EH: So, another fanfic in process. I've fallen head over heels in love with the sounds of Apocolyptica and especially the song S.O.S. (Anything but Love). So here is a fanfic based off of this darkly haunting song.

Before I get this going, there are a few WARNINGS. Such as, A. this is going to be rated M for a REASON; B. this is going to be DARK and rather angsty; C. there will be Non-Consentual sex (aka rape) and quite possibly character death. The last bit hasn't been quite figured out yet seeing as how all my fanfics tend to take on a life of their own. I'm not sure how quick I'll be able to post or write. So it may take a while to post, then again it may take no time at all. Just keep watching.

So, I suppose you've been warned. If you are young and innocent, this is not for you kiddies. If you are old enough to understand and/or absolutely not innocent mentally or physically, go right on ahead. Without further adieu...

Bound to Your Side
Prologue

Another heated glare greeted Allen as he walked away from the now fill garbage from his lunch waste. Allen glanced over toward the person the glare was emanating from to be met with the cool, dark eyes that belonged to Kanda. The young exorcist was very put-out by this and glared back. Whipping his eyes away from Kanda's gaze, Allen stormed forward. Once in the hallway, his brave façade faded to a dull aching in the center of his chest. It would always be beyond him to know how to fix whatever it was that he'd done to cause Kanda such hatred toward him.

A glance at his red arm caused the dull ache in Allen's chest to throb. How could one so cursed be able to disassociate himself from his problem? He heaved a heavy sigh and dragged himself the rest of the way through the hallways to his room. Once inside, he allowed his now tired body to flop on the mattress of his bed. He rolled over onto his back and draped an arm over his eyes. Unfortunately, sleep didn't come to his poor mind. Ghostly images of people he'd seen die, his 'father' Mana, all the souls he had not been able to save, his role in this world, the Noah, the Earl, but worst of all Kanda's face haunted his plagued mind above all else. Allen groaned and rolled onto his side hugging himself. He glared at the bricks of the wall facing him. It wasn't anything new to feel this way. He'd really gotten used to feeling rotten whenever Kanda looked at him. How could he blame the Japanese man? Wouldn't he do the same if he were in his shoes? It was a miracle that the other exorcist didn't kill him yet. Not that he hadn't tried it yet…

A persistent knock sounded from Allen's door. He grunted and stood up, making his way to the door. He composed himself and plastered on his fake happy face to open the door. Lavi stared back at the half-dead looking exorcist.

"Oi, Allen-kun…are you doing okay?" Lavi asked, automatically feeling Allen's forehead.

Allen just waved his hand, "Yeah! Fine as always! What did you need?"

"Mission. You and I gotta go on a stupid errand run." The older man shrugged and tossed his red hair out of his eyes with a head toss. "Something about Jerry needing more blueberries or something…"

Allen's smile turned into a deadpan expression. "Blueberries? Just…blueberries?"

"Yup!"

"…all right then. Not that it isn't random enough, oh well. Let's go." Allen reached into his room and grabbed his jacket and threw it on.

Lavi walked beside Allen with his hands crossed behind his head. Both men kept walking along the corridors until they reached the doorway to Komui's office. They paused before opening the doors and entering the chaotic office. Komui was sipping coffee and actually working for once. Allen approached the sloppy desk of paperwork, coffee stains, and cigarette ash from Reever's bad habit. Komui slowly looked up and offered a very tired smile.

"Thanks guys for running to get the two hundred pounds of blueberries for Jerry. I'm too swamped to send anyone here." Komui yawned and sat back in his desk. His back protested the movement by allowing everyone to know by loudly popping.

"Two hundred pounds!" Allen proclaimed in shock. Who in their right mind would need—then again, Jerry was cooking for several hundreds of people. He shook his head in dismay and nodded to Komui. "Where do we need to go?"

"Here…" Komui slipped them a piece of paper with a horribly drawn map. Both men looked at it but neither had the heart to tell Komui they couldn't find the back side of a donkey with this drawing.

"Okiedokie! We'll be back as soon as we figure out this ma---" Lavi grunted in pain as Allen's elbow met his ribcage.

"As soon as we get the berries." Allen corrected and smiled at the very exhausted oldest Lee sibling. He guided Lavi out of the office and steered him toward the cafeteria.

"Oi! Why'd you do that!" Lavi whined, rubbing his ribcage. "And where're we goin''?"

Allen sighed, exasperated already. "Couldn't you see how tired Komui-san was? We're going to the cafeteria to get a better drawing from Jerry."

"Yeah, he seems pretty tired." Lavi agreed as they entered the cafeteria and reached Jerry.

After getting a semi-proper, easier to read (though not by much) copy of a map from Jerry they headed out. It took them a little while to finally find the store that had the stock of berries for Jerry. They paid for them with the money Jerry gave them, and loaded a cart they also had to buy. Lavi and Allen pushed the cart all the way back to headquarters. By the time they both reached headquarters, the sun was setting over the horizon. Both Lavi and Allen had collapsed on the steps, panting and sweating. Allen looked past his feet at the ominous cart and pulled himself up.

"Well, they aren't going to move themselves."

"Meanin' we gotta get up." Lavi slowly pulled himself up to stare at the cart himself. "Remind me again why'd we agree to this?"

Allen shrugged and moved to his feet. He and Lavi somehow managed to maneuver the cart up the stairs and inside. After a good fifteen minutes after getting it inside, they arrived in the kitchen with it and pushed it into the storing fridge.

"Oh! How marvelous! Thank you again!" Jerry clapped over-exuberantly. "And tomorrow, I'll be sure to wake you both up suuuuuper early to get the very first muffins for payment!"

Lavi stared at Jerry. His visible eye twitched and his mouth opened to say something. Allen clapped his hand over Lavi's mouth and smiles politely at Jerry. "Thank you, Jerry for such kindness! But you really don't have to go to such lengths. Really. We'll be just fine with whatever you have."

Jerry pouted at him but seemed to take that answer and returned to the dinner rush. Allen dragged Lavi out of the kitchen. He let the redhead go.

"Why'd you do that?" Lavi rubbed his mouth.

"Jerry's being nice. Or…whatever he can think of as nice to pay us back." Allen's stomach growled loudly. "Let's just relax and eat some dinner?"

Lavi grinned and nodded. "Sounds like a plan!"

Allen hopped in line only to instantly regret it. He knew that black pony tail anywhere. Just as Allen was about to back up, Lavi knocked into him just enough to plant his nose into Kanda's back. Allen felt the rays of penetrating doom rain down upon him as the back sudden was gone and he was faced with gleaming metal and pissed off eyes. Upon seeing Allen, Kanda's eyes seemed to darken even more with unknown depths of hatred. If there was a way to back up, Allen would have loved to have found it.

"Oi. Moyashi. Watch it." Kanda grunted in irritation.

Allen grew frustrated with that nickname he hated so much. "Maybe if you called by my name, I would listen more often."

"Baka usagi. Watch your runt more closely. Wouldn't want him to get all sliced up would you?"

"Heh. Yuu-chan, what put ya in such a bad mood huh?" Lavi rubbed the back of his head with that teasing smirk on his face.

Allen went to retort when Kanda cut him off. "Tch. Keep watch over the midget would you? And never call me that name again."

Again, Allen was cut off, but by Lavi. "What name, Yuu-chan? And wouldn't it be nice if 'mommy' watched the kids for once?" Lavi just grinned as Kanda's face turned red.

Allen had it. It was enough. He couldn't stand having people talk about him like he wasn't there. He was hungry, tired, and now sore from all his work earlier. Allen Walker did something very out of character. He turned and slammed a fist into both Kanda and Lavi's faces before storming from the cafeteria without food.

Kanda recovered quicker than Lavi and spewed a few curses heatedly under his breath in Japanese while Lavi blinked and then turned to stare after Allen.

"Well that was off. Don'tcha think, Yuu-chan?"

"I said not to call me by that name." Mugen was already being unsheathed yet again.

Lavi wrapped his arms behind his head. "Awwww, come on, Yuu. But really, don'tcha think that was a little too odd for Allen-kun?"

"Tch. Like I care." Kanda turned and moved forward in the line and ordered his dinner of soba before exiting the cafeteria to take his food to his room for once.

Lavi sighed and shook his head trying to figure out when he had become the last masculine male in their little group of exorcists.

Allen sulked on his bed. He tucked his knees under his chin and hugged them to his chest. Tincampy slowly floated over and sat next to him on his bed and rubbed against Allen's side. Allen ignored the small golem. His head was overflowing with emotions he couldn't understand and wasn't sure he wanted to understand. Since when did he become so damn sensitive to the stupidest and slightest things? With a growl, he threw himself backwards to lie down. He immediately regretted that decision as his head smashed into the wall. The small exorcist instantly became a human ball. He grabbed his pain and whimpered in pain. He saw stars blur over his eyes for a few seconds before clearing up. His vision remained slightly blurred from the tears that gathered in his eyes. Allen rolled to the side and put his feet on the floor. He staggered his way to the small bathroom he had adjoined to his room and looked for any red liquid in his head of white hair. He saw none, luckily enough, but still felt a little dizzy. He slid to the floor and waited for the dizziness to subside. After a good five minutes, the dizziness had worn off and left pain in its wake. Allen stared at his sink for a good long while. He didn't even notice time passing until his clock tolled quietly in his main room letting him know it was midnight.

He looked out into his main room and felt his stomach gurgle in protest to being unfed for so long. Allen didn't have the patience to leave his room and go find food. Nor did he want to incur the wrath of Jerry for digging into his food supply. Unsure what to do, he pulled himself up from the floor and wandered into his main room.

Just as he reached his bed, he heard his door open and shut. Allen stopped and turned to greet whoever had entered and instead was met with sudden darkness as the light shut off. A cold sweat broke out over Allen's skin. For some reason, he couldn't fight the fear that immobilized him where he stood. There were only a handful of people who could get into his room. So he couldn't exactly attack them. Besides what if it was only a power outage or something? All thoughts stilled when the sound of a boot moving forward filled the silence.

EH: So, first chapter definitely not all that dark or angsty. Next chapter will definitely be darker and well, the reason for the M. Please forgive any spelling errors or grammatical errors seeing as how I have no Beta to go over my chapters.

If you have any questions on what certain Japanese words mean, go ahead and ask through the comments and I'll post it in the beginning or end of the next chapter. Please comment or give me suggestions. I can't improve without feedback. Flame is not so kindly accepted, but constructive criticism is more than welcome. Thank you all for reading.

Sincerely, Erika Hearken.