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I'm going to get married!I thought to myself while walking down the hall to change my clothes. We had just won Regionals and I was about to marry Finn, the boy I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. Things were going to change, but I knew I loved him and we were going to move to New York together. I was happy and very excited!

I only wished she could support me and come to my wedding, but I have a feeling she was not going to change her mind.

"Hey!" I turned around and there she was, dressed in her cheerleading uniform looking perfect, as always. "How do I look? Coach Sylvester gave it to me early and I couldn't resist."

"Well, I'm glad you're happy. Everyone deserves to be happy." I said faking a smile. I knew it and I knew she could see it, but as happy as I was, I couldn't seem to show it in front of her.

"When you were singing that song, you were singing it to Finn and only Finn...right?" I just nodded. What exactly did she mean by Finn and only Finn? "Rachel, can I talk to you for a minute in a quieter place? Maybe the choir room?"

"I was about to get dressed… for the wedding, you know." I really want to know what she had to say, but I couldn't be late to my own wedding, right?

"I know. I promise it won't take too long. You'll be there on time." I thought about it for a second, but she was looking at me like she was begging. That was definitely weird. "Please…"

"Okay." Well, in case I was late to my wedding I could compare it to one of those Hollywood films I loved!

We walked to the choir room, but I couldn't see her, because I was leading the way. When we entered the class I went to stay right beside the piano and she closed the door behind us. She was facing the door and I tried to be patient, but I couldn't stop watching my clock.

"So, Quinn, what did you want to talk about?"

"You can't… No… You shouldn't marry him." She said while turning around and looking me in the eyes. I couldn't believe we were having this conversation again.

"Quinn, please, we've already talked about this. I'm going to get married in less than 2 hours, whether you like it or not. So if you are not going to support me and Finn in this, I suggest you at least stop your attempts to change my mind."

"Rachel, just listen to me, please." She approached me, so we were just a few steps away.

"No Quinn. As hard as this may sound, I'm done listening to you. I can respect your opinion, but don't expect me to think the same."

"Okay. Right. I understand that, but just let me talk, and when I finish if you still want to marry him, I promise I'll come to the wedding, if you still want me there, okay?"

"Quinn, I'm pretty sure that one simple conversation with you is not going to change what I feel for Finn, and that means that you will be at my wedding, so… go ahead." I sat down on the piano chair with a satisfied grin on my face. Everything was going to be perfect. Quinn would come to my wedding, I was going to marry Finn and we were going to be happy.

"It's great you are so sure. You are always so self-confident…" She was looking at me in a way I had never seen before.

"I know what I want and, as you probably are aware, I always get what I want." The truth was that I was not as self-confident as everybody seemed to think, but I always played my role really well. That was something I had learned through all the slushies and the insults.

"I know, but there are times that you realize you want something you didn't know you wanted, and maybe when you finally realize it, it's too late to change things."

That made me think. I was sure I loved Finn, but sometimes when I thought about the wedding and spending the rest of my life with him, there were some ifs that made their way into my thoughts. What if Kurt and Quinn were right? What if I end up in Lima with 2 children while Finn is working at Burt's auto shop? When those thoughts came to my mind, I convinced myself that it was understandable to have some doubts.

I realized I was lost in my thoughts and Quinn was just right there, in front of me, watching me, as if she was studying me. She was making me feel really uncomfortable and she hadn't said anything yet, so I decided to hurry her up.

"Well, Quinn, you were going to tell me something, right?"

"Yeah, of course. I had a speech prepared, but it seems that everything is gone now, so I'll try to make it on the fly. You just have to promise me that you are not going to interrupt me, okay?" I nodded. She seemed so nervous I could bet that her hands were shaking. "Here we go!" She broke eye contact for a second, like she was thinking about what to say, and then her beautiful hazel eyes were on me again.

"Rachel, you are making a big mistake marrying Finn, and it's not because you are not meant to be with him or because you don't love him enough. It's because you are not ready to take that step; at least not now. It's not your time to get married. You are special. You are the most talented person I know and since the first time I saw you, I knew you were going to make it out of Lima and become someone. You stand out from the crowd. I've always believed in you, no matter how many times I insulted you; you always get back up again and kept fighting for your dreams. I admire you."

I couldn't believe what she was saying. She was supposed to hate me. She made my life hell for years. I didn't know if what I was feeling was anger because she never told me anything, or happiness because she confessed she never hated me.

"I can never apologize enough for what I've done to you, and I will never forgive myself for it, but I can assure you that the only thing I ever wanted was to support you and be by your side, although I never realized 'til some months ago." She looked to the ground and I couldn't keep quiet anymore.

"What do you mean you never realized it?"

"Rach," since when Quinn calls me Rach? "this is not easy for me and it took me a lot of time to figure this out, but when you and Finn told the Glee club that you were going to get married after Regionals, part of me though that I had to try it, even if I was being selfish."

"Try what? To change my mind about the wedding?"

"That too." Now I was definitely not getting the point and I was a very clever person. I stood up to look at Quinn directly into her eyes, maybe I was missing something.

"Quinn, even though what you're saying is incredibly amazing and very unexpected, I'm not understanding why this sudden sincerity and openness and—"

"I love you."

What?"What? Oh… Okay, I understand. Quinn, I also care about you and I think we are kind of friends now, so—" She cut me off before I could say anything and took a step forward.

"No, Rachel, you don't understand. I love you more than just a friend. I'm in love with you."

I've never been speechless in my whole life and this was the first time I couldn't think of any word, not even monosyllables (when Finn proposed me I managed to say at least a complete sentence). I just stood there, looking at Quinn with probably an 'I'm about to pass out' face, because she seemed terrified. Quinn loves me… I'm a girl. Quinn, straight head cheerleader, loves a girl.

"Oh my God…" That's what my mind managed to come up with. Very eloquent, Rachel.

"Rachel, I know this could sound unbelievable, but I can assure you that I mean it. I understand that you obviously don't feel the same about me, I know you love Finn and everything, but sometimes you feel like you have to try it, because of that stupid little hope that appears in your heart when the person you love looks your way and smile at you and…" She threw her arms up and started pacing the room, while I was just standing there watching her. "Fuck, I'm rambling! Now, I sound like you." Quinn stopped her movements and took a step closer to me, but not invading my personal space. "Rach, it would be awesome if you could say something. I feel really vulnerable right now and I hate feeling this way. "

"I…" I was trying to say something, but it was very difficult to come up with the right words. "I don't know what to say Quinn."

"It doesn't matter how I feel about you, because now I know you don't feel the same, but please I know you deserve more than him, so I'm just asking you to at least wait until graduation. There's no hurry. Please, wait."

"This is the second time you ask me to wait." I said matter of fact.

"I know. It would be great if you take my advice this time."

"You know I am supposed to get married in an hour, right?"

"You can talk to Finn. He will understand. I'm sure your dads will be relieved. The rest of the Glee club will understand it too. Please Rach, wait 3 more months."

Quinn sounded really desperate and I was starting to feel all the shock come over me again, so I just sat down again in the piano chair and looked anywhere but into her eyes.

"Could you leave me alone?"

"But—"

"Please Quinn, just go." And I closed my eyes to stop the tears that were about to fall.

"Okay..." I could tell by the shaking in her voice that she was probably holding tears back too. I hugged my belly at the sound of the door closing while tears slid down my face.

I was not sure why I was crying, but I definitely was not feeling well. What Quinn told me shouldn't have made feel this way. All the pain I felt those years because of her and now she was confessing that she loved me. It was surreal.

I was beginning to digest all the information, when all those ifs that haunted me sometimes, came crashing into my mind like a tidal wave. How could she be selfish enough to tell me this right before my wedding?My mind was a mess right now. I watched the time. I should be getting dressed.

I stood up and cleaned my face with my hands. I told myself I would think about that later. I walked out of the class and I realized I was trembling and I couldn't even think clearly enough to stop the doubts that were in my head at that point. I couldn't do it, not like that. I had to talk with Finn as soon as possible. He was probably heading to the courthouse.

I picked up my phone to call him, but for what? Postpone the wedding? On the phone? No, I wasn't like that. I was mature enough to do this face to face. So I started walking to my own car while calling him.

"Rach, where are you? I was getting worried. I didn't see you leaving the school and—"

"Finn, stop. I'm okay, but I want to talk to you first. I… I need to talk to you. Where are you?"

"I'm heading to the courthouse. Kurt is driving. What happened?"

"See you there in 10 minutes."

"Okay… You sure you're okay?"

"Yes. I love you Finn."

"I love you too Rach."

Rach… Quinn called me that. Quinn, Quinn, Quinn… Everything lead me back to her, even at that point, when I was supposed to be happy about getting married, I was planning to postpone the wedding because there was no way I could get married in those circumstances. Too many doubts, too many thoughts, too much anger. Yes, I was definitely mad at Quinn. It was all her fault.

Once I got to the car, I texted my daddies to let them know that I was heading directly to the courthouse.

I parked the car and waited a few seconds inside to try to figure out what I was going to tell Finn. I still loved him, but what Quinn said made me think that maybe she was right and it really was too soon. I was so sure yesterday and now I was lost.

I left the car and walked towards the door. I went to the elevator and press the button to the third floor. All that time I was repeating to myself my mantra again and again: I am Rachel Berry and I can do this. I've been through worst things.

The elevator reached the third floor and I took a breath before exiting it. The hallway was long and wide, with wooden walls and red leather couches to the sides. And there he was, almost at the end of the hallway looking at me, first with a happy face and then with a confused one.

I walked the space between us with my head high, while he walked towards me. He didn't even reach me before he spoke.

"You are not wearing your wedding dress…"

Finally we met in the middle of the hallway. I looked up at him and he looked me in eye, obviously very worried.

"I know."

"Why? What happened?"

"I thought about this a lot and I've come to a conclusion. We moved up the wedding date because of everything that happened to Karofsky. I'm aware our lives are short and that anything could happen to us at any time, but I know what I feel for you and I know that you love me too and that's everything I need to be happy."

"So, are you telling me you want to get married in your Regionals dress?" I knew Finn was slow-minded, but God, sometimes it was very difficult to make him understand the things I said.

"I'm telling you I want to postpone the wedding. There is no hurry." Panic. That's what I saw in his eyes. I couldn't believe I was really doing this.

"But… you said that… I…I don't understand. Why?" Then there it was. The anger that always followed the panic. He had three different phases which followed a very specific order: Confusion, panic and anger. Sometimes he went through a fourth one: acceptance, and at that moment I really hoped he accepted what I was saying.

"Please, stop trying to figure it out, because I seriously think your mind could blow." He slipped past me and turned his back to me. "Finn, turn around and look at me, please." He was looking everywhere but at me. He needed to look at me to understand it, so I reached out my hand and placed it in his cheek to make him look at me and he did. "I love you. Don't ever doubt that. I just want to get back to our previous plan and get married after graduation, that's all. Please, understand it."

His eyes were fixed on mine and I saw all the anger slipping away, while acceptance took its place.

"If that's what you want, I'll wait. I will always be here for you Rach. You are the best thing that's ever happened in my whole life and I love you more than anything, so… just tell me when you are ready and I'll be there right by your side… forever."

"I love you." He kissed me and I felt relieved. He is the sweetest boy in the world! Why am I not getting married right now? That question brought everything back to me, especially what Quinn confessed me, but why was I really postponing the wedding? Everybody has doubts when it comes to things like this and Kurt already told me what Quinn said about wasting my talent and me being special, so why was it different now?

While I was kissing him I noticed someone was at the end of the hallway watching us. It was Quinn and she was crying. Why was she crying? What was she doing here? Wait a minute… why had I opened my eyes while kissing Finn? That never happened before. My body was reacting to his ministrations, but my mind was not there. I was looking at Quinn and she was looking at me while I was kissing my fiancé. I didn't understand myself. I've just cancel-no, postponed my wedding and I wasn't feeling guilty, nor did I even feel sorry. I wasn't even crying! What was happening to me?

I closed my eyes and tried to forget about Quinn and everything that happened in the last hour. I tried to feel what I always felt when Finn kissed me, but I couldn't. Maybe it was because of the stress or the diverse feelings I experienced in such a short time. Yes, it had to be that. But then I found myself opening my eyes again and looking for Quinn. She was gone. I broke the kiss.

"We should tell everybody."

"Yeah. I'll tell the guys."

"Okay. Where are my dads and Santana and the others?"

"They are in the second door." He pointed at one door at the end of the hallway, next to the elevator where Quinn was one minute ago.

"I'll tell my dads and the rest."

"See you later?" I was not sure if I wanted to see him. I just wanted to lock myself in my room and think, or sleep.

"I'll call you, okay?"

"Cool." He gave me a quick peck on the lips. "I love you."

"Me too."

I watched him go and as soon as he turned the corner I turned around to tell everyone. I was sure Santana had some words ready in case this happened, so I prepared for it and open the door.

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It was not too bad, in fact, it went quite well. My dads seemed happy. They confessed their crazy plan involving reverse psychology, and although normally that would have made me hysterical, I did not care too much at that moment. Santana admitted that it was time for me to forget about Finnept, but she apologized quickly and I didn't feel offended at all.

My dads told me to come home with them in their car, but I decided to take my own car. Besides, I couldn't stop thinking about what happened earlier while kissing Finn and I needed to throw cold water in my face, so I went to the courthouse's bathroom. Where was she? Did she leave? Why had she shown up here? I was not sure if I was mad at her or just curious.

I looked at myself in the mirror as I leaned on the sink.

"What's wrong with me?" Think Rachel, think!

The stall door behind me opened and there she was, right behind me. She had been there the whole time. Did she know about the wedding? Of course she knew. I should have been getting married at that point and I was alone in the courthouse bathroom throwing water at my face and doubting my decisions. Something was definitely wrong with me. I kept staring at her and she just stayed there looking at me in the mirror.

"There's nothing wrong with you."

"What are you doing here?"

"I thought you were going to get married anyway, so I came here to watch the wedding, at least from the door."

"You had no right." It seemed I was still mad after all.

"I'm sorry, but I really thought about not being at your wedding and–" I turned around to face her.

"Not that. You had no right to tell me what you told me right before my wedding! What were you thinking?" She seemed scared and the anger flowed through me like a river of lava.

"I… I guess I was not thinking."

"Well, you should think before you speak."

"And you should think before you act!" She just snapped at me, like the old Quinn usually did, but without the name-calling.

"I can assure you I think before I act, maybe sometimes is not the best choice, but I give things more than just one though and even make pro and con lists."

"Of course you do. Look Rachel, if you were so sure about the wedding, than why you postponed it?"

"Because… because… I…"

"This is the second time in a day that I have left you speechless. I'm sure I've broken the record!" She stepped closer to me and I took a step backwards just to hit the sink. "Tell me Rach, why did you change your mind this time and not when I first told you not marry him?"

"I… I don't know." She was really close to me. I almost could feel her breathing. I laid my hands on the sink and leaned backwards.

"I think you know…" She leant forward and that's when I started finding it really hard to breathe. "But you haven't realized it yet."

I was looking straight into her hazel eyes and I couldn't help but feel aroused. She just stood there with her body pressed against mine and her sparkling eyes flickering from my eyes to my lips. I soon perceived my eyes doing the same and then realization came crashing down. I was longing to kiss those perfect lips. I wanted to kiss Quinn Fabray. "Oh my God!" I said at the same time I pulled away from her and started walking towards the door. I did not even take the time to look back. I just left the bathroom almost running.