This is dedicated to the one I'm not complete without. I luv ya babe, u know who you are.
Disclaimer: I don't own a single detail of degrassi
The lights flickered off and I was left in the darkness. I sat alone with just the sound of my heart beating and the rain striking the windows. Nights like these use to make me miss him. The digits on the clock flash 12:00 over and over. The clock may be frozen but time races by. Though it was over a year ago, I can still remember it clearly.
"Damnit Ellie, it was just one bottle, calm the fuck down." Sean slurred.
"I can't calm down" I hollered back. "This is why I moved in with you, remember, to get away from all-"
"Ellie" Sean started, cutting me off, "Why don't you take a small sip to calm your nerves.
Sean staggered and the bottle crashed to the floor. I sighed and bent down to clean up the glass, I looked up but the only trace left of him was the door slamming shut. This was the fifth day that week he'd come home drunk. What was the point in moving here, if I had to deal with the same shit. The drizzle outside had turned ito a storm. I slipped into my jacket and walked out the door. If I didn't find Sean soon, there would be more than broken glass.
I ran down the steps and started walking. He wasn't in the park. Could Sean really care for me anymore. He was to focused on reaching the bottom of the bottle then locking the door at night. The lights flickered off at the Dot. Reminds me of when I saw Marco sipping drinks with Hazel, Jimmy, and Paige. Marco had left me in the dark, after he came out ti Degrassi. I acted like his girlfriend for a year and now I'm just some picture in his scrapbook. A bolt of lightning luminates the local cemetary. Craig did the same thing to Ashley, he used her and left her. No wonder him and Sean became friends, they have so much in common after all. As I was walking pass the ravine I heard his voice. Figures, he was probably drinking some more. I moved a branch out of my face, and followed where his voice was coming from. I saw him laughing at something. I called out to him but my voice we silence by the thunger overhead. I cleared some more leaves and vines out of the way. That's when I noticed he wasn't alone. My heart skipped a beat. He was with Emma Nelson. I tried to hold back my tears. He ran his hands through her soaking wet hair. She caressed his neck and playfully slipped her tongue through his lips.
The tears escaped and rolled down my cheek. Then it hit me. I wasn't jealous of her, I was jealous of him. I wanted to be the one holding her, I wanted her to cling to me the way she was clinging to him, I wasn't crying these tears for Sean, I was dying inside because he had what I couldn't. Maybe one day my dream would come true. Maybe one day it would be me and Emma. Maybe one day it would be me, not Sean, with her, us, kissing in the rain.
A/N: Sorry if that sucked, consider it a stepping stone for the rest of the story.