Here's my new story. It's very much a risk, as I don't normally write stuff that's a weird mix between Canon and AU, but I like to try new things. Reviews make my day :D

Finn's POV

It had been been over a month since I left you. I didn't have a choice. You would've stayed in Lima for me, and you would have given up on her dreams. I couldn't let that happen. But seeing your face so broken broke my heart as well. When we kissed in the car, I wanted to keep kissing you forever, but you pulled away into sobs. I just looked at you with regret. Regret that I couldn't go to New York with you. Regret that I couldn't live in the Shoebox apartment with you. Regret that I couldn't marry you.

Kurt says you're not concentrating. I wish you would. Rachel Berry never loses focus, and yet you're letting assignments slip and arriving at school late. I don't understand. This is your DREAM. This is everything you've ever wanted, surely. This better not be about me. When I first met you, you were so driven. Nothing could stand in your way. I remember you telling me that your dreams were bigger than me. And that was true. You were destined for better than me, and yet I know that if you were forced to choose between me and New York senior year, you would've chosen me. Why? You've wanted broadway all your life. You've only wanted me since Sophormore year.

"Girl trouble?" I heard someone say behind me. He had a very distinct irist accent, and when I turned around, he was quite short. Well, short for my standards anyway.

"Yeah. I just wanted the best for her, and yet apparently she's crying her eyes out right now" The boy walked over and put an arm on my shoulder. I shoved it away.

"Who are you?" I asked him.

"My name's Rory Flannigan, and I've been watching you for a while now. You need help Finn."

"How do you know my name?"

"I have my ways. So, Rachel's not happy." I was shocked to say the least. How did he know so much about us? It was quite creepy to be honest. I didn't argue though, just nodded.

"Maybe she needs you." I shook my head.

"I'm the last person she needs. I've been holding her back the whole time I've known her."

"Did you ever think that the reason she's crying is because of you?"

"I know it's because of me, but that's the problem. If I go to New York, she'll rely on me and her dreams will be that much harder. Besides, I need to be here, in Fort Benning Georgia to redeem my father."

"He took drugs didn't he?" Seriously what was up with this guy? I nodded.

"Why did he take drugs?"

"I don't know! He was stressed about the army, he, he, his wife was pregnant..." I started crying then. I realised it. I was a screw up. I turned everyone around me into screw ups. I was messed up.

"You wanna make everything better don't you?" Rory asked. I nodded.

"I've screwed up my life, and everyone elses. I just wish I'd never existed. Everyone's lives would be better."

"OK then." Rory said. "You never existed. What are everyone else's lives like?" I looked down at my hands as I spoke.

"Rachel makes it to New York with Kurt, and she makes it on Broadway." I smiled at that thought. "My Dad's still alive and living with my Mum. I like Burt, but my parent's were meant to be I think." I thought some more. Who else had a screwed up? "Santana would be a completely open lesbian, happy with Brittany. Quinn never got pregnant. I know I'm not the father but I have a feeling that she slept with Puck because I did something wrong. Mercedes never Quit Glee club. Sam never had to admit his homelessness. It must have been embarassing for him." I finished after that. "Yeah, everyone would live happily ever after without me."

"Be careful what you wish for" Rory whispered, and when I turned around, he was gone.

I decided I would go to bed. Tomorrow I had a big day, it was to be my first attempt at redeeming my father. I dreamed of a better life, where everyone was better off without me, little knowing that tomorrow was going to be the worst day of my life.

Author's note at top :)