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A totaly not very original idea I had, a kind of letter Regulus Black could write to his big brother before his last mission...

It's not super happy so ... hum... don't cry please ?

hey ! It is exaclty 500 words :D

The world of Harry Potter belongs to JK Rowling, the writing is all mine ^^

Sirius,

I'm scared.

Since a long time, I realized.

I was walking in the muggle London a few days ago. Everything seemed perfect at that time, I had a huge place to live, a place I belonged to. I made Mother pride and sooner or later I would have been married, as our cousins did. Yes, somehow, my life was perfect.

However, there I was, in the wrong London, wrong place, surrounded by wrong people. Wandering alone. Thinking about a brother I had, and who did choices that torn us apart though he never regretted these choices. Because he always had knew what he was fighting, for what he was fighting. A brother who had found his real family. And what did the choices I believed would keep my family bounded had given ? Death and loneliness.

Maybe that was why I suddenly was there, far from a crowd where I was to ashamed of myself to stay. I supposed my subconscious had brought me here because I couldn't remember my legs bringing in the only place that accord with my thoughts. A cemetery. A place to go with what I brought with me everywhere, death and loneliness. It felt like there was no one, no noise, a place out of time and out of life.

A big grave made me stop on my way to apparate out of this sickening place. A huge and dark stone, square and tasteless. My eyes where caught by the words sleeping on the rocky facade. It seemed like I had awaken them and they jumped unglrily at me.

"Life consumes us bit by bit, bone by bone. And when there is nothing left but the soul, the Death eats it."

My whole body stiffened. My stomach felt oddly small and stony. "The Death eats it". The Deatheaters. The price is our life, our soul included.

Am I losing my only soul? I thought.

That was the moment I fell on the ground, a bit closer to those I was already meeting. Because what kind of human was I, not dying, not really giving my life to the time, but tough losing my soul. No. Not losing. Giving up my soul!

I went back home bot standing it anymore, the place I was suppose to belong to. But I knew from then, it was there that were the wrong home, wrong place, wrong people. Lonely again, even in this other crowd. I realized something I should have before. Long before.

I was and am scared. It changed everything. Because for once, for one time I know what is right and will follow you, I will be your brother, I will make you proud. His last mission will be a success. For you, for your friends that did the right choice at the right moment.

I won't walk without knowing where I am going anymore.

A star has set up and guides me.

Your star.

Sirius, will you shine just once for me ?