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All right well this is a Mondler fic. It's like AU so ok well here it is hope you like it 

Monica sat at the table in Central Perk, twirling her engagement ring around her finger. She couldn't believe it. She was getting married. She had been waiting for this her whole life but now that it had arrived it wasn't what she had expected. She wasn't sure if she was supposed to be feeling like this, cold feet? No, it was more then that.
She loved Josh and all, but could she picture a future with him?
"Sure I can," she told herself. She shut her eyes and smiled. Kids, a home, a family and… Chandler.

She opened her eyes. He was the only one she could picture herself growing old with. But it was over. But then she reminded herself that nothing could be over if it hadn't even started.
Monica hated herself for thinking this. She had been with Josh for over a year and he was willing to give her everything, but here she was thinking about some guy she used to know.

4 years before

"You have to tell him how you feel," Rachel told Monica sitting in Monica's apartment.
"There's no point in telling him, he wont feel the same way," Monica replied sadly.
"You don't know that. I can see it, you two are perfect for each other," Rachel assured her.
Monica smiled, "you're right. I have to tell him. Next time I see Chandler I will tell him how I feel".

Later on that day

Chandler opened the door to Monica's apartment. Monica sat at her table nervously hoping Chandler would drop in.
"Hey Chandler," Monica said standing up.
"You won't be able to guess what I just found out," Chandler said excitedly.
Monica smiled, "probably not, what happened?"
"I just got offered a job in Tulsa, its perfect. It will be the opportunity of a life time!" Chandler exclaimed.
"Tulsa? Are you going to go there?" Monica said motionlessly.
"Of course. What do I have to loose. It will be great there," Chandler said as he leaned in and hugged Monica.
With Chandler's arms around her she felt her throat burn. Her eyes teared up but she stared blankly at the wall, trying not to blink, afraid to show how upset she was.
"Congratulations," she forced herself to say.
"Thanks Mon. I have to go tell the others, ill see you later," he said as he headed out the door.
When he left her apartment she let her tears roll down her cheeks regretting what may have happened if she had told him that she had fallen in love with him even just a day before.