Hi there, it's me again. Yes, I haven't been on for a while, and sorry about that. Here's a new fanfic to show my sorryness. :P
April 23
I went out with Jace and Isabelle today. It was nice, we went to the mall and Isabelle tried to sack him in the balls repeatedly after he called her fat. She isn't fat, she's got curves and everything. She looks good in everything too. Creepy. Anyway, I got Jace to get new jeans, since his old ones were wearing out completely. He kissed me when we got home and my mom caught us, and apparently I'm grounded for that. Whatever, kissing Jace was worth it.
Gotta run,
~Clary.
April 28
Jace is missing. I don't know where he went and why, but I'm afraid for him. Sebastian's out there, and if Jace runs into him… I know it won't be good. I don't know what I'm going to do, since everyone's telling me to back off and calm down. How am I supposed to calm down? The last time I saw him was a few days ago, when we went to the mall. I haven't seen him since. I know he's strong and I know he's going to be okay. Maybe he just needs a break from the Institute. Maybe a break from me?
Why would he need a break from me?
~Clary
May 2
We can't find him. Magnus has been trying to track him, and we can't find him anywhere. I thought maybe Jace would come back after a few days, but I guess he's gone. I miss him like crazy, and I've been crying in his room for the past few days without anyone noticing except for Alec, and he said he wouldn't tell. I hate crying. I hate it more than the fact that Jace might have left us for good. Why would he do that? Why would he leave me?
I thought he loved me.
~Clary
May 25
Alec says he might know where Jace is. He says that Magnus was tracking, and he got something out of it. Izzy, Alec, Magnus, and a few other Shadowhunters are going out to the place where Magnus tracked and they're going to try to find him. I wasn't allowed to go. I screamed at them to let me go with them, but they said that I wasn't trained well enough. I know they just want me to stay because they think I'm going to drag them down.
I'll always be just another mundane to them, won't I?
~Clary
May 28
Jace is back! They found him. They actually found him. Alec says that Jace was lying on the ground in a pool of his own blood, and he was shivering like he was in the North Pole with just boxers on. Jace woke up a few minutes ago, and he isn't talking or making eye contact. I'm scared, because he started sobbing into his pillow when Maryes mentioned Sebastian. I thought Jace was unbreakable.
I guess I was wrong.
~Clary
June 1
Jace is completely gone. He doesn't look at anyone, he doesn't respond, he doesn't even acknowledge my presence. Maryes says that Sebastian had Jace for the time he was missing, and that Jace had been tortured nonstop for one month. I'm going to hunt down Sebastian and kill him. He doesn't deserve to live. I think death is too good for him. I want to capture the bastard and torture him for a month, see how he likes it. Knowing him, he would probably like it. Why does this have to happen to us, Jace?
Why does this have to happen to me?
~Clary
June 14
We've been barely making progress. Everyone's given up, since Jace fights everyone until he passes out, but I'm not ready to give up. I know Jace remembers me. I really know he does. Today, I went into his room, and he was lying on his bed, staring at the wall with a blank expression. I sat down on the ground beside his bed, talking to him. Usually, he just stares right through me, like he can't see me. But when I was talking to him, he looked at me for a split second. Really looked at me. I know he did. Isabelle says I was imagining it, but I know I wasn't. Imagination just isn't affordable right now.
I'm hoping for you, Jace.
I'm hoping for us.
~Clary
June 26
Jace didn't fight me today. I was spoon feeding him, because he won't eat anything. Whenever I try to give him something to eat or drink, he just shakes his head and shouts until I back off. But he didn't do that today. I got a few spoonful's of whatever into his mouth before he started shaking again, and I had to stop. But something else happened, too. Jace fell asleep when I was talking to him, and he started whimpering like he was facing his greatest fear. I shook him awake, and he started crying. He cried for hours, hiding inside his blankets. He has a high fever, and I know he feels cold but I can't give him blankets. I don't know what to do.
My heart's shattering into a million little pieces.
~Clary
June 28
I can't believe it. I'm crying tears right now because I'm so happy. Jace said something today. He said my name. I was sitting by his bed, talking silently to him, making sure he was okay, giving him some water to drink. In the midst of it, Jace's eyes closed and I thought he had fallen asleep. I got up to leave, but he mumbled something. I turned around to look at him, and he was staring at me with wide eyes, looking terrified. He said my name then. I just stared at him like the heaven's had opened. He said my name again, "Clary", and I went to him. I fell asleep beside him, holding my tears back. I know we can do this, Jace. I know I said it before, but I really believe it now.
We'll get through this together, Jace.
~Clary
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