Hi everyone! I'm back after a VERY long time. Life got hectic and I had no time or inspiration to write. Now I'm in the middle of exam period, so I need to write for all you out there to relax. I hope you like this.
Margaret didn't want to fall in love. She couldn't. There were so many negatives in the situation. You see, Margaret was very mathematical regarding men, especially after her divorce from 'Donald Duckface'. She couldn't bring herself to fall in love when she thought it was so wrong.
The man was egotistical, hated the army, a womaniser who could hurt her at anytime – the last was the worst in Margaret's eyes.
On the other hand, her heart told her that when this man found the right woman, he would not lose her for anything.
The conflict was in Margaret's mind and nothing could ease her concerns. Only someone could, but if she asked him to talk he'd know her feelings. Then she would be very vulnerable. Margaret was not vulnerable to anyone. She liked her control.
Margaret sighed at a very important realisation. She was already in love. She had no choice, but she could be smart and not act on it.
There was just one minor problem – Everytime she was near him she couldn't help but want to be with him. She couldn't avoid him. He lived across her tent and they worked the same shift in Post-Op.
Suddenly, there was a knock at the door.
"Yes?"
"Margaret, it's Hawkeye. Are you ok? You haven't been outside all day."
"Come in Hawkeye."
As Hawkeye walked in, he immediately felt the feel in the tent change to a very awkward situation. This had not happened since he and Margaret had become friends.
"Margaret, tell me what's wrong. I'll listen."
"Hawkeye, I know you'll listen, but I can't tell you this. I just can't. If I do, I'll be lost."
Hawkeye was very confused at this point. He didn't understand her at all.
"Why can't you tell me? I couldn't possibly make things worse."
"You can. By saying a few words you could ruin me. Can you just leave? I need to think."
When she saw that Hawkeye wasn't moving, she looked him in the eyes.
"Please Hawkeye. I just need to be alone now. I promise that I'll tell you sometime."
Hawkeye gave her a weak smile and left.
Margaret, as soon as Hawkeye closed her door, fell on her bed in disbelief. She definitely was in love, and she thought that Hawkeye could possibly feel the same. How could they be sure?
For the first year or so of the war, they'd hated each other. Actually, they barely knew each other. Their paths crossed, their mouths kissed when Hawkeye would dip her, but they really didn't know or understand each other.
Then the hut changed everything. They had spent the night together and had realised that they cared for each other. Hawkeye had made it clear that nothing could come of it though because of their differences.
However, as time passed, Margaret realised that they weren't all that different. She masked her feelings behind the military and procedure while Hawkeye did the same through jokes.
Then, the divorce had come, and no one had been more supportive than Hawkeye.
Not to mention Scully. When she had ended things with him, she realised that she couldn't get a custom fit man. Hawkeye was the most perfect, despite his imperfections.
Things had changed between them and she did not know what to do.
So, any thoughts? Any good or bad comments? Please comment and tell me if I should continue this.