(Alright everyone I know I've been behind on my stories and I am really sorry…but when ever I try to write the next chapter for any of them this story idea keeps getting in the way. I guess it's because I'm reading a book that has this kind of story line and because my family & friends have been talking about this a lot lately. So I'm thinking if I write it out I'll be able to move on with my other stories, so let me know what you think of this one and I'll get started on my other chapters…hopefully my mind can blend this and the other ones, so I can finish some of them. )

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NOTE: I do not own Kannazuki no miko I just really like writing fanfic's about it ^-^

WARNING: This is yuri (girlXgirl) if you don't like it do not read.

ENJOY! ^-^

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I've never been one to write everything down…I really don't like the thought of having this journal, but…if I keep it in any longer I'm sure I will go crazy…and that is even worse then having this thing.

I do not want to go crazy…, because I don't want to become just like the woman I have to call mom…

So far writing in this journal has helped me stay sane and also awake…

I'm starting to think that my whole life is just going to be sitting in this tiny thrashed basement room…waiting for 'her' to unlock my door, so I could leave or keep it locked so that I can't go anywhere…or the worse of them all being woken up by 'her' trying to beat the 'sin' out of me.

I was a fool to ask her why I didn't see boys the way other girls did…I was only 7, but I knew I was different from the other girls of this small minded town…and I just wanted my 'mom' to tell me why I thought of girls in the way I was suppose to think of guys.

That was the start of this hell and it was bad enough that the whole town thought I was some kind of devil kid…but 'she' did too.

My whole life has been a living hell, since that day…but after today I'll be free…one way or another I will not be coming back to this place.

When she lets me out for school me and my best friend Makoto are going to runaway…she wasn't as dumb, as me.

She never asked why she didn't see boys like the normal girls and I told her never to ask…but she has always been at my side to help me get through the day and for that I am grateful.

So before they find out about her and to save what I have left of my life and sanity. We both are running away to an old school building that is said to house every runaway from the area…they all seek shelter there and hopefully both of us can be safe there…at lest until we plan our next move.

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"You better be awake and ready! The father will not be happy if you're late for school again!"

I stopped writing, as I heard her chilling calm voice that always made me feel uneasy and sick.

I shut my brown leather journal and quickly shoved it into my worn out blue backpack that held all of my cloths and a few other things, in the place of my school books. I got off of my torn up mat bed and headed up the stairs that were only a few steps away. I made sure to dress warmly, since it was freezing winter time here and we had a long walk ahead of us.

I heard the latch on the door go off, as she opened the door.

That dark haired woman I came out of weakly smiled at me, as I tried to return it, but I couldn't bring myself to smile at her.

Unlike my golden blonde hair and warm violet eyes both of my parents had brown hair and eyes, so right off the bat I was treated like I was an outcast.

My father thought I wasn't his kid and so he devoted him self to his job and never comes home…my mother blamed me for him not being around, but she was nice to me until the day I asked her that stupid question…and then everything went up in flames.

"Himeko your dressed really warmly…you do know you'll be inside most of the day?"

She softly pointed out my big fuzzy sweater and blue jeans, as I lowered my head to her.

I hated when she tried to act like a 'mother' since she wasn't even close to being one.

"I get cold easily…besides I could always take off my sweater…"

I quietly answered, as I flinched when I felt her cool hands placing something over my neck.

I looked to see it was a rosary and waited for her to tell me why she put it on me.

"I had this blessed for you…I hope it will help 'cure' you of your 'sin'."

'What sin…it's not my fault! I was born this way! I haven't done anything wrong…I haven't done anything sinful!' I thought, but I kept my mouth shut, after all that is how I've been able to stay alive for so long.

If I would have told her what was on my mind...I would have been pushed back down into the basement and had another visit with her 'holy fists and kicks' and I had no time for that.

"Well you better get going…Makoto is outside waiting for you. Maybe she was sent here to help save your soul."

'You have no idea! We are both saving each other and you can't save a soul when there is nothing wrong with it!' I thought, as I just kept my head down and nodded yes to her.

She walked with me to the door, as she preyed for my soul.

I couldn't wait to get out of this house and away from 'her', as I opened the door and glanced back at 'her'.

"Bye mom."

I managed to say, as she smiled and looked ready to close the door behind me.

"Be safe."

She whispered, as I walked outside and she soon closed the door and started doing what ever it is that she did while I was at school.

"Ready?"

My 15 year old best friend asked, as I smiled at her.

"I've been waiting for this day my whole life…what about you? Are you going to miss any of this?"

I asked, as she smiled at me and we both started walking.

"No way…we are both just 15, but I've seen what they have done to you…and it's thanks to you that I got around with out being treated like that.
I can't wait to get out of here…that way we both can finally be free from this place."

I nodded my head in agreement, as I could see the excitement in her strong water blue eyes.

"Alright then let's head to that 'sinners' building."

We both laughed at the title the town had given the building, as we headed away from our pasts and on to our futures.

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