Rough one

"Hey Jay, my shift is almost over, I'll be waiting for you by the nurse's station." Will said into his cellphone.

"Actually, I'm on my way over to Med, see you in a minute." Jay said then ended the call. Minutes later, Jay walked into the ED. He looked like he had a rough day, rough would be an understatement.

"Have a good night, Dr. Halstead." Maggie echoed from the nurse's station.

"You too." He said as he went to the staff locker room. He usually changed there, but he was tired, and he was headed home anyway, so he grabbed his coat and found Jay waiting for him by the doors. As the brothers walked outside, a cold breeze blew past them, making them both shiver.

"Where's your truck?" Will asked Jay curiously.

"I wanted to walk home." Jay told him.

"Walk? It's freezing out!" Will exclaimed.

"I deserve it." Jay said weakly.

"Nobody deserves to freeze, Jay, let's go see if Ethan would drop us off closer to the house." Will said turning back towards Chicago Med.

"Go ahead and ask Ethan, I need to clear my head." Jay said as he took off into the darkness.

"Dang it, Jay!" Will said as he re-entered the ED and blew warm air onto his cold hands and rubbed them together.

"Hey, Ethan!" Will called over to Dr, Choi as he was leaving the locker room.

"Hi, Will, What's up?" Ethan asked him.

"I had planned to just walk home today, but earlier, Jay called me and said he was going to come pick me up. Long story short, Jay's a idiot, and I need a ride home." Will told him.

"Alright. Go ahead and get in." Ethan said pointing to his car, that he had started a few minutes ago. Will opened the passenger side door, and climbed in.

"Wow, your heater works really well." Will said, his teeth chattering from the cold, brisk air,

"Perks of getting a new heating system put in." Ethan, joked.

"I'm really going to have to think about replacing mine." Will said with a small laugh.

"Where is Jay, anyway?" Ethan asked Will, curiously.

"He took off, on foot, something about needing to clear his head." Will told him, still amazed at how well the heat was working.

"I get that. We had quite a rough shift, also. Just give him a little space. He'll come around." Ethan told Will as he pulled up outside of Jay and his house.

"I'm sure you're right Thanks for the ride." Will said as he got out of the warm car.

"Anytime." Ethan said as he headed, slowly down the ice covered roads of Chicago. Will slid his key into the lock of the front door and opened the door, stepped inside, and shut the door, trying to keep the heat in and the cold out.

"Jay? You here?" Will called towards the back of the house, no answer.

"Jay?" will asked as he turned the corner and hit the light switch. He checked the whole house, but couldn't find Jay. Will let out a sigh of frustration, and headed outside. He found Jay sitting out on the front porch, carefully tracing his shield with his fingers.

"Come on, get in here, it's freezing!" Will exclaimed.

"Fine." Jay said, as he got up from the front steps, not wanting to fight.

"We need to talk." Will snapped at his brother.

"About what?" Jay asked him, annoyed at Will's tone.

"You." He said motioning Jay over to the kitchen and grabbed them each a beer out of the fridge, and handed one to Jay.

"I'm fine, Will, I've just had a rough day." Jay said staring down at his beer.

"I did too, but you don't see me trying to freeze myself to death!" will said, starting to raise his voice.

"I wasn't. I told you I just needed to clear my head!" Jay snapped back.

"Did it work?" Will asked him curiously.

"Not really. But this is a huge decision, I really need to think on it." Jay told him, still not making eye contact.

"What's going on, Jay?" Will asked him, with a look of concern.

"I keep putting everyone I love or care about in danger, so I've decided to leave the police force." Jay said finally looking straight at Will.

"What?" Will asked him, shocked at what Jay had just said.

"You heard me." Jay said his expression starting to change.

"Jay, go get warm, and we can talk about this when you are thinking straight." Will told Jay.

"I am thinking straight! I've lost my mother, and father, I'm sure as hell not losing you too!" Jay snapped,

"Lose me? Jay, What are you talking about?" Will asked him.

"I can't explain, but I'm turning in my shield in the morning and you can't change my mind!" Jay snapped, slamming the bottle down on the counter and stomped down the hall to his bedroom, shutting the door, hard, behind him. Will pulled out his cellphone and called the only person he could think of that could be able to help Jay.

"Voight." Hank said into his cellphone.

"Hi..It's Will halstead, something is wrong with Jay...Is there anything you can do to help me figure this out?" Will asked him.

"Is he hurt?" Voight asked him, quickly.

"Not physically. But he's talking crazy." Will told him.

"Don't worry, Will, I'll keep a close eye on him, thanks for the heads up." Voight said then ended the call. Will jammed his cellphone back into his coat pocket and went to his room. He grabbed clean clothes and went into the bathroom and took a shower. After turning off the hot water and getting dressed, he put his towels in the hamper, and went back into the livingroom and started closing up the house for the night. Will finished checking the locks and headed to his bedroom, shut the door, crawled into bed and flicked off the light.

"I couldn't save her, please leave my brother out of this!" Jay yelled, his eyes still tightly shut.

"I'm sorry...This isn't my fault!" Jay yelled.

"No! Leave him alone! Hurt me, just don't take it out of him!" Jay said yelling as he thrashed around in his sleep.

"Jay! Jay. It's okay." Will said as he entered his brother's bedroom and shook him awake.

"Will?" Jay asked, half asleep.

"You were yelling in your sleep. There is more to this than you are telling me, isn't there?" Will asked him, sympathetically.

"Yes. I already told you, I have to do this Will. I need to keep everyone safe, it's my job." Jay told him.

"This is all you ever wanted. You can't just throw it all away." Will snapped.

"I'll talk to you more about this later. Go back to bed." Jay said as he switched sides.

"Okay, but this time yell a little softer." Will joked as he left his brother's bedroom and shut the door behind him. Will couldn't see but could sense that Jay was rolling his eyes at him. Will returned to his room, and climbed back into bed, and waited anxiously for his alarm to go off. About two hours later, he heard Jay moving around the house. He looked over at the alarm which read 4:45 am. Will didn't know why Jay was up so early, but he was exhausted and decided to just give Jay some space. Voight had promised to watch over Jay for him, and Voight doesn't go back on his word.