Seeing Burt with Kurt, sharing that Christmas spirit was beautiful. The bond between father and son is so clear for them; I hope that is the way my dad's and I are together. I can't wait to spend Hanukah with them again this year. Of course, going back to Lima makes me feel slightly dubious.

Finn. There, I said it. I just can't escape the fact that he will be there too, in Lima. I miss him, more than I should but I just can't help it, I was going to marry him. I had already decided on such a big commitment and then for it to just unravel into us not even being together anymore? I find it hard to take.

I smile softly to myself, still gazing at Burt and Kurt catching up by the tree he generously brought for our apartment. Finn and I would have done that if we had still been together, decorate the tree.

I have spent time with Brody recently, trying to get over Finn maybe. It hasn't worked at all though. Brody is nice and I like him but he is more of a close older brother to me than being boyfriend material. He clearly disagrees with me however, I'm not stupid: I see the way he looks at me. Almost the way Finn did, the big difference though is that Finn and I shared this deep connection even when we were on breaks because of his recurring fascination with Quinn. We were so attuned to each other and were so good together; we just made sense, fitted together perfectly.

I need to finish packing; my train leaves soon, so I start to walk over towards my bed and suitcase in the corner, but calling over my shoulder as I leave them,

"Guys, I'm just gonna finish packing, my train leaves soon." I smile as they acknowledge me with a nod and return quickly to their conversation about Carole.

Once I reach my bed I lift my suitcase onto it and reopen it to continue packing where I left off. I already had my clothes and toiletries that I needed, the only thing left to put in was anything I wanted to take back to Lima with me.

Looking around the floor and the rest of the room, no personal items jumped out at me that I would want desperately for the next week or two, so I finally close my suitcase resolutely and try to think of a better way to pass the time until it was an acceptable time to leave for the train station without thinking of Finn.

Of course that didn't work, what was I thinking? I resign myself to once again admitting in my thoughts how much I missed him while I slowly lowered myself to sit on my bed. I folded my hands into my lap and just gazed at them while I tried to clear my head of Finn, it was even starting to work which was promising. Kurt ruined it though as I started to listen in to his conversation with his dad.

"- I just don't see how Finn faithfully commits to the New Directions full time after graduation-"

Finn and Faithfully. What a stab in the heart that is, it almost makes me burst into tears. Faithfully is our song. It always will be our song, the one we call our own, the one we were going to dance to as our first dance as a married couple, that moment of singing that song with Finn was probably the best moment of my life so far, nothing apart from my future Tony Awards will compete with that one singular moment.

I look to the clock above the dining room table and with relief, I notice that a half hour has passed, meaning it is now an acceptable time to leave for the station. I get up and walk towards Burt and Kurt who had moved to the sofa at some point after finishing the tree without me realising it.

"Guys, I'm going to head off to the station now, my train leaves in an hour."

I look at Burt first and then steel my gaze towards Kurt, my best friend.

"You have a good Christmas, okay Kurt? You know I left your present under the tree."

He gave me an unamused look whilst raising his eyebrows, "How could I forget after you remind me 5 times in one day?" This helped me break into a smile, "Now go Miss Berry! I know you're anxious to see your dad's, tell them hi from me!"

I pull him into a close hug before letting him go and stepping towards Burt to give him one too.

"Bye Burt, enjoy Christmas. Thanks again for the tree, it's lovely!"

"See ya, Rachel. Happy Hanukah." He gave me a gentle smile which I returned before retrieving my pink suitcase that I had left by my bed and walking out of the door giving one final wave behind me before shutting it.

The walk to the station was quick and uneventful, as always in busy New York City. It is one of the things I love dearly about the city as it is such a change to small-town Lima.

When I reached the station it was easy enough to pick up my tickets that I had already bought online and to find the right platform. Lucky for me the train was just pulling in as I reached the platform. I found my seat on the carriage easy enough and sat back whilst trying to relax for the journey home. Of course this gave me even more time by myself with just my thoughts.

I sighed to myself as my thoughts returned to Finn and he just cycled round my brain for the rest of the journey back to Lima. As we were heading into Ohio State, I decided to myself that I was going to face my fears and do something about this. I'm going to see Finn whilst I'm in Lima and sort this out; this is going to be resolved one way or another.

AN: This is the first chapter of Lima Resolutions. I haven't written for a while as I started university in September, but I'm back home for the Christmas holidays so will have a bit of time to spare hopefully, let me know if you liked it! Thank you.