RATING: pg-14
AUTHOR: Tajma Cameron
TIMELINE: four years after the Fall of LA
PAIRINGS: Buffy/Angel
SPOILER: Buffy Comic Spoilers season 2-3
SYNOPSIS: Buffy is trying to find fulfillment in her life when two of her ex's show up {spike and Angel} she tries to find out if angel is what she's been missing when a secret that could destroy everything she hoped to gain comes out can she pull her shatter life together before it's to late to save the one and only man she every really loved
AUTHOR NOTES: I got the idea for this story from Possessions, the Buffy comics.
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Buffy sat in the chair in the hospital room in Ireland it was so small cramped uncomfortable but who was she to disserve comfort after what she had done she stared at the hospital bed taking the hand of her first love wondering how she got here she knew but it was way to horrible to think about be if she did she would realize that if was because of her that he was her fighting for his life… yes his life. The only problem was she didn't know who was fighting she stood . How did she get here I'll tell you.

1 Months Earlier
Buffy woke up form her slumber she couldn't sleep that slayer sense was tingling in the back of her neck something was about to happen something big she knew it she was so absorbed with everything going on around her she barely had time to think she had lost herself again she knew she tried so hard not to but it was easier that way t cope with the everyday but she knew her secret would be out soon but she had no clue how much of her life it might destroy. She felt too slender yet strong arms wrap around her the person said "stop brooding baby and come back to bed" she looked into her raven haired companions eyes and saw what her life had come to and in this moment she couldn't think to care. As she kissed the beauties lips they head back to bed for another round of fruitless sex at least for her anyway. Yes this is what it had come to but instead of a man she hated it was a friend a confidant she had gained in resent years it was… another woman.

Buffy went to lunch the next day with her friend Willow and fellow slayer Sarin Satsu they were walking to the table Satsu Brushed her hand over Buffy she swallowed hard looking at her the woman smiled she knew the rules she had know them for the past four years no one can know and no forms public affection especially around her friends she was alright with that but she loved to tease she was like faith in that way. They sat and Willow said "Giles got info from England there's some serous demon out break in Ireland"

Buffy inquired "Ireland really were"

Willow said "small town near Dublin"

Buffy got nervous "where"

Willow said "he hasn't got a name but it's it right outside of Galway"

Buffy swallowed head only the place that her first love was born and died and was reborn again she said "oh"

Willow informed her "he was you and Sastu to leave by the end of the week… Scoop it out and well all meet you there Monday"

Sastu had felt Buffy tens she had been rubbing her leg the whole time Buffy looked at her with a small smile and hoped willow didn't notice she knew they would hav t talk about it later.

that night they sat in Buffy room and Satsu ran her fingers through her hair and said "tell me"

Buffy had he head on her shoulder and she said "well it started…" she told her the whole Buffy and Angel story she just neglected to tell her that angel was a vampire "last time I saw him was the final battle in Sunnydale and he was would there about fifteen minutes we left each other with fruitless promise that we might get out happy ending but"

Sastu said "you stopped believing that you would"

Buffy said "oh no… I don't I don't know"

She smiled "I see he met a lot to you, you know what… to show you there's nothing to be afraid of why don't we visit Galway while were out there nice vacation"

Buffy said "I don't… I don't know"

She urged "there is nothing to be afraid of "

Buffy smiled Satsu kissed her forehead and they went to bed she would leave before the dawn as to not be seen by the others leaving Buffy's room this is how it went with them no one need know.

They packed and left that Friday Buffy felt more at ease with her there but she still felt that feeling on the back of her neck something big was about to happen if she only knew just what.

They got off the plane went to the hotel had lunch and just talked a piece of Buffy knew she did love Satsu, but not like Angel. No one like Angel, she had degreed. Angel was the highest and Riley landed between Spike and Satsu. Spike was the end of it but she shared that love of her as friend she didn't want to see her get hurt but she knew in the end she would.

Satsu commented "well it's only too the real baddies don't come out till after dark so… why don't we spend the day in Galway, it's a small ton and we can talk eat have dinner have fun"

Buffy said "I really don't know"

Satsu said "come on that way you can put your fear behind you at least for a little while"

Buffy smiled "okay"

They left the car they had rented at the hotel took the train over and walked around the small town Satsu had brought a camera and was taking pictures they had a market they stopped for bread and deserts they brought a basket of food Satsu wanted them to have dinner on the balcony at the hotel it would be great it was about a hour before sun down and they got a little turned around as to how to get back to the trolley car to go back over to Dublin Sastu said "wait I'll just ask some body some one here has to know" Buffy's arms were full of food so she agreed she looked away as her friend went to fin some stopped the first main she saw.

Buffy was looking around when she got that familiar tingle in the back of her neck not the were in danger tingle this tingle was only brought on by one particular vampire but it couldn't be the sun was still high in the sky she looked around under the brim of her straw hat and saw mostly towns people she looked for her friend head a little ways up and saw her talking to a guy that was shadowed by a cart but not that much she walked closer to see that she wasn't seeing anything and there he was Angel was explain to Satsu how to get back to Dublin and what train.

Buffy walked up to them and said in breathy I don't believe my eyes tone while looking him up and down at the same time "Angel?"

He looked over his sunglass that mad him look that much more sexy "Buffy?"

Satsu looked confused "This is him"

This is where my story begins

Buffy was ignoring her and trying to keep the oxygen around her brain so she didn't pass out she was failing he said "Nice to see you again" he smiled and that the last thing she remembered before blacking out.