The wind penetrating my hoodie is the first sign I notice, the night was finally crawling though. Let them say what they want, let them waste their breath on endless tortures that lay only on pale skin. Let them scream all they want that we are enslaved by the world around us because this is freedom. A laugh escapes my lips as we plough though the hills, dancing thought the blades of grass. Not a thought crossed my mind about how I was 'wasting my time'. I knew this place was perfect, another gut instinct. Another win for me. I look over to my refuge, my safety. My protector. He's smiling, tight hair wind blown and as wild as ever. No longer tucked away within his helmet which I now wear.
He is holding up my universe as the engine reeves to life, bringing chills to my spine. And suddenly it was all over just like that. The wind stopped. The calm died down and my voice was taken over by something, that was not my own. The world slowed down to final halt. The scream echoes beyond the hills and the sea. 'This wasn't meant to happen' I think as my blood imprints itself onto tarmac and gain. I'm holding too tight, I'm loosing my will to fight the pain and the darkness. It's too late for us and the wind is now so slow. Opening my eyes I realise now that it's all over. Red stained hands and no air in my lungs I look to my refuge for support. Red limbed and white skinned I move in slow motion towards his lifeless form. He's within the wreckage. Hidden away under stained metallic pistons and sober cylinders. Pulling the metal aside I cradle his dark hair in my arms. Pressure on his bleeding chest, his eyes so green but impossibly empty. Panicking I check for a pulse but I can see the growing darkness within him seeking though my fingers. Dark pools of red surround me and the lifeless boy I love..
I clutch my own chest as my heart heaves, heavy at the sudden realisation. My loss. Everything is lost, because he is, was, my everything. Holding his empty body and broken body in my arms I weep a thousand tears. Screaming for hours until the paramedics find us in shambles. I won't leave him - ever.