Regret Gripping Fragile Form
by Shadowesque13
Rating: PG
Genre: Drama
Summary: One-shot. The more I think about it, the more I almost wish I was blind to all of this once more.
Dis: YGO (c) Kazuki Takahashi
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In one moment, my entire world came crumbling down in pieces around me. The very next moment, a far more beautiful world had been constructed.
Kaiba, Yuugi, my own little brother plotted to ruin the very thing I had been after for years, yet I was shown what I should have been concerned about all along. I didn't need it. I didn't need to do it, although my seething and absolute hatred of him and all he stands for compelled me so.
I wanted revenge. What I got was humiliation. I received nothing but even more hate. I was given a new lease on life.
I was blinded. Hate does that to people, I suppose. It's a thick mask, or perhaps it's a tourniquet around the heart, squeezing and wrapping tighter until all you feel is thatsickening feelingin your chest, a hole full of anger.
For years on end, I was blind like this—I had a similar constriction about my deadened heart. When I think about it now, were we really that different? Was that why I despised him so, that we were nearly identically in many fashions? I was so certain that I was superior.
Yet…honestly, tell me why hatred should have made me forget about the one I care about? It was childish; it was downright idiotic. I was never one to care who I stepped on, who I used to reach the very top. Him…I don't know how I could have ever allowed myself to hurt him, of all people.
I could break Kaiba in half if I really wanted to—which I did. I could ruin him, make him nothing, laugh as things fell about him, watched his whole world be destroyed, then step on the pieces that were left, just because I could.
To do so, was I really willing to use my brother, just to get that sweet satisfactory revenge? It was like a slap in the face. Perhaps another reason why I loathe and resent, even envy, him so much is because of his equally strong bond with his sibling. Yet I…could I get that back? Did I deserve such forgiveness from him?
I'll leave you alone, my rival. Know that I may return for you someday. For the moment, I need to fix things back home.
In fact, I don't care anymore. Have your company. I still do decently enough. Some things are infinitely more important than money, power, and prestige.
Leon, please forgive me for hurting you.