Disclaimer: I don't own G.U. or any related characters. I also don't own the song "Forever Yours" by Nightwish.

Warning: Angst, and it is suggested that you listen to the song before, after, or during this story.

Pairing: Implied one-sided HasEn, past Kite x Elk x Mia (yush, it's a threesome) mentions (very very very slight)

Rating: T for dark themes

Blade: I have to wonder what possessed me to write some angst tonight…

Haseo: …I have to wonder whether or not to kill you now. :)

Blade: …

When Haseo reached out to me, it felt like my life had finally gained meaning again. I felt my heart starting to mend again. Yet…I knew that, even though I would come to love him, I knew that he might never love me the same way. It…hurt, a lot, but I had come to accept that pain. I…I had learned to let go, thanks to Haseo. I learned that letting go was the best way to convey love to someone.

So…I let go of Mia. I let go of my love of Kite. I…finally accepted their deaths. And…I…let go of Haseo. I wanted him to be happy. If that meant being with someone else, then…then I would be okay with that. I would accept his decision. If it didn't work out…I would be there for him. I…would be his silent support.

After spending time with him, I found that Haseo…was perfect. I loved him deeply. Everything about him was enchanting in my eyes. My soul seemed to long to unify with his, but I kept it to myself. I didn't want him to leave me alone…not again. I…didn't think that I could handle the pain again.

I loved only Haseo. I couldn't bring myself to love anybody else. It hurt others, but…that was who I was. I didn't want to change for their sakes. If Haseo had asked…I would change, but only for him. He…was the only one for me. Haseo was my last chance at love and life. If he didn't reciprocate my feelings…then that would be fine by me. So long as Haseo lived, I would live, too.

Merely being with him was not enough anymore. I had found that…I loved Haseo too much. Yet I kept it hidden within me. Those feelings were like a beast that needed to be caged, if only to protect the people outside the cage.

I wouldn't give up trying to win his heart, but I was going about it in a subtle way. Yes, I loudly proclaimed my love to Haseo, but underneath the current I was trying to help heal him. I could see his pain, his grief, and his guilt over the Lost Ones. It was bordering on obsession and I had planned to put a stop to it. Obsessions such as his…would only lead to destruction of the self. I understood that thanks to Haseo.

This ability to know how others were feeling…was the last gift Mia could give me. As The Temptress, she would need to know the emotions of others. It was natural for her to have granted me the ability to see into the hearts of others.

Suddenly, I felt that Haseo no longer needed me. After everything was said and done in the Third Network Crisis, he no longer needed my support. To his eyes, I was only the best friend, someone he could count on. It hurt, coming to this conclusion…much more than it should. Yet…I knew that it would come down to that. I knew that my place was to be in his shadow, to heal him when he got hurt. I…was destined to be alone.

Once, Haseo had sent me an email. He had noticed something off about me. He…asked if everything was all right. All I did was tell him…one thing, one thing that held so much meaning for me.

I told him that…I was fine. And…that…I was…"forever yours."