A Big IF

Patrick Jane, kissed that murderess Erica. It broke her heart. Yes, it did. Lisbon could hear her heart snapping. It was irrecoverable. The pain was indescribable. The man she thought is loyal to his dead wife. The man she thought need more time and space to get normal. The man that she totally relied upon, even if she didn't admit it. The man she really cared.

Tears welled Lisbon's eyes.

She wanted to scream.

But all her thoughts were stuck at her throat.

Her phone rang.

It was Cho.

"Boss, Jane was…murdered. Its Red John."

Lisbon stood up with an empty soul. Loosing him once is enough...but at least he was breathing. But now...

Yes, but now what am i going to do? If he was here, i would have pretended that i really don't care who he goes out with. I would have mastered my acting skills and try to fool him.

But now... Jane gone...

There were two tasks ahead of Lisbon.

She has to trace the woman who seduced Jane and dragged him to his end. Then, she has to kill Red John.

"I will avenge your death Jane. And i will always try to have a little smile in my face just for you..."

In Bertrem's office

"Agent Lisbon, I know this is a shock for you... but the Burea needs you to make a statement on the sad situation"

"Sad situation?" scoffed Lisbon mentally. " i am mourning my more than colleague and he is talking of a sad situation?"

"Agent Lisbon, are you paying attention?"

"Yes, Sir."

"good, since we got THAT sort out...Red John case, Lisbon. We might have to transfer it to another team."

"NO!"

" i am sorry, Lisbon. You are too much personal on the case..."

In Her Office

Lisbon was staring at the couch. She was expecting Jane to burst into the office at any moment. But, the truth was overwhelming... She didn't know what to do. Did he, even for once, regarded me as more than a colleague? Well, he kissed Erica... i was with him for more than eight years, but...

Cho walked into the office.

And directed the most obvious question. "What is the plan, boss? We are not on Red John but are we gonna stay put or?"

"Jane wouldn't have." Lisbon said, still staring at the couch.

"Ok." And Cho marched out of the office, to meet three worried faces. Rigsby, Van Pelt and Summer.

" Jane, I want you here. I don't know how to go one. Not without you here. So much for a good cop, i need you." Lisbon mumbled.

Lisbon's eyes were fiercely emerald.

"Cho, Rigs, Grace in my office." It was an order from a different Lisbon. A Lisbon who was actually tuff, not the one who was acting-tuff.

" I am going to do everything in my power to catch Erica and Red John. Are you in?"

"Yes." It was unanimous.

"Ok, for that we need back up." Lisbon's hand went for the phone. There are two people to call.

" Hello"

"Hey, this is Agent Lisbon."

"My God, Lisbon. I am on my way to see you. I got the news."

" My team is out from RJ case, but i can't sit and do nothing. I need you to help me, to catch Red John."

" I will use all my power. Hold on Lisbon, i will be there in half an hour. I am flying back to Sac. now from France."

"Thank you, Mashburn."

Next Call.

" I need you to help me out to kill Red John."

"Lisbon,Lisbon! Listen to me now! This is not good, you hear me? This is not good."

" Are you gonna back me up or not, just lemmi know Minelli."

" Lisbon, you are not being rational here. Revenge is not the answer."

Irony slapped hard on Lisbon's face.

The very same words that she used to chant all these years. She knew she was listening to the truth. But she was determined. She got to do this. For Jane.

For herself.

"Just Yes or No, Minelli."

"All the way girl. To the end."

Lisbon fell on her knees and broke down.

"Jane, come back to me, Jane please...I need you."

[This is getting interesting! Up to now, i got three reviews. One (Tom-Ato13) reassuring me quite calmly and with care, another(Eldanar) happily agreeing with me and sharing similar feelings and the other, very politely saying "ashamed to be associated with others such as yourself." :) Well, i can't expect all the ppl to be nice to me, but i guess i should apologize, if someone find this annoying. Here it goes, "If you don't like this, I am truly sorry for hurting your feelings".

Got few more responses...mainly funny and positive stuff! But one "Concerned" says "This is a VERY immature response" and " I don't care if you ever come back for seconds." :) well, i am not running for presidency here! I just can't see, y they can't see i have used a word called IF! IF THEY KISS!]

And i have collected some real cool support these days! As most of them say, All of us ARE counting on old Bruno not to mess up the fantasy for us.

I saw the Season 04 Episode 14 promo! OUTRAGES! And I am still shivering with rage! Jane gonna kiss that bloody Erica?

I here by declare that I am not going to write or read any Jisbon fanfic or watch this series if Jane let himself be seduced by that murderess woman.

If they kiss, I will support Red John and kill Patrick Jane at every single fanfiction that I write. [plus Erica] Come to think of it, Lisbon-is-jelouse stories would also be fun!

BUT i love The Mentalist. Usually my hunches are wrong! So nothing would go wrong...Jane and Lisbon are made for each other!

However, if Jane actually kiss this woman, I am writing the shortest story I have ever written in my life.