TW: Suicide attempts

Takes place after season 3 finale

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I'm Sorry

Emma turns from Regina, the full impact of what she has done still being absorbed.

"I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry Regina, I didn't know who she was" repeating the words over and over while in her head Regina's words are so loud, echoing and rebounding back. It feels like sledge hammers pounding against her brain from the inside out.

Knees buckling, grabbing a nearby table for support, suddenly nauseous a new thought emerges- I may as well have ripped her heart out, there is NO forgiveness for this

Realizing Regina has understandably left Granny's, Emma looks to the table where her parents are gazing fondly at Henry holding Neal. I have to get Henry to Regina. She should NOT be alone. Why didn't anyone notice that Regina left? How much time has passed? Did no one see what awful thing I did? Does no one see Hood and Marian? Never mind, get Henry to Regina!

Moving towards their table, Emma is intercepted by Hook.

"I distinctly remember telling you to leave that woman to her fate, love."

"Killian, now is not the time for 'I told you so'" Emma growls out, pushing past.

"Hey, kid. How about we head over to Regina's? Give Mom and Dad some alone time with Neal? Maybe we can see them again tomorrow after school." Surprisingly, her voice does not give away any of the inner turmoil.

"Oh! You are both leaving so soon? Why don't you come for dinner tomorrow?" Snow asks while taking Neal back from Henry.

"Yeah, maybe. Let me see what Regina has planned for Henry and I'll get back to you." Emma replies, bending over to kiss Neal goodbye.

"Okay, lets go kid" jingling her keys, Emma heads to the door with Henry following.

Neither say anything until they are in the Bug.

"Emma, what is going on? You know I don't have school tomorrow and Mom is not expecting me tonight."

"I accidentally really hurt Regina, Henry. I have done a terrible thing and I am sure she will not see or talk to me but she should not be alone right now. I need you to spend some time with her, ok?" Telling even this little bit aloud, Emma feels tears start to fall.

"What did you do? Never mind, you won't tell me. Do you want me to try to talk Mom into talking to you?"

"No, kid. As a matter of fact, I don't want you talking about me at all."

Starting up the Bug, they make the short drive in silence.

Parking outside the mansion, Henry is surprised when Emma gets out as well.

"You coming in?"

"No, I don't think that would be a good idea. I just wanted to give you a hug, that's all." Arms still wrapped around Henry, Emma murmurs "I will keep away for a few days, so don't worry about me. Take care of your Mom. You know I love you more than everything, right?"

"Yeah, Ma. I know. Now lemme go already"

Getting back in the Bug, Emma watches Henry walk up to the door and go inside.

Ok, she's not alone. No way will she turn Henry away. Time to head back to our room at Granny's.

Back in the room at Granny's Emma takes off her boots, flops on the bed with a pen and a pad of paper.

"Umm, Mom? Can I ask you something?" Henry asks between mouthfuls of apple pancakes.

"Yes, dear. But please wipe the excess syrup off your mouth before you do."

"I don't want to upset you, but have you heard from Emma? It's been over a week."

"What do you mean? Has she not been texting or calling you?" Both eyebrows raised in surprise then lowered quickly.

"No. when she dropped me off, she said she would stay away. I guess that meant no calls or texts. I don't want to make you madder, but I am getting worried that something is wrong." Shy puppy dog eyes look up.

"I am not mad, Henry."

"Moom, come on, you won't even say her name. Or Ms. Swan. Or the Sheriff. Emma said…." The clatter of Henry's fork hitting against the plate as he clamps one hand over his mouth startles them both.

"I was furious, but not anymore. I assumed you had been receiving calls. Please tell me what was said, dear."

"Well, she said she hurt you on accident. That it was a terrible thing. That you should not be alone, I was supposed to take care of you. And she was crying. Then when she dropped me off, she hugged me for a really long time and said that she loved me more than everything." The longer Henry spoke, the quieter his voice became, and tears pooled in his eyes. "So why hasn't she called?"

"Oh, Emma" Regina sighed, coming around the kitchen table to hug Henry. "I don't know, dear, but I will try to find out."

Regina first calls Snow.

"Yes, hello Snow. Have you heard from you daughter lately?" Keep it short, be civil.

"Regina? No, not since they went camping. Is something wrong? Has Henry not called you?"

"And who might 'they' be, dear?" insufferable woman

"Emma and Henry, of course. Who else?"

"Did the one handed pirate go with them?" it's like pulling teeth, how on earth does she teach?

"Hook? No, he left town a week ago. Regina, is everything alright?"

"Yes, dear. Everything is fine. I am sorry, I have to take another call. Good day." thank the gods that is over with