Authors Note: I own nothing especially not Smallville,Whitesnake or Taylor Swift even though I wish I did.
Have you ever had one of those times when you've been halfway though writing one fic when another just pops into your head. Well thats what happened with me. I was writing A Friend In Need (unsubtle plug) when this showed up and demanded to be wrritten. So I finished what I was doing and got on with it.
Anyway I was looking at all the Clois stuff I've written and I realised that they all had happy endings. I have nothing against that its just that love isn't always like that. Sometimes Love Sucks. So that's where this comes from. I spent a while trying to decide whether to do it from Clark or Lois perspective but eventually settled on Clark as Lois had a (fairly) happy relationship with Oliver I could use as a starting point. No Ollie-Bashing intended it just panned out like that. Now enough from me. On with the story.
For L, G and A
Happy Reading
Teardrops
When Clark awoke he found his arms wrapped around his girlfriend. Snuggling closer he kissed the top of her head "morning Lo."
"Morning Smallville" she whispered looking up "you were pretty incredible last night."
He smiled "you weren't too bad yourself." Untangling his arms from around Lois' waist he climbed out of bed and headed toward the door.
"Where you going Clark" Lois asked innocently
"Well since I don't feel like giving myself food poisoning I thought I'd better make breakfast.
"Hey" Lois cried defensively picking up a pillow "my cooking isn't that bad" she hurled the pillow towards his head. Clark nimbly ducked it and it hit the doorframe.
"See you downstairs Lois" he said grinning.
A few minutes later Clark was standing at the stove making pancakes. Hearing the bottom step creak he turned around to see Lois entering the kitchen clad in one of his plaid shirts. He turned back to the stove before saying "why do you insist on wearing my shirts when you have plenty of nightwear of your own."
Lois wrapped her arms around his waist and stood on tiptoe to peer over his shoulder. "None of my other stuff smells like you" she admitted "besides you know I look great in it."
Clark chuckled "that's true." He turned around and putting down his spatula wrapped his arms around Lois' waist and pulled her closer "but you look good in anything."
"You're just saying that"
"Doesn't make it any less true." He then placed a light kiss on her forehead before moving down to her mouth.
"Clark" Lois whimpered as she felt him nip at her lower lip "the pancakes"
"Let them burn" he muttered,
Suddenly a loud buzzing noise filled the kitchen. Clark's eyes snapped open and he found himself lying on the couch in his loft. Looking around for the source of the mysterious buzzing noise he spotted his cell phone skittering across the floor. Grabbing it he flicked it open. "Hello" he said slowly.
"Hi Clark" a familiar voice replied.
"Oh hey Oliver" Clark said "do you need something,"
"Yeah" Oliver sounded slightly worried "see I was supposed to be taking Lois out tonight but…..something came up and I don't think I can make it."
"You want me to tell her don't you?"
"Could you, I would seriously owe you one."
Clark scowled and shook his head before answering "fine" he breathed "I'll talk to her."
"Thanks Boy Scout." Oliver said "I'll speak to you soon."
"Sure" Clark sighed "say hi to the guys for me and remember you owe me."
He closed his phone and shutting his eyes breathed out slowly. He had been having dreams about him and Lois as a couple for months. However every so often something like that phone call would happen and he would remember that it was Oliver she was dating and not him. It made Clark want to cry.
Standing up he walked out of the barn and climbing into his truck drove off to the Talon. When he arrived he parked and breathed out again before going and knocking on the door. "Come in" Lois cried and pushing the door open he crept inside. "Hey Oll" she began turning around and pulling herself short "Hi Smallville."
"Hey Lois" he said slowly leaning against the counter top.
She looked at him quizzically "he's not coming is he" she said eventually. He shook his head before walking over and wrapping his arms around her. "Why couldn't he tell me himself" she whispered into his shoulder.
"I don't know Lo" he said
"Did he even say he was sorry?" Looking up she saw Clark shake his head
"If it helps he really sounded cut up."
"But not enough to tell me in person."
Clark said nothing instead he simply held her until she disentangled herself from him. "I could use some coffee" she muttered.
"I'll go downstairs and get some" he said "I'll be back in a few minutes."
As he picked up the coffee from the counter he noticed a flyer. Picking it up he read.
Talon Talent Show.
If you have a talent no-matter how stupid sign up and help raise money for Smallville Medical Centre Paediatrics' Unit.
Clark turned to the person at the counter. "Where's the sign up sheet." The woman pointed over to the corner where a piece of paper was tapped to a pillar. Taking his coffee and the flyer over to the nearest paper he took the attached pen and wrote his name at the bottom of the list.
Returning to the apartment he saw Lois was on the phone. Putting the coffee cups on the counter he pulled out his MP3 player and began to look through his songs. A few minutes later he pulled a note pad across and began to make notes. Looking up he saw Lois had finished so he shoved the paper in his pocket and picked up the coffee and the flyer. "Did you know about this" he said sliding the leaflet across.
Lois nodded "I was thinking of going."
They sat in silence sipping their coffee before Clark spoke "so who were you on the phone too."
"The restaurant" Lois sighed "I was trying to see if I could get our reservation cancelled."
"And"
"They wouldn't. So that's a load of money down the drain."
"We could always go." Clark said suddenly.
Lois looked shocked "What do you mean."
"Well if Ollie can't be bothered to tell you he's not going to be there I say we spend his money for him."
Lois smiled "why not. He can afford it. Meet me here at seven Smallville."
When Clark got back to the farm he went up the loft and opening a trunk at the end of the couch pulled out an old guitar. Not many people were aware that Clark could play guitar but he could. Jonathon had taught him when Clark was young, However after his fathers death he had put it away.
Making sure it was tuned he pulled out his MP3 player again and finding the song from earlier began to quietly play along. Once he was sure he had the tune he pulled out the notes he had made earlier and continued writing.
Looking at his watch he realised that if he was going to meet Lois at seven he would need to get a move on. Walking back to the house he climbed into the shower and let the water cascade over him.
Climbing out of the shower he walked out of the bathroom to find Lois waiting outside.
"You take ages Smallville" she complained.
He chuckled "Well after that workout downstairs I needed tine to get my strength back."
She punched his bicep "stop being a wimp Smallville. You know you enjoyed it."
He laughed again "yeah I did. You were quite……inventive."
She smiled "stop fishing for compliments Clark and let me use the bathroom."
Once Lois had finished in the shower she came downstairs and found Clark slumped on the couch. "So what are we going to do today Smallville" she said snuggling up next to him.
"What ever you want Lo" he said quietly simply enjoying being in her company "what ever you want."
"I have some ideas" Lois said smirking as she reached up to kiss him "and plenty of them."
Clark opened his eyes and began to bang his head against the shower wall. He needed to stop thinking things like that. "She's with Oliver, Clark" a voice in his head told him "live with it."
Half an hour later he parked outside of the street level entrance to her apartment. Straightening his tie he climbed the stairs and knocked on the door. On her signal he pushed the door open and found Lois waiting. She looked absolutely stunning. Her hair was carefully curled and falling in layers around her face. She was wearing a form fitting silver dress with matching gold accessories. "Wow Lois" he said "you look beautiful."
"You don't look too bad yourself Smallville" Lois said smiling observing her best friend in a dark blue suit with a purple tie.
Clark offered his hand "join me for dinner."
Lois laughed "don't get too carried away Smallville. I'm taken remember."
Clark turned away so she couldn't see the sad look on his face "yeah" he whispered "I remember."
The meal was full of the light-hearted banter that was typical of Lois and Clark's relationship. However once they had reached dessert the mood turned serious. "Why does everything always come before me when Ollie's involved" Lois asked pushing tiramisu around her plate.
"I don't know Lo" Clark replied carefully cutting up his slice of cheese cake and transferring a piece to Lois' plate. Just as he did everytime he ate with her.
"I mean" Lois whispered "if we were going out you would drop everything if I needed you." As she was saying this she moved a chuck of her tiramisu onto his plates.
Clark nodded "you know I would Lois. Ollie" he paused. He could hardly tell her the real reason her boyfriend never had anytime for her.
"Are my ears burning or what" a voice said and looking up the pair saw their favourite blonde millionaire approaching their table.
"Ollie" Lois cried springing up and throwing herself at him "what are you doing here."
"Well I felt bad about standing you up so I cut the meeting short and came down. When you weren't at home I guessed you might be here." He shook Clark's hand "thanks for looking after her Clark."
Clark faked a smile "anytime Oliver."
Oliver drew an extra chair up to the table and looking at the menu gestured to the waiter as to what he wanted. "So" he said turning back to them "what's been going on." Just like that it was if Clark wasn't even there. Occasionally he was asked for his opinion on something but mostly he was forced to just sit and watch as Lois and Oliver talked and more.
Stealing a look at his watch he breathed out and stood up "well guys I'd better go." He pulled out his wallet and laid his share of the bill on the table.
"See you later Smallville" Lois said absently before returning her attention to Ollie.
"Later Clark" Oliver nodded "thanks again."
"Anytime" Clark repeated taking a long look at Lois "anytime."
Climbing into the truck Clark spent several minutes staring out of the window before pulling out of the car park and onto the road back to Smallville. Halfway there he reached into the glove box and pulled out a CD. Without looking at it he pushed it into the player and switched it on.
I don't know where I'm going
But, I sure know where I've been
Hanging on the promises
In songs of yesterday
An I've made up my mind,
I ain't wasting no more time
But, here I go again
Here I go again
Though I keep searching for an answer,
I never seem to find what I'm looking for
Oh lord, I pray
You give me strength to carry on,
cos I know what it means
To walk along the lonely street of dreams
An here I go again on my own
Goin down the only road I've ever known,
Like a drifter I was born to walk alone
An I've made up my mind
I ain't wasting no more time
I'm just another heart in need of rescue,
Waiting on loves sweet charity
An I'm gonna hold on
For the rest of my days,
cos I know what it means
To walk along the lonely street of dreams
An here I go again on my own
Goin down the only road I've ever known,
Like a drifter I was born to walk alone
An I've made up my mind
I ain't wasting no more time
But, here I go again,
Here I go again,
Here I go again,
Here I go...
An I've made up my mind,
I ain't wasting no more time
An here I go again on my own
Goin down the only road I've ever known,
Like a drifter I was born to walk alone
cos I know what it means
To walk along the lonely street of dreams
An here I go again on my own
Goin down the only road I've ever known,
Like a drifter I was born to walk alone
An I've made up my mind
I ain't wasting no more time...
But, here I go again,
Here I go again,
Here I go again,
Here I go,
Here I go again...
He cursed as Whitesnake blared out of the radio before ejecting the CD and passing the rest of the journey thinking about Lois.
When he got back to the farm he stripped of his suit jacket and threw it on an easy chair before collapsing onto the couch. Eventually he climbed upstairs to his room. Taking a look at the photo of Lois and him on his bedside table he put it face down before climbing under the covers and closing his eyes
He was woken by a knocking that filled the house. Throwing back the blanket he strode down stairs and over to the door. Pulling it open found Lois outside. "Lois" he said in surprise "what are you doing here."
Lois looked up at him "can I come in."
He moved aside "do you want anything to drink."
"Coffee would be nice."
Clark moved into the kitchen and rustled up two cups of coffee before returning to the living room. Seeing Lois on the couch he put the cups on the coffee table before sitting down next to her. "So" he said again "what's up. Where's Ollie."
Lois' face looked downcast. "We had an argument when we got back to the apartment."
Clark's face took on a concerned expression "what about."
"Ollie wanted to know what you were doing at the restaurant. He knew you delivered the message but he was a bit confused over why we were having dinner."
"What did you tell him?"
"I said we were just having dinner as friends and nothing more."
"But he didn't believe you"
She shook her head "I said there wasn't anything going on between us but if there was it would be his fault for being away so much."
Clark winced "I take it that didn't go down too well."
Lois wrapped her arms around Clark's chest and snuggled against him before continuing "He went on and on about his responsibilities to Queen Industries until I just got so annoyed that I told him if his precious company meant so much to him he could spend all his time there."
Clark couldn't prevent a big smile from splitting his face "you broke up."
Lois nodded "I didn't know where to go. I didn't want to stay there so I came here. I hope that was okay."
"Of course Lois. You know you're always welcome here." Suddenly Lois burst into tears "what's the matter Lo" Clark asked wrapping his arms around her.
"Why do I always end up alone Smallville" she bawled "no matter how hard I try I always end up alone."
"Shush Lois" Clark soothed rubbing her back "I promise you I'll never leave you. You'll never be alone again."
Lois looked up her eyes red ringed from crying "how can you promise that Clark."
He looked down at the woman in his arms. "Because I love you Lois."
Her expression turned to one of shock "you what" she whispered at last.
"I love you Lois Lane." As if to prove he lent down and captured her lips in a short tender kiss. "So" he said when he was finished "anything to say."
"I love you too Smallville" she said eventually before reaching up to kiss him again.
At that moment Clark woke up. Taking a moment to smack his head against the side of the couch he rolled over and went back to sleep.
He managed to spend the next several days avoiding Lois only seeing her when absolutely necessary and spending the rest of the time with Chloe. However one morning he awoke to the realisation that today was the day of the Talon Talent show and Lois had said she would be there. That afternoon he picked up his guitar and the edited song words and left for the Talon. When he got there he was surprised to find not only Chloe, Jimmy and Lois there but Oliver as well. "Hey Ollie" Clark said in surprise "what are you doing here."
Ollie smiled "Lois told me about it and it seemed like such a good idea that I thought I'd come along. I also donated a large sum of money to the Paediatrics Unit. "
Clark shook his head as he took his seat "of course you would have" he muttered.
The show was a good one and caused the group of friends to laugh a lot. Eventually the announcer stood up. "Next on the list is Mr Clark Kent. Come on up Clark."
"Clark" Lois said "I didn't know you were signed up for this."
Clark walked past her and said nothing pausing only to accept a good luck squeeze from Chloe. Settling himself in the chair on the stage he put his words on the provided stand before picking up his guitar. "Today" he said "I will be singing a personalised version of Teardrops on my Guitar by Taylor Swift" he paused and looked towards Lois "I would like to dedicate this song to a certain someone. By the end of it she will know who she is and I hope she will have learned something." Then plucking at his guitar he began to sing.
She looks at me, I fake a smile so she won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet he's beautiful, that boy she talks about
And he's got everything that I have to live without
She talks to me, I laugh cause it's just so funny
That I can't even see anyone when she's with me
She says she's so in love, she's finally got it right,
I wonder if she knows she's all I think about at night
She's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
She's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
She walks by me, can she tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
He'd better hold her tight, give her all his love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know he's lucky cause
She's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
She's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put her picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight
She's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
She's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
She's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And she's all that I need to fall into..
She looks at me; I fake a smile so she won't see.
Then ignoring the cheers of the crowd he took one last look at Lois happy in Oliver's embrace before getting off the stage and leaving the building the tears forming in his eyes.
She looks at me; I fake a smile so she won't see.
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