Alibis, a harry potter fanfic

One shot song fic about Draco's life growing up, abused by his father, not loved by anyone around him, growing up in darkness.

Disclaimer: I do not own the character, he belongs to J.K. Rowling.
I also do not own the song. It belongs to Marianas Trench :) who are amazing

From the scrapes and bruises
To the familiar abuses
I'll kick and scream but it never changed anything

Hiding in my room after your beatings, covering the bruises you left
All my life this is all I can remember are those beatings
I tried to fight you back but it never helped. It just made you worse

I could spill my guts out
Wearing my best little girl pout
And I almost missed it
But nobody said that this was gonna be easy

I cry for you to stop, but you never listen
Feeling weak like a little girl, you make me feel broken
No one said my life would be easy, but I never thought you would make it this bad

This is not the man I hoped to be
And I'm just trying to stop the bleeding
I don't know how to word it
I just started to deserve it
And all my, all my faces are alibis
And me, I'm half the man I wanted to be

You made me the person I always hated
Your abuse turned my abuse, Because of you choices my family suffers
Your abuse turns my abuse, always my pain that lies ahead
All the masks I wore were hiding the truth
Of the broken man you made me

Most times it all comes out wrong
I don't know the words but I'll hum along
There's nothing famillar here anymore
to anyone or anything left to feel alive

I try to tell you what you did to me, but it gets messed up in translation
The music plays in the backround but all I hear is your screams
This canit be home if it leaves only sour memories
You made me feel useless, that I would be better dead

And I still taste that sickness
And it makes me crazy without it at best
But I'm in the same place I used to be
But I'm trying harder not to be

I can still feel the hurt you left
It doesn't feel normal without the usual abuse
I'm still in the hole you dug for me
But I'm trying to find my way out

So what am I? What am I? So What Am I?

What am I? Still the little boy you hurt all those years ago? What am I now?

And all my, all my faces are Alibis
This is not the man I hoped to be
And I'm just trying to stop the bleeding
I don't know how the words go
I just started not to say no

All my emotionless hides the broken man you made
You turned me into a man like you
I"m trying to end the pain, but it will never be easy
The words that will end this get lost along the way
I just started to turn away, I left you here alone

Don't want it, Don't get it
I know you won't regret it
Don't surface, Don't surface
And I feel so damned worthless
Another day is gone and all my faces are alibis
all my faces are alibis

I don't want this, you never got it
I know it feels right to you
I wont cry this time, I wont show you the pain you cause
You made me feel so worthless, like I never belonged
Days pass and the mask stays, hiding the man you created
Hiding the still hurting little boy inside

and me, I'm half the man I wanted to be

You made me the man I always hated.
And I will never forgive you.

Hoped you enjoyed it - xox Jamie