I lay here in bed, awake. Awake in my new house, about half a mile from Jake and Marco's houses. I can't sleep- I can't help, can't stop thinking about them. Jake, Marco, and Tobias, on a mission to rescue Ax. I can't help thinking, fearing that I'll never see him- and them- again, that on the mountain we said goodbye for the very last time. I still love him.
I can't help the "if only's". If only I had been there for him. He *shouldn't* have to be strong *all* the time. He doesn't have to. And, although he likes to think he can, he *can't* be strong all the time, 24/7/365 all his life. I need to let him know. I should have let him know. If only I had told him.
He proposed, all those years ago. I told him to wait a year. He said it was harsh.
Well, I guess it was, that he needed me most right after the war. He still does- need me, that is. I could tell when we said goodbye. I still love him. I think he still loves me too. We both just need to get over Rachel's untimely death.
He thinks it's his fault she died. It isn't; if he wasn't leading, and someone else would, it would be their fault. It wasn't his fault, personally; it was the leader's fault, and Jake was the leader.
I can't help thinking that this wasn't the way it was supposed to turn out. We should have been married. If- no, *when* he comes back, with or without Ax, I'm going to propose to him.Think positive thoughts, Cassie. My name is supposed to be Cassie Berenson, I can tell. What if he turns me down? Then that's his problem. He wouldn't turn me down anyway. He loves me and I love him. I'm proposing as soon as he gets home.
A/N: What do you think? This is a prologuey companioney thing to my newest J/C drama/romance series. It's mainly but not just J/C romance. Maybe some Marco/other. OOH! I got the bestest idea of who. I'm not telling though. Read my fic as soon as I post it and you'll find out. :) Well it wouldn't be me without some sorta cliffhanger! :-D
I can't help the "if only's". If only I had been there for him. He *shouldn't* have to be strong *all* the time. He doesn't have to. And, although he likes to think he can, he *can't* be strong all the time, 24/7/365 all his life. I need to let him know. I should have let him know. If only I had told him.
He proposed, all those years ago. I told him to wait a year. He said it was harsh.
Well, I guess it was, that he needed me most right after the war. He still does- need me, that is. I could tell when we said goodbye. I still love him. I think he still loves me too. We both just need to get over Rachel's untimely death.
He thinks it's his fault she died. It isn't; if he wasn't leading, and someone else would, it would be their fault. It wasn't his fault, personally; it was the leader's fault, and Jake was the leader.
I can't help thinking that this wasn't the way it was supposed to turn out. We should have been married. If- no, *when* he comes back, with or without Ax, I'm going to propose to him.Think positive thoughts, Cassie. My name is supposed to be Cassie Berenson, I can tell. What if he turns me down? Then that's his problem. He wouldn't turn me down anyway. He loves me and I love him. I'm proposing as soon as he gets home.
A/N: What do you think? This is a prologuey companioney thing to my newest J/C drama/romance series. It's mainly but not just J/C romance. Maybe some Marco/other. OOH! I got the bestest idea of who. I'm not telling though. Read my fic as soon as I post it and you'll find out. :) Well it wouldn't be me without some sorta cliffhanger! :-D