"This is not one of those stories about a demon who loves a angel.
We are both demons,
Demons can't love.
So what do we do now? "
Prologue
"The Angel and The Demon"
Alexander Lightwood was only 19 years old when he died in the fight with the demon. He was innocent, he had pure heart so he got into Heaven right after his death. Alec has been included in numerous ranks of Raziel's angels and he started his eternity, the time passing slowly or maybe fast, he has no clue. He's a free spirit and it's good for him. Their siblings sometimes can feel his presence, he likes to visit them in the night, whispering to their ears. He was crying angelic tears when he was watching his parabatai suffering after Alec died. And his sister, oh Raziel, his sister... Isabelle... She became really sad and closed for people but luckily she met Simon, Clary's friend and now they're happy, together, as a marriage. And so Jace and Clarissa. Alec couldn't ask for anything more for them. Everyone's happy and this is all that matters. He was their Guardian Angel, once he saved Jace for killing himself because of his stupid self-confidence. He doesn't have to protect them, they all have their own angels, but Alexander likes doing this. They are people who he loves and nothing can change that. Nothing. And of course, he's allowed to use a glamour – so he can sometimes be a human... But Lightwood didn't use it yet. Raziel and his glory and knowledge his family is safe - it's everything Alec needs.
Magnus Bane is an old Warlock, over 400 years old. He had been in love before, he broke a lot of hearts but now... He has been actually alone for almost 150 years. No one could give him what Magnus wanted. Love was like a game but the time has come finally and Bane didn't want to play anymore. He wanted to give someone his heart forever. And he still does. There weren't any kind of creature he hasn't dated yet. Warlocks, vampires, faerie, humans, werewolves, genies... Fine, not every kinda. Except for Shadowhunters. He tried but they never loved him. Well. Maybe Magnus Bane doesn't deserve for love?
But he has a special ability. He can see what other people can't – not a Shadow World... No. Ghosts, angels, demons... Warlock saw a lot of ghosts in his long live, a hundreds of demons... but he never really saw an angel. He heard once they're very shy and afraid about their wings. Supposedly those wings are very fragile and easy to tear, not that Magnus would know. And actually Bane always wonders what's like to meet an angel... Are they sparkling? Can they talk? Are they like "Raziel is everything"? Can they visit the Earth? So many questions and zero answers. Magnus stood up from his favourite chair and said loudly:
This is my goal. To meet an angel and make him or her talk.
CHAPTER ONE
"Are you even a real person?"
ONE MONTH LATER...
Alec was very busy that day. It was summer, sunny and hot, and Isabelle decided to go to the beach with Simon and their little daughter, Damaris. And everything could be fine if young parents didn't forget to look at their baby girl sometimes. Actually, Alexander understood why – Damaris was playing with her doll, so Izzy and Simon took a headphones for listening music together. Suddenly their daughter decided to go and look for some shells, increasingly moving away from her parents. Alec followed her. She was only 5 years old and the world is dangerous, Izzy would kill herself if she lost a child.
- Hey, Damaris – angel with black hair whispered to her ear – Come back to your parents. You're gonna get lost. Please. Come back – a girl was smart and suggestible so she turned around and went forward to Izzy's arms.
- Oh my gosh, honey, you can't go anywhere without me or dad... - Isabelle looked at the sky – Thanks, Alec. I know you are watching all of us – Lightwood smiled. Her sister used to thank him for everything, even if it wasn't his work. That was cute.
He stayed with Lewis family for whole day and when he was flying around the New York Institute he saw a guy. Very weird one. His hair were covered by glitter, he had a full make-up and extravagant clothes. "He's a Warlock" Alec thought, seeing his hands and little sparkles between them. Unexpectedly he raised his head and opened his mouth.
- Oh my Lilith... - an angel got scared a little – That was quick!
- You can... see me? - Lightwood was surprised.
- Yes, I do. Actually. That was my goal for next few years, to see an angel... And here you are, a month later. Can you... uhm... stand on the ground? I'm Magnus Bane – he smiled.
- Alec – former Shadowhunter nodded his head, staring at Magnus.
- I didn't expect angels to be so beautiful... - the admiration in Warlock's voice made Alec blushed – How old are you?
- Well... When I died I was 19.
- What are you doing here?
- I was watching my sister and her family... And now I just... Wanted to see my old home.
- I got it... - he came closer to Alec – What's like to be an angel?
- Uhm... Nice.
- You're not very talkative – he laughed. His laugh melodic and bright – You, angels, can't talk to people or it's just you?
- I think it's just me... - he was blushing openly, Bane could see that very clearly – I'm shy.
- Well, firstly... You're beautiful.
- Am I...?
- Yeah. You know... Is there some limit or something? I mean, you're here now... You have to come back at 8 or...?
- No, I... I mean... If we, angels, are too long on Earth we become weak and then we can even die. But I don't have to come back yet... Yhm... Well... If you wanna talk... Nobody ever talked to me... They can't see me...
- Where are your wings? - Magnus changed the subject.
- I have them only when I'm in Heaven or when I have my human body.
- I wanna see them – his eyes glowed – Please.
- No... I'm... They are very fragile...
- I know, I promise I won't touch you. I just wanna see – Alec knew what can happen with his wings... And without them he was nothing. He couldn't lose them... But he strangely trusted Magnus, like they have known each other for the entire lifetime.
- Fine... Just for a moment – an angel closed his eyes and slowly changed into a human. He heard Bane's sigh and lifted his head.
- You didn't mention... that you're so handsome – Warlock stuttered, staring at Alec – And... Oh my Lilith... Your wings are stunning...
- This is my first time as a human.
- Really?
- I didn't need my glamour before.
- And how are you feel?
- Weird... but fine. How do I look?
- Come and see – he conjured a mirror for Lightwood so Shadowhunter could take a look. Magnus was right – Alexander was stunning. His black hair shining, blue and deep eyes glowing like stars and his lips so smooth and gentle. His body muscled, and pale skin without any scars except these after old runes. And those wings. Fragile, made of some weird material, not feathers but...
- Are they... soft? - Magnus asked shyly – I mean your wings.
- Well... - Alec touched them – Oh my Raziel...
- What?
- It's so... strong feeling when I touch them. It's like... I don't know...
- Caress but more? - Warlock grinned.
- I don't know.
- You what?
- Why are you so surprised...? I never... uhm... had anyone.
- Oh... - Magnus sighed – That's... sad. Why?
- Didn't find anyone. It's nothing, forget it.
- Whatever. Can I ask you something?
- Sure.
- Alec... Alexander. This is your full name, right?
- I don't like it but... yes.
- So Alexander – when he saw angel's sight he giggled – Sorry, I love it. Can we meet again?
- Meet...? You mean... Meet... - Alec was confused – Why?
- You're interesting. And you're an angel. Why not?
- I'll... Think about it. I'm not human anymore... My home is there – he pointed at sky – But if I decide to meet... you can wait for me here. Next week. Same time.
- Sure – Magnus' eyes like cat's – I'll be waiting, Angel – Alexander caught this "A" instead of "a" and blushed a little.
- Yeah... I... I gotta go – Lightwood changed again into his normal shape and disappeared. Magnus couldn't stop smiling. Not only he met an angel, but this angel was the most beautiful man he has ever seen. He didn't know if angels can fall in love or not, but he was sure he'll meet Alexander more than once again.
NEXT WEEK...
Alexander was insanely nervous that day. He couldn't stop thinking about Magnus since the day they met and talked. Alec knew Warlocks are half demons and demons were created to destroy angels... Maybe that was the reason that former Shadowhunter wanted to go for this meeting so hard? Or maybe he wanted because Bane was so... different? So interesting? And his eyes... Yes. His eyes were very hypnotizing. Alec had nothing to do, he already checked his family, they were all fine, so...
Couple minutes after he was waiting for Magnus. And Warlock really did come.
- Alexander! - he smiled – You came!
- So did you – answered angel, drowning in Bane's magical eyes.
- I have some questions. About angels. But first, maybe we can go for a walk?
- Well... Isn't gonna be weird, you talking to the air? - Alec raised his eyebrow.
- Right... So... Maybe you can...
- No. I can't.
- What about beach? Nobody will see you there so you'll be safe – Magnus proposed and Alexander had to admit he was right.
- Okay. Let's go then – they were walking in silence until they got to the beach and Alec changed his shape to the human one.
- Now I can't take my eyes off you – murmured Warlock, causing big blush on angel's cheeks.
- You... - Alec cleared his throat – You wanted to ask me... something...
- Right. So, you angels can love?
- We do, actually. I love my family, I love Raziel... More like I respect him but...
- I mean romantic kind of love – Bane looked at Alexander's eyes.
- Angels can't love each other in that way.
- And... angel and human?
- No... I guess it's prohibited. Besides love like that would be painful for both sides...
- Why?
- Because they won't be able to be together.
- They would hang out like we do now.
- We're not hanging out – Alec denied – If you love someone... Then you want to be with that person all the time, right?
- Yes...
- So... It's simple. I actually never heard about love between human and angel.
- And angel and demon?
- Oh God... Raziel would kill for this...
- They say demons were created...
- ...To destroy the angels – Alec finished the sentence – I know.
- So you also know I'm half demon? - Magnus stopped and focused his sight on Alec's lips.
- I... I do... But we're just talking – Alec felt little anxiously.
- You don't have to be afraid, Angel - "Angel". Alexander's heart sped up – I'm not gonna hurt you. You believe me, right?
- I do – they smiled to each other
- Alec?
- What?
- You don't regret it?
- Regret...?
- Everything. Your death...
- I didn't choose being killed. It just happened. I was protecting my parabatai – when he said "parabatai" his eyes filled with love.
- Tell me about him.
- So his name is Jace, he's younger than me... I mean he was. Now he's 34. He is blond, tall and muscled... uhm... very handsome... he's an awesome fighter...
- And you were in love with him.
- What?! No!
- Please, Alexander – Magnus smirked – I can see.
- I... Just...
- I understand – Alec turned his gaze and Bane wanted to put his hand on angel's shoulder but he knew he can't – There's nothing to be ashamed of, Alec.
- It is... He's happy now, he has a wife, and three kids... Jem, Will and Max – he smiled.
- I knew Jem and Will, you know? Jem Carstairs was a Shadowhunter, then Silent Brother, then he wasn't... and Will... All Herondales... Long story...
- We're talking about the same people – Alec sent Magnus a big smile – And Max was... my youngest brother... he... died...
- H...
- I don't wanna talk about it – Lightwood interrupted – It's fine.
- Okay, I'm not gonna push – Magnus nodded – Look at the sunset. Isn't it beautiful?
- It is... - Alec sat on the warm dust – I can't see this when I'm in Heaven.
- What a pity... It's amazing.
- I know... Sometimes I think that... Raziel took me too early. Like... I always wanted to be an awesome Shadowhunter with family...
- Wife and kids?
- No wife... - he whispered – Maybe that's the reason I died.
- What are you talking about?
- Shadowhunters can't be... can't like... same gender.
- Oh Alec... - Magnus sighed – You don't really think that the fact you like boys caused your death?
- I don't know... Raziel never says why someone died. It's a secret or something.
- You wanna know? - Bane's voice very gentle.
- Maybe... But if he said something like "because you are gay" I would die again... So maybe it's better like this.
- Or maybe you did what you've been created to do.
- Well... You can be right...
- See? I'm smart – he laughed, winking to Alec – Are we gonna finish our walk? Or you want to stay here?
- We can go – both stood up and came back to walking – Magnus, I...
- Yeah?
- Can you do something for me?
- What is it, Angel?
- Can you... tell Izzy... - his voice broke a little – That I love her? And take care of her everyday?
- I know Maryse, your mother... So it won't be a problem. Sure, I'll do it.
- Thank you – Alec whispered – It's been so many years... And still... She never forgot about me... She thanks me every time when something good happens in her life... And I can't go and just show her my angel shape...
- Why?
- Because we can't show up to anyone we knew when we were alive...
- Even as a human with wings?
- Yeah... So you'll do this?
- Of course, Alec. Everything – he unwittingly grabbed angel's hand and felt pleasant current flowing through his veins.
- Hey! - Alexander took his hand immediately – I could hurt you!
- You... you didn't – Magnus drowned in his beautiful eyes now filled with fear – It was... nice. Different – Alec kept silence – Please, let me. Just for a moment – Shadowhunter nodded and Magnus touched his warm palm, closing his eyes. It was like Alec's body was filled with boiling blood and every inch of his skin charged with heavenly electricity which was... amazing. Magnus thought how pleasant would be kissing him...
Their eyes met. Alexander's – blue like a sky and Magnus' – catlike, gold and green. They could hear their heartbeats pretty loud. Bane was still holding angel's hand but he felt, he really wanna touch his wings. Just to be closer to this breathtaking boy.
- Alec... - he whispered – Alexander...
- Mhm...?
- Can I... Touch your wings...?
- Magnus... No... - he closed his eyes, squeezing Warlock's palm – No, you can't.
- Fine – Magnus didn't push. He knew someday Alexander will let him, he just had to wait – Can I kiss you then?
- What? - former Shadowhunter was shocked. He moved back immediately, his eyes wide opened, hands shaking – What did you say?
- You heard – Warlock said, looking at him – But it's fine. You don't have to.
- I'm... - Alec didn't know what was going on. He was torn between knowledge what can happen with disobedient angels and irresistible desire to lost himself in a deep kiss. He didn't know Magnus... "It's just a reaction to the sign of male interest, Alec... You know nothing about him... You don't wanna be a Fallen Angel..." he was speaking to himself in his mind...
...And in the next moment he was already leaning toward the Magnus' face. Their lips touched and they both moaned loudly. That electricity was insanely intense, Alec has never been kissed before and Bane never felt something like this. Usually during the first kiss your hands are shaking and your heart beats faster but this... Their lips were touching really lightly and still, the feeling was unbelievable. And they wanted more.
Magnus pressed his lips to Alec's and trembled when the chills started running through his skin. He felt angel's arms wrapping around his waist and Bane murmured, pulling him closer. That was definitely too good, like, that was even better than the best sex Warlock had in his long life. Alec felt the same. This time was his first when it comes to kissing and he didn't know how to do this, but when he felt Magnus' mouth on his... He knew. His angelic powers created so much energy that electricity was making the kiss very predatory and erogenous. Alec's wings were tingling like they were begging for a touch. Raziel told him that wings are more touch-sensitive than everything in human body, one touch and you're lost. That's what he said. But Alec lost control at the moment Magnus kissed him, so now he couldn't care less about consequences. He took Warlock's hand and put it on his back.
- What...
- Shhh – Alexander silenced him – I want it... - Magnus realized it was more intimate than anything, like when you touch someone for the first time it's always introduction to sex, but this... This was more. And Magnus Bane didn't wanna scare Alexander. He cared about him more than he thought.
- You're sure, my Angel? - he whispered to Shadowhunter's ear.
- I believe you... you won't hurt me...
- I'm a demon...
- Half... I don't care... - Alec was really dazed, his body filled with desire, his mind hazy. He laid Magnus on his back, kissing Warlock's neck and pressing him to the dust.
- Focus... - Bane said and slightly moved his finger over Alec's wing. Shadowhunter moaned quietly.
- Again... Please...
- You were right... - Magnus murmured, sliding his fingers into beautiful wings. He started stroking them slowly, causing Alexander's moans.
Alec has never felt so good before. Every little touch was sending pleasant chills down to his spine and whole body, it was too amazing to be true...
"Probably that's why Raziel told us not to do this..." he thought, trying to focus just a little bit but it was impossible so he just closed his eyes, moaning with pleasure. He couldn't recognize himself. He always was the calm one, emotionless and focused on work. And now he was just... Kissing that Warlock and letting him touch his most important property.
- Magnus... - he panted, breaking the kiss – We have to... By the Angel... Stop...
- Why? - Bane kissed him once again, still stroking his sensitive wings – I'm just giving you some pleasure you deserved...
- I mean... I don't wanna stop... But that went too far...
- Okay, what happened?
- Are you even a real person? - Alec asked, staring at the sea.
- What?
- Maybe it's just a punishment, maybe some Greater Demon is trying to make me a Fallen Angel...
- Are you suggesting... that I'm your tempter?
- Maybe you are.
- Alexander...
- Stop. I have to go – he stood up.
- Alec! - Magnus shouted – Wait! You can't leave me like this!
- Magnus – he looked at the Warlock – You don't know me. We just met twice. I don't even know who you are. I'm not a human anymore and don't try make me feel like one!
- Alexander... - Bane grabbed angel's hand – For my entire life people were telling me I'm evil. Because I am a demon's child. But I'm not a demon, Alec. I don't wanna make you suffer, I just saw you and...
- And what?
- You're special, Angel. I don't care you belong to Raziel, I don't care you don't know me and I don't know you. I just wanna have the entire time to look at your beautiful eyes. I'm sorry if this kiss was a wrong decision. But... Don't leave me – Alec always had a pure heart, he was thoughtful and empathic but he was also distrustful. And if he met the most breathtaking man he ever saw who also wanted to make out with Alexander... Something was definitely wrong.
- I'm sorry I was so naive – angel whispered.
- You know I'm gonna wait for you?
- I won't come.
- Oh – Magnus smiled – You will, darling.
As I promised, something new :3 I'm not sure what's gonna happen here, am I gonna finish this or not, also I'm not sure when next chapter will be here, but... Sounds interesting, huh? I don't know why the whole thing with Angels, but it was nice in my head. And oh - rating for a reason, but this... yeah. Let me know what u guys think! And do you like the cover?