I'm going down, down, down, down. And I just can't believe my first love won't be around, and I'm like-

My hand came down on the helpless clock, effectively cutting off the crooning of the radio. With a quiet groan, I roll out of my bed. In a sleepy haze, I make my way to the bathroom. I take a quick shower and wrap a towel around my body. Tousling my hair with practiced ease, I stare myself down in the mirror.

"Today's the day."

Yes. Today's the day I come clean. Today's the day I confess.

I throw on a simple t-shirt and jeans, but I skip the glasses. I don't want to hide my face today. Not when I face the world. Not when I face him.

Before I can think twice, before I can take it back, I've already slipped the not under his door. Now, all I can do is wait. And wait I do. I wait for him at the bridge where we first met. Standing alone, I watch cars, bikes, and people pass. Nobody notices me, nobody even spares me a glance. But that's fine. Because he notices me. And that's all that matters.

I feel boredom setting in, and my gaze drops to the vast river below. The water is churning around jagged rocks. Just like my heart, a torrent of emotions. It must have rained last night. How fitting. The rain truly does clean everything, I suppose.

"Hey!"

I'm jostled from my thoughts by him. He's coming my way, waving and grinning.

"You needed something?"

I take a deep breath. Here goes everything.

"I-"

"Yo!"
"Hey man!"
"What's up?"

Suddenly, he's flocked by his friends. He's shining. And it only makes me realize that he is unattainable to me. I will never be able to reach him. And in that realization, the words bubble from my lips before I can stop them.

"I love you!"

Time seems to stop. And for once, everyone's eyes are on me, but no one says a word. I drop my face to stare pointedly at my feet. One of his friends is the first to speak.

"That's disgusting!"

Another one chimes in. "Freak!"

A spiteful shout of "Faggot!" follows.

Then they're all shouting at me, voices mixing together in a single hateful message: he will never be yours. I can't bear to look up. He must be revolted, repulsed. I think I'm going to cry.

They leave eventually, and I'm all alone again. My feet are moving on their own, and I'm climbing over the railing. A voice calls to me from the back of my mind.

It's better to die than to be alone.

And I jump.

There's someone screaming my name, and my heart flutters. He came back. He came back for me.

But it's too late.

I'm going down,

down,

down,

down.

God, I am such a terrible person. I killed Mattie! DDX

Well, I didn't plan it that way... It just sort of happened :/
Anyways, I got the idea for this from a creative writing prompt website (). "#336: Write about 15 minutes in the downfall of love." As soon as I read that, Baby by Justin Bieber started playing in my head :P
NOT that I'm a J. Biebs fan, but I happen to really fancy that song. :D

And that's it! So, leave me a review? :)

EDIT: It has come to my attention that there are actually four "down"s in Baby instead of three, so I fixed that~