Redepmtion, a twilight fanfic

AN: I wrote this a couple of months ago, and just never got around to posting it. So here it is. And for those of you who are wondering 'bout Hope is out there, I'm just procrastinating. I have the Second Chapter ready, I just don't feel like posting. –shrugs- whatever. (Starts off as song)

Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven't missed you yet

Every roommate kept awake
By every sigh and scream we make
All the feelings that I get
But I still don't miss you yet

Only when I stop to think about it

I hate everything about you
Why do I love you?
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you?

Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven't missed you yet

Only when I stop to think about it

I hate everything about you
Why do I love you?
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you?

Only when I stop to think about you
I know
Only when you stop to think about me
Do you know?

I hate everything about you
Why do I love you?
You hate everything about me
Why do you love me?

I hate
You hate
I hate
You love me

I hate everything about you
Why do I love you?

After we finished our song the audience erupted in applause. I glanced back at Emmett on the drums. Some times I worried about his drums, he was so fucking strong he might just break them one day. I looked to my left to see Jasper wipe off his face on his shirt. I looked to my right and saw what I always saw from Garrett. Skank Searching. Or, I guess, you could call it looking for a decent groupie to hook up with.

I took a chance and looked in front row. Once again her seat was empty. I suppressed a sigh. Alice kept telling me she would try to convince Bella to show up. But did she ever? No.

Shit. Shit. Shit. Guess who was in front row? Tanya. Shit.

Tanya was the best example for a world class bitch. Little did she know that I Hate Everything About You was about her.

We started our next song. Only two more it's the special one made…

My eyes are open wide
And by the way, I made it
Through the day
I watched the world outside
By the way, I'm leaving out
Today

I just saw Hayley's comet
She waved
Said why you always running
In place?
Even the man in the
Moon disappeared
Somewhere in the
Stratosphere

Tell my mother,
Tell my father
I've done the best I can
To make them realize
This is my life
I hope they understand
I'm not angry, I'm just saying...
Sometimes goodbye
Is a second chance

Please don't cry
One tear for me
I'm not afraid of
What I have to say
This is my one and
Only voice
So listen close, it's
Only for today

I just saw Hayley's comet
She waved
Said why you always running
In place?
Even the man in the
Moon disappeared
Somewhere in the
Stratosphere

Tell my mother,
Tell my father
I've done the best I can
To make them realize
This is my life
I hope they understand
I'm not angry, I'm just saying...
Sometimes goodbye
Is a second chance

Here's my chance
This is my chance

Tell my mother,
Tell my father
I've done the best I can
To make them realize
This is my life
I hope they understand
I'm not angry, I'm just saying...
Sometimes goodbye
Is a second chance

Sometimes goodbye
Is a second chance

One more song. Just one more, and if she's not here, it'll be for nothing.

I scan the crowd, just hoping she'll be there.

Nothing. But I do see Alice. She looks up at me and shakes her head.

Fuck. She'll never know.

Fuck. Fuck. Fuckity Fuck-Fuck.

Sigh, We'll just play it after this one and it'll be done.

And even the last song would have been obvious to her. So obvious. I'd told so many things that were in that song.

Well time for the next song.

If you only knew
I'm hanging by a thread
The web I spin for you
If you only knew
I'd sacrifice my beating
Heart before I lose you
I still hold onto the letters
You returned
I swear I've lived and learned

It's 4:03 and I can't sleep
Without you next to me I
Toss and turn like the sea
If I drown tonight, bring me
Back to life
Breathe your breath in me
The only thing that I still believe
In is you, if you only knew

If you only knew
How many times I counted
All the words that went wrong
If you only knew
How I refuse to let you go,
Even when you're gone
I don't regret any days I
Spent, nights we shared,
Or letters that I sent

If you only knew
I still hold onto the letters
You returned
You help me live and learn

Just as we start the beginning of the next, and last song.

I see Bella. She's next to Alice, who is beaming.

I smile widely as I realize, that she came. She finally came. Came to see me play.

Ok Edward, time to play, I mentally chided myself.

Oh what the hell she said
I just can't win for losing
And she lays back down
Man there's so many times
I don't know what I'm doing
Like I don't know now

By the light of the moon
She rubs her eyes
Says it's funny how the night
Can make you blind
I can just imagine
And I don't know what I'm supposed to do
But if she feels bad then i do too
So I let her be

And she says oh
I can't take no more
Her tears like diamonds on the floor
And her diamonds bring me down
Cause I can't help her now
She's down in it
She tried her best but now she can't win it
Hard to see them on the ground
Her diamonds falling down

She sits down and stares into the distance
And it takes all night
And i know i could break her concentration
But it don't feel right

By the light of the moon
She rubs her eyes
Sits down on the bed and starts to cry
And there's something less about her
And I don't know what I'm supposed to do
So I sit down and I cry too
And don't let her see

She shuts out the night
Tries to close her eyes
If she can find daylight
She'll be alright
She'll be alright
Just not tonight

I look down at her, and see her diamonds falling from her eyes. But these diamonds are ones of happiness.

I smile to myself, soon I'm going to put a real diamond on her finger.

I know I've redeemed myself in her eyes, if only for tonight…