Pain, Sorrow, Hate
Things I feel everyday
All alone with no one to stand by
And keep you strong
And all people could ask…
"What's wrong?"
I think to myself
I'm miserable to bone!
I cry so much even the Nile couldn't compare in depth
I lay wide awake trying to soothe my aching heart
But instead I watch before my eyes
My life fall apart
On those fate fill nights of 04 and 05
All I wanted to was run
Cry and hide
But the problem was …
I couldn't, not no more
I stood there oblivious to the scene
I stood there as if it was a joke
As if I'd wake up to a bad dream
The first time I cried
Cried a lot
The second time I just stood their and watched
That day everything went
My life, heart, mind, soul, even my tears went
"HA"
But how would you know that?
I smile in your face telling you I'm ok
While if you look in my eyes
I mean truly look into my eyes
You'll find a citadel of hate
Anger, Pain
Thrust back in the mind
To consume my fears, my tears
Frustration, Irritation
My biggest fear
I wake up to eyes stinging of tears I could not shed
My fear is not the death of my life
But to succumb to fears
To be consumed by my tears
For if I let it out its cage
I'd be the great flood
The second ice age is its mother
Global warming its twin
No one can stop its refuge
And so I made this promise
I shall never shed another tear
And this you must hear
While hate, anger, and depression
Consume me from inside
I shall always smile
No longer hide
For I shall cry no more