what do we have here?" Sakura, the teacher that took care of the nursery said.
"He fell" Gilbert said simply.
"Ohh! Poor Feli! Are you alright?" Sakura said a bit frantic and he checks my leg, "Oh my God! It bleeds, hang on I'll take some bandage!" I giggled abit at her antics.
"Ve~ I'm alright Sakura-sensei! But I think my ankle is twisted though…"
"My! How can you call that alright?! It bleeds so much!" She said whle bandaging my knees, after she's done, she took off my shoes and my pink socks to check on my ankle. I hissed at the touch. "Are you alright?" Gilbert said. I bit my lower lip. God it's so painful! "V-ve~ I'm alright! It only hurt abit." I lied. Gil holds my hand tightly, my eyes widened and my cheeks warmed. Ohh! His hand is so warm! I'm too lost in my thought to pay atttention to my surrounding, I don't even know that sakura already done bandaging my ankle.
"There! All done! You should rest here though! It'll be hard to walk. I'll inform your next class' teacher. "Oh, and Gil. You should go back, the teacher will probably looking for you."
"B-but-"
"No buts!" She said sternly, I wanted Gilbert to stay here, but I can't really go against her right? I can hear Gilbert sighed and he moved out of the room. I don't know why, but I felt myself getting saddened at Gilbert's leave.
This is sooooooo boring! I'd rather be on class than to be doing nothing here!
"Hey Feli! Bored much?" Sakura said sweetly
"Ve~ very!"
"Hey I got an idea! How about we play cards? I brought one here!" She said, holding the card she brought in front of my face. I don't really like playing card actually, but it's okay, better than to die of boredom.
"Okay!" I said cheerfully.
We played for a long time. Laughing at each other's face. When we lost ,our face will be marked with powder she brought. Man, she looked horrible! But I bet I looked nothing better than her at the moment, I can feel myself getting comfortable here. And then the bell rang, which a sign of break time, we ignored that and continued playing our card. And I can hear knocking not too long after the bel rang. We turned our head towards the door. Wow! Gilbert is here! I can't get more excited about the idea.
"Ve~ Hey there Gil! Wanna join us?" I said innocently. He laughed out loud for no reason. I tilted my head curiously
"What are you laughing at?" I asked innocently
"Don't laugh at us moron! What are you doin here" Sakura said harshly.
"Hahahahahahahaha! Look at your faces guys! Its hilarious." He said beetween laughs. I can feel myself getting a bit offended too at his words. "Oh, and anyway, I brought you some awesome food Feli-chan!" He said, finally stopped laughing, showing me the food he brought at his right hand. I moved out from my current bed and try to run towards him. Which is not so cool, cause cause I'm falling, again. I closed my eyes and wait for the pain to come, again. But the pain never came. And I felt strong arms holding me so I wont fall, again. Wow it felt like déjà vu. But right now I can guess that Gilbert is supporting me again.
"Whoa! Be more careful Feli!" Gilbert said, guiding me towards the bed, he sat me carefully on the bed and put the food beside me, he himself sat on the left side of me.
"You don't bring me one?" Sakura said
"No, why should I?"
"That's so mean! Alright I'll buy one for myself, watch over the infimary okay guys!" Sakura said, getting up and walk towards the door
"Okay Sakura-sensei!" I said cheerfully. And then I looked att the bag that Gilbert brought. Oh my God! There is pasta inside! I can't get happier now.
"Ve~! Thanks Gil!" I hugged him again and start to open my pasta. Gilbert opens one himself, which would probably contains wurst.
"No problem! I bought it from the canteen." I hummed in delight, this is so delicious and perfect! It's been awhile since I ate foods from the canteen which tastes better than the one I usually made for school! Gilbert is too sweet~
We ate our lunch in silence, and I caught Gilbert looking at me for no spesific reason. Ahhh I know! He must be yearning for my pasta! No one had been able to resist such temptation, so I decided to share mine with him, whish was practically hi because he is the one who bought it.
"Aww Gil! You should have said so if you want some of my pasta!~ Here… say ahhhhhhh!" I said in my usual tone. I can see Gilbert blushes abit. And I'm guessing its from excitement from eating pasta! Hohohooo. Pasta rocks! He opened his mouth slowly, and I put the fork twirled with pasta in his mouth, he clamped it slowly and chews on the pasta, I can see Gilbert's face filled with excitement, aww that's soooo cute! Cuter than Ludwig's. We chatted quietly during oour lunch, I'm soo glad I had Gil here, if he isn't then I'll probably be alone since Sakura-sensei would eat her lunch on the cafetaria. Time passed by quickly, the bell rang. I can't help but feel upset because Gilbert is leaving again.
"Well, I got to go Feli! See you later!" Gilbert said, half-running to his next class. Here I am, being alone and bored without anything to do. But I'm sure Sakura-sensei would be back soon. I waited patiently and try to clean our lunch packages, I collected the packages in one place and wait for Sakura-sensei comeback. Few minutes later, Sakura-sensei came back with a smile.
"Bored, I see…" She said thoughtfully, rubbing her chin.
"Veee~ Yes! Let's play card! I cant stand this boredom!" I said desperately, trying to get rid of the loneliness inside.
"Alright!" She said, setting up the card for us to play.
We played more until the bell rang again, signalling the end of the school.
"Aww! That's sad! Let's continue the game sometimes!" She said, sadness evident on her face. Now I'm getting confused, how was I supposed to get home in situation like this, I can't walk, all of my things, bag and books were left in the class. Not so long after, I saw Gilbert walking towards the infimary, seemingly brings two bags, I'm so glad I had him, otherwise, I won't be getting home without my bag. I''m still worried over the fact that I might not be home today because of my leg. My brother, Lovino, would probably going home with Antonio, and Ludwig never walk me home.
"Heya Feli-chan! How was your leg?"
"Uhmm… It is not getting better, I think I can't walk yet." I answered with hestiation.
"Ahh! That's bad, let me carry you home then.." Gilbert said, kneeling down with his back against the bed I'm in. I can feel the blush crept into my cheeks one more time.
"Uh, wait Gil, you don-"
"Come on Feli! You know very well that you are not going home in your condition right now, let me carry you!" Gilbert said with a smirk I eventually give up and climbed up into his back, he hoisted me up, I yelped, wrapping my arms around his neck to steady carried me to my home, alongside the journey, I decided to break the silence with a gratitude.
"Thank you Gil! I don't know how what will I do if you don't show up…"
"No problem Feli!" Well, he sure said that word a lot today, he helped me too much, I'm started to feel guilty about being a burden to him right now. He continued to carry me towards my home in silence. I can feel myself getting drowsy and laid my head to his broad shoulder.
Wow! I'm in a world of pasta! Veeee~ This is sooo fun! The last time I remembered was Gilbert carrying me, and now I am in the best place in the world! Even the houses were made of pasta. I decided that I can ejnoy this for awhile, I ate the pastas that was in shape of a door. While I was eating the door, I can feel an earthquake, I'm getting dragged back and forth. Ugh! I'm getting dizzy.
When I opened my eyes, I can see a pair of red eyes looked into mine with worry.
"God! Feli, you scared me! I'm glad you were alright!" Gilbert said, the worry is gone now. I can't help but chuckle at his cute face. So the pasta world was a dream? Aww that is too bad.
"Vee~ sorry Gil I fell asleep!~"
"Feli, we're here already, do you have the key? I tried to knock but no one answered"
"Oh yes I have it, wait…" Idug into my pocket and found the key. "Here." I give the key to Gilbert, he moved to stand up and unlock the door, then kneeled again to pick me up, bridal style this time. My cheeks getting ward. Again. I can''t count how many times I blushed today, but I can't help, that just happens naturally, which confused me too. He carried me to my bed and put me gently to the bed and put my bag on the table nearby. Then he sat on the edge of the bed.
"Ve~ thanks for carrying me back Gil! I know that I'm heavy! You're so awesome! I can't thank you enough for today!~"
"No Problem Feli-chan! I'm glad to be able to help you!"
We spent the afternoon together in my house, waiting for my brother's arrival, he didn't want me to be all alone, how sweet of him~
*end Flashback*
Everything is opposite, I don't feel like stopping it
So baby tell me what I got to lose
He's into me for everything
I'm not According to you
Felicano smiled as he remembered his sweet moments with Gilbert. Compared to how Ludwig, his boyfriend. Gilbert totally wins, yet Feliciano can't find the right time to break up with Ludwig, he still had some feelings for the younger Germany. But as he think deeper about his relationship now, he got nothing to regret about if he break up with Ludwig, and he could be with Gilbert, that would be better, at least he would still feel appreciated. Gilbert had made it clear that he likes him and he had proved that he could be a better boyfriend than his younger brother, Feliciano thinks that it's about time he broke up with Ludwig and not think about himself in a way Ludwig does, to make him less insecure and finally became happier.
According to you I'm boring, I'm moody
And you can't take me any place
Feliciano can't remember the last time someone ever tell him that he is boring, he had tried his best to make himself more comfortable to be around and be as funny and as cute as possible so he wouldn't feel as lonely as his childhood was, it felt like Ludwig has tore old wounds open back to make it hurt more. He tried to forget his past as much as he could, and now Ludwig brought it up again, make him feel depressed, the more he think of it, the more he wants to break his relationship with the mean Germany, he can't stand it if he's being treated like this, especially by someone he love so much. As if those insults wasn't enough, Ludwig add more to the lists, he told Feliciano that he is moody, and there is no place he could be peaceful with Feliciano around, of course that words stung to his chest like he's being stabbed by a knife by Ludwig, Ludwig just never think about other people's feelings, besides, if Ludwig hates Felicano so much, why does the relationship still stand?
According to you I suck at telling jokes
'Cause I always give it away
Pain, pain, pain, that's what Feliciano feels around Ludwig, Ludwig never laugh at his jokes, instead, Ludwig's getting mad at him because he is too un-serious, and told him he is very immature and childish.
I'm the girl with the worst attention span
You're the boy who puts up with that
According to you, according to you
Ludwig even ever told him that he should stop trying to gain people's attention, especially him, he said that Feliciano's attempt is very annoying, but to Feliciano, all the attention things was only to avoid the loneliness he felt, why can't Ludwig understand that? He's getting very tired of all of the shits he's been through with Ludwig, the ever so perfect man. That is, according to people around him, a lot of his female friends told him that he is lucky to be dating the handsome Ludwig, but all he could feel was pain, and of course, some love, the more he think about it, he absolutely needs a person who is less strict and more loving, which is Gilbert.
But according to him
I'm beautiful, incredible
He can't get me out of his head
According to him
I'm funny, irresistible
Everything he ever wanted
Gilbert, who understands him, who appreciated him, who told him that he is beautiful, who also said that he is incredible, who always cares for him, who never said anything bad to him, who never hurt his heart, who always loved him, who told him that he is funny, who loves to flirt with him, said that Feliciano is too cute, too irresistible and who always accept him whoever he is, who's not telling him to be perfect, but love him the way he is.
Everything is opposite, I don't feel like stopping it
So baby tell me what I got to lose
He's into me for everything I'm not
According to you
As he think of Gilbert, he decided that he didn't need someone who thinks of him as stupid, useless, can't do anything right, who never appreciate all the things and attempt to make Ludwig happy, who accused him of being difficult and hard to please, which is totally wrong, totally opposite from Gilbert's view. He doesn't need someone to tell him that he is boring, can't tell jokes and who told him that he is an attention whore, he got a voice in his head to tell him all those things, he need someone better, he needs someone who understand.
I need to feel appreciated
Like I'm not hated, oh no
Why can't you see me through his eyes?It's too bad, you're making me dizzy
Today, his birthday, he decided to make himself happy, make himself free from the restraint he got from being with Ludwig, he decided to break up with Ludwig.
*Feliciano's POV*
Today, yes, today, I, Felicano Vargas, promised to myself that I wouldn't make myself suffer any longer, I will free myself from the string that is Ludwig, I got nothing to regret anyway, I could still find someone better, I got nothing to lose from this breakup, so, why not… I prepare myself, make myself stronger so I won't cry, I won't let myself cry, at least not in front of Ludwig, I took deep breath, make my way out of my house.
As I open the front door, I could see Ludwig in the front door, right hand holds up to knock the door, and left hand seemed to be holding something that looked like a gift, wow, that really surprises me. I can't believe he got me a gift! But, I can't back down, I can feel my defense shaken, but I need to say strong, I need to break up with him, I need to be happier.
"Can I go in?" Ludwig said, with his deep voice.
"Sure!" I replied with sweet voice, I need to be fake, at least on this one.
But according to me you're stupid, you're useless
You can't do anything right
We sat with silence in the sofa at my living room, I could see him being nervous, hah, I bet he can't even find the right word to give the present.
"Uhm, Feliciano, I got you some-"
"Hahaha, no need, I don't need it, we're done." I said, cutting him off and lost my usual sweet voice in the sentence. He eyed me curiously, seemed to rethink of my last word, in the last minute, I could see the realization in his eyes, and I liked seeing his shocked face, it gives me pleasure, seeing him in his slight pain makes me want to laugh. I led him to the front door while he stilled on his shocked state
"Stupid, useless, can't do anything right" I said with much venom in my voice, slammed the door in his face. A single tear escaped trough my eyes, I wiped it quickly and replace it with a smile.
I could finally be free!
But according to him I'm beautiful, incredible
He can't get me out of his head
According to him I'm funny, irresistible
Everything he ever wanted
I ran back to my room, flipped my phone open and calls Gilbert, I could still hear Ludwig's voice and knocks from the door but I decided to ignore it, I'm content now.
"Hello?" I could hear Gilbert's rough voice from the other end.
"Ve~ Hello! Gil! Watcha doin?" I said, the sweetness and innocent were back.
"Ehh? Is this Feli-chan?" excitement was obvious in his voice, I tried to hold back a smile
"Si~ Think you can come over Gil? I need to talk about something to you…"
"Uhh… can't we talk it through the phone?
"Hmm, I think we can't, it's kinda important…"
"Hah! Okay Feli-chan~ I'll be there soon! Cya!" Just the way I like it,Gilbert is much more better than his younger bro. I rolled back and forth in my bed, getting all excited like a schoolgirl that waits for her date.
About 15 minutes later, I could hear knocks from the front door, I stepped out of my bed and jog to the front door, and open the door happily, I look up and meet a pair of red eyes and white hair, not waiting for a permission , I glomped him, I could feel Gilbert almost lose his balance, but regained it soon, Ve~ he is so strong!
"Whoa! Calm down there Feli-chan!"
"Sorry Gil! I'm just so happy!" I led him to the living room while holding his hand.
"What's up Feli-chan? Ludwig finally opens his eyes?"
"No! even better!"
"Ehh? What happened?"
"I broke up with him." I said simply, I could see his red orbs widened and mouth agape "B-b-but, REALLY?"
"Yeah! I wannaa bee with youuu Gil!" Gilbert's eyes opened even more and I could see his blush, awww he is so handsome, why won't I realize it sooner! Stupid me~
"F-feli-chan? Is that true?" I lost my patience, I glomped him and kissed him right on the mouth, His eyes widened even more(LOL if that's even possible). He tensed a bit and relaxed moments after, and kissed back. . . ! I could get to kiss my handsome prince~ and get rid of the evil dragon.
Everything is opposite, I don't feel like stopping it
Baby tell me what I got to lose
He's into me for everything I'm not
According to you, you According to you, you
Moments later, we stopped kissing, and catch our breath.
"Feli-chan…. Are you serious about this?"
"Of course! I won't kiss you if I'm not!" I replied, slightly pouting at his doubts.
"YESS! FINALLY!" I see Gilbert jumps and held his fist to the air and hugs me tightly. I'm not regretting anything. In fact, I'm happy now, being in Gilbert's arms made me happy and safe, this is where I belong.
According to you I'm stupid, I'm useless I can't do anything right
I love Gilbert, but I will never forget Ludwig. I will always remember his words, stupid, useless, good-for-nothing. But now that I got Gilbert I could care less about my imperfection and be fully happy just the way I am.