Today I had a close encounter, with a ruthlessness that lurks me constantly, and does not let me alone.
His big eyes frightened, his lovely face, mesmerizing, his voice thick, penetrating. I told him to stay away from me, leave me in peace, but he followed me for all parties. I know what felt, Sam. If I refer to, Lucifer. He said let me in and I said never.
His impatience irritated him, to the point that he grabbed me with his hands, threw me against the wall. He asked me again and I was overcome, I looked at him aggressively and yell, NO.
He approached me, ran his hand over my face, grabbed my chin, and looking into my eyes, laughed, and he told me, you will say yes, very soon. He let go and disappeared.
I ran into the bathroom, wash my face, I jumped to my bed, I cried, until tired. A thousand times I asked God why? A thousand times I received no answer.
How safe it maybe, that I will fall into his arms? Any! Where are my heroes Sam and Dean when I need them most? How to save myself? From falling over the precipice of hell, to say YES; when you scream and wish for a NO.
These questions, unanswered; of a truth that lies ahead.
Lucifer is my sin. Where is my salvation?
The day passed quickly, and the night came unexpectedly, I landed in bed, eyes closed, he was there in my dreams, waiting very quiet. To me, he sent the hell-hound, as a threat to my answer. I cried desperately to a loophole end.
Lucifer before me, her hands outstretched, hoping for a yes and I nodding a thousand times NO. He before me knows I will say YES.
OH! SAM! What destiny of yours and I'm here suffering the same. The time choking me, and I cannot wake up from my nightmare. It breaks the wall of my soul, he stopped, and he waits with calm.
What do I do? if I haven't at my side the brothers, let alone the angel Castiel. My fate is uncertain, as my strength fades to say NO. I'm sick of suffering. The quarrel of a yesterday, who returns today, seeking what is lost, I run through the dark night of this dream without end. In front of me again Lucifer.
I gave up! Here I am, my answer is YES.
Lucifer replied: "can't hear you, speak louder.
"Stop pushing! I said, YES.
He with his face passive, very sarcastically smiling, grabs my hand, squeezed it hard and he gave me a kiss on the cheek and said, "I knew that you would be mine, just a matter of time" I gave a look of hatred. Smiled and then we went away.
OH! Poor me, I have broken the wall, I surrendered to him, if I regret or not. I'll never know.