Author's Notes: this fic is totally random and it just popped up into my head while I was listening to Papa Roach's CD 'lovehatetragedy' and really listened for the first time, to the song "Life is a Bullet" which I decided was perfect for Kikyo's thoughts on the funeral pyre. then i decided that "Black Clouds" fit Sango perfectly. then I had to find one for Kagome to make the name of the fic "My Will" after the first ending song, which features all three of InuYasha's wonderful women. Anyhoo, I decided on 'lovehatetragedy' the song, for Kagome, even though it doesn't fit at all... the song is cut, because I didn't feel like typing the bridge the five thousand times it says it. anyhoo, plese forgive this chapter, it's not as good as the other two. My favorite is the second chapter. Anyhoo, the three chapters are named after the name of the CD, with the first chapter as "Love" With Kagome and the song "Lovehatetragedy" the second chapter is "Hate" with Kikyo and "Life is a Bullet" and the third chapter is "Tragedy" with Sango and "Black Clouds" onward to the story.

Disclaimer: Okay, disclaimer, THEN story.. well, I don't own anything.. so NYAH! ((sticks tongue out))

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Chapter one-"Love"

Kagome POV

As long as I've been here, I still don't understand the way things are. I think I'm in love with him.. but, how can I be? he's so selfish, and arrogant. I just don't get him! sometimes, he makes me so mad, and he doesn't even get it!

/Human behavior

Peculiar it seems/

I hate him... but then I don't.. I don't understand.. he's such a jerk, but I care about him...

/Some thrive on hate

Some live and dream/

I wonder if this is how Kikyo felt. I mean, it can't be, right? She had it all planned, right? It just doesn't seem like she could ever be surprised or unprepared. I don't really know what this is all about. I've never really loved anyone before, I mean, except my family and friends, but, this is different...

/Everyone's got a purpose and wants to be loved/

But.. this doesn't make any sense. How could I love him? I mean, he's like, accident prone. How could I even think of loving him, after what happened to Kikyo! But, I think... I love him.

/I think I found my purpose

I think I found love-hidden inside myself

Hidden inside-inside myself/

I wonder how Kikyo dealt with it? It must have hurt. I can't imagine. I wonder if she knew she was going to die? I wonder if she knew what to do?

/Tragedy-Strikes when-You least expect it

Tragedy-Strikes when-You least expect it/

Every time we fight, he seems to find her. I don't know if I should hate her... or pity her. I can't fathom what it must've been like. And now, he and I can't even get along for ten minutes.

/Hate and destruction crash down on our world

The stars and the stripes,

The boys and the girls/

I mean, we wouldn'tve even met if he hadn't been pinned by Kikyo, and she hadn't died. It's horrible, that that's the only reason we're together.

/It's sad it took war just to bring us together/

But, I want to stay with him, no matter what happens, he can't get rid of me. But, what if he really wants to go back to her? I won't stop him, but I really do care for him.

/I belive in love, I believe in forever

Hidden inside ourselves

Hidden inside-inside ourselves/

But, I can't help but feel a little guilty, for being so happy when she died in such a horrible way.

/Tragedy-Strikes when-You least expect it!
Tragedy-Strikes when-You least expect it/

But, how did it all happen? I mean, I know Naraku made them believe they had betrayed one other, but still. I wonder... It must've happened so fast, that neither of them really knew what happened. She was probably just reacting under pressure, and he was just realizing that he had nothing left to lose.

/You better run-

For your life-

Shed a tear-

Live in fear/

It's so sad what happened to them, but how could she try to kill him, even after she was told the truth! It's like the jewel's repeating its cycle by hurting people.

/Love... Hate... Tragedy...

Love...Hate... Tragedy.../

It's a shame that just when Kikyo was learning to appreciate life, it was taken away from her.

/Tragedy-strikes when-You least expect it

Tragedy-Strikes when-You least expect it/

Kaede said that it was the worst day of her life and I don't doubt it. It must've been horrible.

/Tragedy Day

Tragedy Day

Tragedy Day/

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Author's Notes: wow that chapter sucked... anyhoo, the next two will be MUCH better, believe me... please keep reading! ... pweez?