I don't know why I don't like guys, okay? Why do you watch the Kardashians? Exactly.
Jade's too...Jade, but Cat's just perfect; I know it. She's bouncy and eccentric, like she has the world's largest generator plugged into every part of her tiny body. She's sweet and untainted, and being the 'flawless' child has its strains on me, invisible as they may be to you. Sometimes you need that electric energy she has, that infectious happiness that she can make bubble through your veins until you turn giddy with same look on your face that she has on hers. Jade has that sinster, dark beauty, but Cat has that look that makes her just glow. She can make you believe everything's ok with one smile, one look with those big brown eyes because she's just that innocent.
I threw a birthday party for Cat at my house once. It was the same kind of party you'd throw for a kid under ten, all bright streamers with cheesy kazoos, but she loved it away. We all yelled surprise (well Jade kinda just stood there) and she squealed with her hands clapping. I had already known I was gay, but when Cat ran up and hugged me with a peck on the cheek it was nothing I'd ever felt before. The unexpected kiss was the main shock, I mean, everyone knows Cat a huggy kind of person. Her lips barely laid on my skin for a second, but that was all it took for me to freeze like the Ice Age had just hit.
I remember stuttering out I had to go upstairs and Cat telling me to hurry back. I looked in the reflective surface of a vase on the cabinet in hallway and Cat's cherry red lipstick marked my cheek like a brand.
"Don't tell me a little peck has you head over heels, Vega." I jump back violently, almost colliding with Jade, her black clothed arms crossed over her chest. I try to form words through my shock, but nothing comes out. "I know Cat likes you, and it's obvious you like her. Girls don't fawn over each other all class peroid because they like each other's clothes."
When I still can't turn my incoherent syallabes into words, Jade just rolls her eyes and stomps back down the wooden stairs.
Boy, was I in for a ride that night. I've never been really that thankful for Jade; she can be mean and hurtful, but I still tried to reach out to her sometimes, because I see the snapping teeth and sharp nails are nothing more than defensive. That night...if Jade and I weren't rivals of sorts I'd kiss her a million times to repay her for that night. When the party was over Cat told me she wanted to stay. I let her.
Jade closed the door behind her with a wink that didn't understand the meaning of until later on.
"Tori?" Cat's voice was tentative, like she was afraid I'd yell if she spoke too loud.
"Yeah?" I tossed some empty plastic cups in the trash, then realized that Cat was in front of me, close enough for me to see her dialated pupils. I try hard not to make my swallow noticeable when she takes my hand and her other one feathers down my arm.
"Jade told me something." She still looks innocent, and now she's fucking seducing me.
"Wh-," I gulp down the lump in my throat. "What did she tell you?" At least I can be sure it's not a bad thing judging by how this is going. One time when I was absent Jade told Sikowitz I had syphillis.
"She told me you liked me."
And I'm sure you can guess how the rest went down. A heated night of tangling limbs, hotness and sweatiness. With the living room still a colorful mess, Cat and I rested comfortably on my soft bed, naked and molded together like two lost puzzle pieces. My eyes began to close slowly when the girl I had just made love to decided to speak.
"Hey, Tori?" Yup, still innocent sounding, even without her virginity.
"Mmhm?"
"I bought you a mustache ring."