"Another case closed" Beckett though to her self

She had just finished working on a case with Castle. A young boy had been shot in his own room. It was a pretty easy case to solve though since the neighbours had heard the gun shot, they had found the gun under the parents bed with their prints all over it and the door man new that the parents where home at the time so it all lead back to the parents. Beckett was doing the paper work while Castle sat beside her playing with things that were on her desk and eating all of her skittles.

"You know you are going to have to buy me a bag of skittles now, Castle" she said sounding irritated by Castle childish actions. But she didn't mind having him there. He was pushing her buttons but it was something distracted from her hard work and in a strange way it relaxed her.

Castle looked up at her and gave her a look and went back to playing with the toys.

"Ah, this chair is like sitting on a block of cerement that has prickles on it"

"What do you expect me to do? I have to go to the ladies room so whatever you do, do NOT play with my chair." Beckett said with a very stern look. But that look just made Castle what to do the opposite of what she said. Castle loved pushing Beckett's buttons. He seemed to be the only one to get away with it. Castle quickly jumped onto Beckett's chair and started to spin around on it like he was five years old.

Beckett can around the corner not even noticing the child playing with her seat until she got closer to her desk.

"Get out of my seat, Castle" she said surprising him.

"But my seat sucks! Have you ever tried siting on a milk cart for a day because that's what it feels like?"

"Well, where do you expect me to sit, Castle, as I am the detective here and I worked for that seat".

"I was thinking we could share" he says with a grin

She couldn't be bothered to fight back and since she was there so late there was nobody else in the precinct.

"Fine but it's only because I am refusing to seat on that chair and there is no one else here" she replied, but Beckett had always dreamt of being close to Castle. Whenever castle would past her a coffee and their fingers would touch she would always get goose bumps and start to blush.

She sat there on top of Castles lap and started to finish the paper work. Just as she was about to finish, Castle raps his arms around her.

He had no idea what came over him. Just sitting there smelling her cherry scented body and her body against his must have taken over his scenes.

Beckett jumped at first but then she placed her hands on top of his. She laced her fingers in between his. They match perfectly. It felt so right to be siting, there just sitting there.

"You are so beautiful, Kate" the sound of his voice made her blush. Leaned back into him unsure what was about to happen or what to say. She stayed quiet. Castle turned his head so that it was facing her neck and gave her a quick kiss on her neck. His arms went down her legs and then back up.

"What are you doing Rick" she quickly jumped out of her chair. She wanted him so much but she was going out with Josh. She couldn't do that to him.

"You know I am going out with Josh, and you know that I love him"

"Kate, why did you that" Castle shouted but realising how loud he was started to blush.

"Do what?"

"You know exactly what, Kate. You were flirting and playing along but when I take it up a bit, you get up me. This is both of us not just me" Castle said in his defence. He was so confused. He liked playing games but Beckett was more of a person who didn't play properly.

"Since when was I flirting, and if I was you started it. You know I love Josh. How could you put me under that pressure?"

"You never had to start flirting back, Kate. You could have told me to stop beforehand, but you didn't. Which means you should really start questioning your love for Josh. It's not fair on him if you are just using him to have a reason not to let your true feels out." Castle stood closer to beckett.

"I'm just tired ok" Beckett couldn't think up a better excuse. It was too late

"Of course you are. That is your excuse for everything. We get stuck in a freezer and almost die, but you're too tired to talk about it. We kiss and you're too tired to talk about it. How am I meant to know how you feel about us if you are always too tired to talk about?" Castle said frustrated. He looked in to Beckett's eyes and had to stop. She was starting to cry.

Castle had never seen Beckett cry like this before. He had seen her cry when she was close to finding her mother's killer but never like this.

"How could you say that, Castle? Maybe it's hard to bring it up when you're always make jokes. How often do we have a serious conversation" before she started to cry even more than she was Beckett ran to the elevator and was gone in a flash.

Castle soon left after her think about their fight. Maybe Kate was right. Maybe he did joke around too much.

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Next day

"hey Espo, where's Beckett" castle entered the precinct to notice that she was not there yet, which was strange as she was always the first one there case or paperwork.

"Know idea, bro. did something happen with you to last night" Esposito ask curiously

"No, where did you get that idea from" he said hoping that they hadn't found out about the disagreement the night before.

"I don't know, just that Beckett normally calls me before she leaves to come to work and she hasn't today"

Just at that moment the captain stuck his head out the door.

"Espo, no Beckett today, she is sick"

"Ok then boss" Espo replied

"Well I guess there is no need for me her than. Tell Ryan I said hi" Castle replied

"Dude, please tell me you're not going to Beckett's house"

"No bro, Alexis is home today so I thought I would spend it with her" he hated lying to his friend but Beckett was his priority.

….

Last night

Beckett was trying to find a place to go in times like this she didn't want to go home because it was the first place Castle would go. She couldn't go to joshes as he would ask what was wrong and she wasn't able to take another fight, and her dad was on a holiday so it looked like she had to stay at Lanie's.

She knocks on the door and waits for her to answer the door.

"Beckett is ever thing ok" Lanie says when she sees her best friend with red puffy eyes. She could easily tell that she had been crying her eyes out.

"Yeah can I stay the night? I will explain everything"

"Sure, babe"

Once Beckett had gotten bed ready she went and sat on the couch next to Lanie.

"Do you want to talk about it" Lanie asked trying to comfort her friend "Or do you want to just sit here, eat ice-cream and cry."

Beckett showed a smile.

"I was sitting at my desk and castle is complaining about his seat. I get up to go to the toilet and when I come back he has taken my seat. He offered to let me seat on him I was tired so I did. He them puts arms around me"

"Girl he likes you. Why don't you just admit it" Lanie interrupts

"I haven't finished yet" replies Kate.

"Oh, it gets juicer" Lanie says with a smile

"Anyway I lace my fingers with his"

"About time, but you are going out with Josh you can't do that"

"Hang on. I haven't finished yet. He then says I'm beautiful and kisses my neck. I get up and start saying that he shouldn't do that because I'm going out with Josh"

"Girl, do you know anything about boys and dating. When you lace fingers it is basically telling them that you like them. So I'm not ganging up on you, but we were leading him on".

"Really. I'm going to get some sleep. Thanks so much Lanie." Beckett said with a confused look on her face. She had no idea what she had just done. Did she just get up Castle for something she did.

…. that morning

"Hey Lanie, thanks for that talk last night and everything you have done".

"That's fine. Anytime" the half asleep M.E said giving her bestie a hug. "are you going to work today"

"Most probably not. I am going to ring Montgomery later." Kate packed up her belongs and left the house going back to her own hoping not to run into Castle.

Kate arrived at her apartment and stood at her door. Everything seemed to be the same but she got a weird feel that something was different. Like something was out of place. She looked down at the ground and realised that there was no newspaper on the floor. Normally this wouldn't bother her but she was trying to think of anything but Castle. She open her door, walked in and closed her door behind her. She turned to put her jacket on the hook but something caught her eye.

"Hi Kate" Beckett knew that voice. She could have been able to pick out from a crowd of people. She turned her head to see the ruggedly handsome man in front of her holding her newspaper.

"Castle, what are you doing here?"

"we need to talk and we can't be tired because you just woke up and if you are there is a coffee on the table." He replied. The thought of Castle making her coffee everyday gave her a warm feeling inside.

"about what Castle?"

"Please don't do this Kate. I know I have feelings for you and I know you feel something or else you wouldn't have put up with me for so long last night" castle look deep in to her eye. He grab her hands and lead her onto the couch.

"kate, I have fallin for you and I don't know what I would do without you."

"castle, I had feelings for you but you started going out with Gina. How was I supposed to know that you liked me if you were going out with different women every month?" kate said as brave as she could.

"kate, I love you and I need to know if you love me too." There was a long pause until the silence was broken by Kate

" I love you castle, but I love josh."

"I see you have made up your mind then ."castle had started to get tears in his eye.

"I guess I should be going." Beckett saw castle starting to tear up and it made herself feel bad. She didn't like seeing castle anything but happy. Castle pick up his things and left the building.

….

Castle arrived home and flopped himself on the couch. He took out his laptop and tried to right more of his book but it reminded him to much of Beckett. Alexis came around the corner and saw her dad. She had never seen her dad so upset in her life. She quickly went out and into the kitchen and made him some pancakes.

"Hey dad, hope your hungry cause I made you some pancakes." She said with a smile. Castles face lit up straight away. Her smiling face always made Castle happy no matter what was happening.

"Thanks Alexis" he gave her a smile

"Dad, are you ok"

"Yeah, just a bit confused"

"You know you can talk to me dad"

"I know, but this time I just need to think"

"Fine but I'm not going to let you sit here in your pyjamas and mope around

They sat in Castles office talking about colleges and new book and anything they could think of.

…

That night Beckett couldn't sleep. She looked at the green numbers on her alarm clock. It read 1:59. She constantly looked at her phone. She didn't know if she should ring or how she should ring. Castle speech on his love for her had made her feel dizzy. She knew that she had feelings for the writer but she didn't know exactly what they meant either. She loved Josh and didn't want to break up with him just because she had feels for Castle. She was starting to get tired and she went to sleep as she knew that she was going to have a busy day.

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