You and me :)
It's kinda funny really that I'm still here, still wanting your love after everything. You are a damaged man, but you're my damaged man and no matter what happens or what problems come our way, we are going to face them together. Being with you for all these years, well on and off, has taught me so much and I've learnt that when you lash out, there is always a reason. It doesn't excuse what you did, hitting me again was wrong, but with every messed up thing you do I'm learning more about you.
I'm too involved now; I couldn't throw it all away even if I wanted to. You made a mistake, a terrible mistake, a mistake that hurt me badly, but when you love me I feel complete. You show me how happy I can be and I don't want to give that up…ever. I feel like I can do anything when I have your love and when we are at our best together I feel so high. No one takes me to the levels of ecstasy you can, no one can love me the way you do and I will accept all the bad of you because the good is so amazing.
We will always be no matter how hard we try to fight it at times, because we just don't work without each other. We have tried to move on and leave each other behind, but to be without each other is worse than anything that we have gone through together. Even in the darkest times we found our way home, because no matter how dark it got I could always see a glimmer of light that brought me straight back to you. They say home is where the heart is and my heart belongs to you.
We have both made sacrifices to be together and I'm not going to let anyone come between us now. How many has there been? Too many, but I swear to you I will fight anyone else that tries. I know you have a past, we all do, but you're not that man anymore and you are trying your best to live a normal life, but they just won't let you. I just wish we could have been happy for a bit longer, but the minute we got back from Dublin it all kicked off. Seamus, Amy, Kevin and Walker. Why can't they leave us alone?
Do whatever you have to do so that we can have that future you promised me. You know the one where we leave all the shit behind us and buy a nice house. Once we've shown everyone that were not going anywhere, that were going to be together, then maybe Leah and Lucas could come back. I will help you mend your burnt bridges and maybe even your boys could come and stay with us, regardless of what they say they love you Bren. You are their dad and that means something.
I promise you that this won't last forever, this feud with Walker and when it's all over we will emerge stronger than ever. We will live our lives together, happy and in love, but let's do it somewhere else, somewhere away from here, somewhere where we can make new memories. You can't push me away anymore because when it comes to you it's like I'm stuck in cement and I've accepted that now. You never left my side, even when I was with Doug and now I'm standing by your side taller than ever. I am proud of you and I am proud of us.
I know it sounds crazy, especially when only a few days ago you hit me again, but I know I have seen the last of you like that. Don't ask me how I know…I just do. I forgive you anyway, I understand even though I don't like it and I understand because we are the same. We are similar in so many ways and I get you…I do. I get why you're angry, you've just got to focus your anger on something other than me and I will help you, I'll always help you.
There is something special about you, there is something special about us together and I don't ever wanna spend another day without you. I love you so much, more than I have ever loved anyone or anything before. Take away all the mess, take away all the people who are trying to destroy us and that's when you know. It's always alright init? When it's just you and me.
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