Just a drabble of what I think Ukitake could write about in his diary

Ownership of Bleach and all the characters involved in this belong to Tite Kubo

~Cimorene~

"Are we ever going to be excepted for just being us?" I thought as I layed awake just looking at him. Just looking at Shunsui, who I have known since the very first day of the academy who is a perpetual skirt chaser. Who may not look it is actually incredibly smart. Who is completely broken on the inside. Who I truly love with all my heart.

You who's been my lover since the academy who knows me inside and out, who understands me. "Are we, as a couple, ever going to be fully recognized as the couple we are?"

We want people to know about us but it's taboo. The people who know do not speak of it. The people we want to know can't because it would compromise things in the work station and in normal life.

We who have to pretend to laugh when people make fun of couples like us who hate people like us.

I who has to act like it doesn't effect me when Shunsui flirts with girls teases them acts like they're all that matter in the world. And even though I know I will forever be his one and only I still need to be comforted at night when I think about it when I see it I need to go collect my thoughts.

I will love him forever and always with all his flaws and insecurities and he will do the same even through my illness that always has the potential to kill me at any time. That could kill him. He still loves me.

Yet we are not allowed to love openly. We can only show are love in the muted quiet at night under cherry blossoms, mumbled across wet pillows, in the quiet brushes of hands when passing a tea cup during our break hours during the day that are always spent together.

We who are known as the best and longest friends in this place who have stayed together through thick and thin, as it should be. But they never truly know how hard it has been to stay together both as friends and lovers. Students and teachers. Captains and associates.

I pretend to not notice the way girls look at me and the way they make advances towards me, and the way I can't like them like that. How I've only ever really loved one person only ever truly been with one person.

I never wander so I can show him how much he means to me has always meant to me. I've never even truly been with a woman. I tried, it would never work, because its always Shunsui it will always be Shunsui.

Forever and always

All my love, Jushiro

Taken from the personal diary of Captain Jushiro Ukitake

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