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Rachel POV

"So it's true, then.", it wasn't a question. "You're dating that Jesse kid again and you're going with him to the prom.", he stated, still blocking my way out of the choir room.

"Finn, stop it. I don't wanna talk."

"Rachel, you're back together with that jerk? What hell were you...", he tried to started this argument with me but I wans't going to fall for it. Not this time. This day has been shitty enough. Oh Great! Now I'm cussing in my thoughts. Noah would be so proud!

"Finn Hudson, this is none of your business and... You know what? Why do you even care?", I asked, angrily looking at him. He had some nerve to come to me to talk about Jesse while he was dating Quinn again.

This scene, right here? Just precious!

"I thought we were friends. I know that things have been pretty awkward with us lately but I think that I have the right to be worried about you. You're my friend. And he's just not right for you.", Finn replied, in a tone that match mine. He wasn't here for jokes either.

"Oh, and who is, in your opinion? You?", I asked, the irony dripping in every word I said. Thought I tried to look tough on the outside, just saying this to him got my heart clenching like crazy. Because in my opinion, he had always been it for me. Me, on the other hand, was never able to be enough for him.

When he didn't said anything, I just kept talking. "Finn, stop it! You have to stop doing this! You have to stop acting like I'm your girlfriend! I'm not yours! ...Not anymore,anyway! We're barely even friends, now!", the words were scaping my mouth at an alarming rate as tried to get past Finn and out of here.

I so didn't want to have this conversation right now. Finn, on the other hand, was dead set on making me stay.

He just stood there, blocking my way out of the choir room, keeping a hard expression on his face. I sighed. "You're with Quinn now. You chose things to be this way. And you knew that, eventually, I would move on with my life too and things like this were bound to happen.", I said in an exasperated way, looking at him straight in the eyes. I couldn't handle this sort of thing anymore. It was taking too much energy out of me.

I could feel that my breathing was erratic and that I was shaking a little. That's just how worked up he would always get me. Not being able to handle all the anger and hurt in his eyes, I turned my back to him.

"Eventually sure does feel a whole lot different than actually.", he says quietly to himself but, still not having regained control of his temper yet, it was loud enough for me to hear it.

"Oh My God! What are you? Twelve? Where is this coming from, anyway? Are you just going to go all Ross Geller on me everytime that I have a boyfriend?", I rolled her eyes and turned back to him. "Finn, you broke up with me! What did you expected me to do? Wait around for you forever?", I asked, losing the little patience that I still had in me, walking around the room to try to keep my emotions in check again.

"Going what? Who's this Ross guy? I was talking about Jesse. Why are you doing this? Are you trying to get yourself hurt again? To hurt me?", he asked, looking slightly confused and anger, his arms all over the place as he tried to get his point crossed.

"Oh, for the love of God! Finn, news flash for you: not everything is about you! Yes! I made a mistake. And yes, I hurt you in a unspeakable way. But I've apologized profusely about this. And I felt awful for months. I actually still do. But you chose not to forgive me. You chose to forguive her and not me, Finn. You chose Quinn over me!", I snapped.

"Rachel, don't go there. I'm not here to talk about Quinn! This isn't about her. It's about you and Jesse and...", Finn started to say, but I wasn't taking any of this stupidit anymore.

"No, Finn. Don't you see this? It is about you and Quinn just as much as it is about me and Jesse. You wanted to talk? Let's talk! I thought that you'd have learned this by now, but you can't always get what you want. I have feelings about things, just like you. So that says that I have a say in this freaking mess too.", I held my hand to stop him and I don't know if it was my tone, or the hand or the fact that I just swore in front of him, but it was effective.

"You chose Quinn now, Finn, and I get it. You've made your point. She is beautiful and popular and everything in the world that I'm not. I get it! But I think is such a hypocritical act from you to, not only to forgive her, but also to help her cheat on her boyfriend! You know how bad you felt about it and still, you went there and caused that to another human being. A friend! And don't you dare try to justify that for me or open your mouth to say again how much I've hurt you and how you was messed up and confused in your head because she sure did a whole lot worse things to you than I did. And, at least, I was honest about it. She just lied to your face about everything. So yeah, I'm moving on! Sue me! I'm tired of this. I can't even...", pressing my lips tight together and shutting my eyes.I could feel him moving forward, trying to reach me. I had this super sense when it comes to him. It was like this damm curse that I couldn't shake it off.

I took a deep breath and then turned to speak, feeling more composed. He was too close, but didn't had the gutts to touch me and, even though it hurt to not having him taking me into his arms, I was grateful for it. "Listen, what we had? I see this now. It was a great story. When Quinn told me that you two were together, I didn't want to believe it. I even said to her that what happened to us was real and she said to me that it was all part of a school girl fantasy of mine. And I didn't believed her until now. I was there too, having all those feelings and going through everything, just like you were.", I said giving him a pleading look so hecould understand what I've been going through all this time.

His eyes seemed to mirror the pain in mine. But it all could be just my wishful thinking again. "Finn, I was there. But, right now, that's just what it is, Finn, a great story. And I can't.", my voice broke as the last bit of breath that I had escape form my lungs. This was hurting me way too much more of what it should. "I can't do this...", I said, gesturing between the both of us, shaking my head. I could feel that I was on the verge of tears.

I have to get out of here.

"What? Can't do what, Rach?", he asked me in a small voice, sounding so scared and helpless that it broke my heart once more. He was frowning at me when he took a step closer to where I stood, staying dangerously close.

"This! Us!" I yelled in exasperation, pushing a hand on his chest to get him out of my way so I could walk or at least get him to back off a little. I couldn't think straight with him so close to me. It didn't worked either way, though. It just made my body burn with the need that I felt for him, while it coursed through my whole being. The tears scaped my controll. "Live my life on the side lines of yours, waiting for you to decide if I'm the one for you or not.", I said, my voice breaking as I sobbed and tried to get a hold on myelf, wiping the tears out of my face. I so didn't want him to see me this weak again... Why do I always manage to get myself in this pathetic position over and over again? "You've made your choice and it's time for me to do mine, so please, stop. You have no say on who I should or should not date. So, you'll have to learn how to respect my decisions. I own to myself a chance to be happy.", and with that, I walked away, directing me to the choir room door. Finn just seemed to had been frozen in place.

"You're right... You're right. I'm sorry!", he called out from behind me, a little out of breath, as louder as he could. I didn't knew why, but that sound made me stop dead on my tracks. Still, I couldn't bring myself to look at him. It was too painful.

Finn was silent for a while after that. None of us seemed to be able to move anymore as this weird energy started to buzz around us. It was making my body shiver and beg to have his body closer to mine. And it hurted like hell not to just give into it...

"Except...", he started again, making a sob get caught at my throat. Why everything has to be this painful? "E-expect that I'm not sorry, Rachel.", I blinked away more tears, his words stabbing my chest, the pain getting really hard to bear as I felt his warm and tall frame getting closer to my petite one. I was hiper aware of his closeness. "I'm not sorry at all. I'm not good with this word thing, but I meant what I said. All of it, if not more.", he said, reaching out to me and touching my shoulder. It was like this eletric shock ran through my body but it was not painful, or uncomfortable. In fact, it eased the pain in my chest. I felt whole for the first time in months and that just made me cry harder. I hated that he could still affect me that much.

"Look, I know that you and I are not together anymore, but that...", he spoke softly, his hands sliding from my shoulder, down my arms, entwining his fingers to mine. "T-that doesn't mean that I've stoped caring about you. T-that doesn't mean that doesn't hurt like hell see you with another guy. Specially with the guy that was so cruel to you in the past. I-i can't just stand by and not do anything.", and it killed me to hear how honest he was being. And it didn't scaped me that he seemed to be in a serious struggle to tell me this.

My hands squeezed his before I even realized what was happening, tears running nonstop while I sobbed harder. Finn released my hands and made me turn around and hugged me tight agaisnt his chest. "I just don't want you to get hurt.", I heard he saying it just about a whisper, while he ran his finger through my hair. I knew that he meant that to be soothing and conforting. It just showed everything that I would never have again. My chest felt like it would explode in a milion pieces.

I drove him away. And now I had to try to live on with my life without all those feelings. Just sadness. And pain. But if it was for him to be happy, I could do it.

His smell was intoxicating and I got lost there for a while, trying to push all this thoughts to the back of my mind and just bask this moment with him, still this little piece of heaven all to myself. As my sobs became more quiet, Finn slowly released his grip on me. I hated myself for instantly missing it so much.

I looked up at his eyes for a few moments, the urge to kiss him getting almost overbearing before I gather my strength to talk again. "Thank you, Finn, for your consideration. It was very thoughtful of you and I do appreciate it. But don't worry. Jesse can't hurt me nearly as much as you already did."

And, with that said, I walked away as quickly as I could out of there, Finn calling me back.

Quickly, his voice fade away somewhere behind me.

It was too much. Just too much.

Maybe, with time, it would get better.

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