I keep wondering if you think of me at times, if you imagine us being with each other through high and low. Because I do...Every day. I keep wondering how long I've loved you, how long I've been trying to keep myself in check. They say that the angelic and the demonic can never be together, well screw them all! But...Even you seem to agree with them, even when I have almost sacrificed my life to keep you safe. I envy your little guardian because I cannot touch you like he can, his touch is sin but mine is the strongest flames of hell. How long have I loved you? How can I not have met you before? Perhaps in the past you would have finished me off in a heartbeat, the rumors of you excited me. They made me want to see you but when I did, I saw a beautiful human being. I saw no archangel Gabriel, I saw only you Ellie. Even if you were perhaps a little too fierce at times, but that smile that you had made me happy. I fell in love with that smile, I fell in love with you. I should have stolen a kiss when I had the chance, because that guard dog of yours has your heart in his hands. But you are happy, your happiness belongs only to him. While I stand so far away from you and smile, I always think of what could have been between us. Because in my mind...It should have been me.