Title: Werewolf Heart Trauma

Rating: T

Pairing: Kenzi/Dyson

Summary: While waiting for Lauren to show up and tell him if he actually killed Kenzi or something with her face, Dyson tries to cope with what he may have done and comes to realize the true depth of his feelings for the human female.

Disclaimer: I do not own anyone or anything from Lost Girl!

AN: This is my first ever Lost Girl story and so I beg of you to be gentle with your reviews, if you review at all, since I have not seen all of the episodes and this is my first time writing the characters. This was just a drabble testing the waters of this fandom.

I killed her. I hadn't meant to hurt her, but somewhere during our struggle I had forgotten she was human, if she was actually Kenzi that is, and being human made her weak. I wasn't in control of my strength at the time, focused solely on getting my gun from her fingers. When her neck snapped and she stopped moving, I froze. A part of me wanted this to be some sort of horrible nightmare. I would wake up and the real Kenzi would be in my livingroom playing that game where she killed robot hookers. I would attempt to make a joke and we'd laugh before I offered to buy her pizza.

After a few seconds when I didn't wake up, I knew this was not a nightmare no matter how much I wanted it to be. The lifeless body was still in my arms and it hadn't changed in to a different form. If this was some sort of Fae masquerading as Kenzi then why wasn't it changing back? All shape shifting Fae I had ever met in the past would take their original form once they had been defeated and yet it wasn't happening this time around. Did that mean I really had killed my human friend? How would I ever explain it to myself let alone to Bo? She would never be able to forgive me for this and I doubt that Hale or Trick would either. Kenzi was, she was a part of our family now no matter if her blood said otherwise.

If it had been any other human, I would have found a way to deal with it, but the girl in my arms was special and never been just another human. She was funny, smart, resourceful, and a number of other words I couldn't come up with right now due to my state of mind. At first when I met her, I thought of Kenzi like all the other human's out there, but she quickly changed my opinion of her. I think the first time I came to see that she was something special was when she accidently ate the foot soup. By all rights she should have died and she came close, but the fighting spirit she was known for had kicked in full force and saved her life. Even near death Kenzi was a bright spot for those around her, and that cannot have been easy with blood leaking from her eyes because truthful, even as a werewolf I had been a little freaked out when I saw that for the first time.

The next time I realized how amazing the little human was had to be when we had switched bodies. Her physical form was so weak and fragile and having been a part of the Fae world for as long as she had without meeting a gruesome death was a feat all on its own. Then to top it all off, she had gotten my love back. Even I had been unable to get my love back yet little Kenz pulled it off. A weak human she may be physically, but in every other sense of the word she had to be the strongest person I knew. I am not sure where I would be without her in my life. Kenzi was a part of me in ways I could not explain.

I have to admit that when she first came on to me I was tempted and I think that is part of the reason I reacted so harshly. Werewolves were supposed to mate for life and I shouldn't have been tempted in the first place and yet I was. What did that mean? Did it mean anything at all? Would I be able to figure it out or had I ended her life before I had a chance to figure everything out? A tear actually leaked down my cheek at the thought of having lost her. When I had been with Bo I never really felt this way. Perhaps I had been wrong and my real mate was Kenzi only I did not want to see it at the time because she was human. Oh god, I may have killed her. I may have killed my mate and there was nothing I could do to take that back. Hopefully Lauren would arrive soon and tell me that it wasn't her. Then I could find the real Kenzi and figure this all out. She couldn't be dead, not before I had the chance to tell her that I loved her.

The end!