Ok the summary is that its been a couple months after Ultemicia's death and Seifer has been aloud to join back at the Garden but Seifer has second thoughts and then those thoughts lead to thoughts about death. Seifer doesn't think he deserves to live, will it take a certain tattooed blonde to remind him that he does deserve to live? Z/S!!!! don't we all just love that pairing?? I do!
Seifer's Pov
I busted threw the halls to my dorm. Canadets giving me hated looks and I just cant deal with it!
I slip my key card into its slot and the doors opened. I hurried inside and closed the doors. My room is very dark so I turn the night stand light on.
It lights the room some what. I throw my books onto the small desk in the room and go into the bathroom turning that light on too. I look like complete shit.
I need a hair cut, I'm beginning to look like Lionheart wouldn't want that now would we?
I go off to the kitchen and get a knife looking at its sharp deadly edge. I swallow hard and go back to the bath room.
"This is for the best… nobody wants you around, hell you don't even want to be around Almasy!" I keep telling myself that over and over thinking it would sooth me but doesn't seem to work.
Taking a deep breath I slide the blade easily over my flesh and it cuts it like butter. Seconds later blood starts dripping over. I stare at it in amazement, to see my blood dripping over my wrist.
"The other one!" I screamed at myself and I quickly switched hands with the knife now shaking like a leaf I quickly cut the other one and bit my bottom lip against screaming out. It hurts like hell itself.
Everything becomes slightly fuzzy then comes back into view then goes fuzzy again. I swallow hard and stand up only to some how end up on my knees in a little pool of my own blood.
Images come into my head. Lionheart, Irvine, Selphie, Quistis, even that bitch Rinoa invades my thoughts but the one face that I thought would never ever see is chicken wusses. His shining electrical blue eyes.
That's the last thing I remember before everything went black, Zell.
Zell's Pov
Sighing heavily I went to Squall's office, he was now head master and had just called us all down there. As in all I meant Irvine, Quistis, Selphie, Rinoa, me and oh ya Seifer.
I grinned at that thought then scowled at myself. 'Stop it Dincht! He is NOT interesting I repeat he is NOT interested!' I keep telling myself that but cant seem to stop from having dreams about him, and oh yes they are good dreams.
I walk into Squalls office to see everyone there of course everyone but Seifer. Stupid ass, he's always late for Everything.
I plopped down into a chair after giving Squall a semi salute.
After about 15 minutes of total silence and waiting for the big ass to arrive everyone either got worried or ticked. Besides Squall who had that 'I-could-care-less- look' on his face.
"Would someone please go and get him." Squall said rubbing his temples. I hopped up and ran out of the office to the elevator then decided it was taking to long so I took the emergency stairs and ran to Seifer's dorm having a bad feeling in the pit of my stomach. I learned never to doubt my instincts, they were usually right or around it.
I knocked on Seifer's door lightly then as the seconds turned into minutes I knocked more hard.
"Seifer! Get your ass out here!" I told him trying to sound ticked but inside I was worried. I tried the door buy of course it wasn't opening. I growled at the door and typed in a code that opened all doors.
I had stumbled upon it when accidentally going threw Squall's folders. What?! I got bored.
The door opened and I walked inside and a wave of nausea hit me the same time the smell of blood did. The door closed behind me as my eyes adjusted to the dimly lit room.
"Seifer?" I asked out loud letting my voice crack. I walked to the bathroom and my eyes went wide with what I saw. I stumbled to him going down to my knees. I felt for a pulse and there was one.
I shot up blood all over my pants but I didn't care. I rushed off to the infirmary. When I got there I looked around for the Doc and found her at her desk.
"Doc! Seifer-and-bathroom-hurt!" Was about all I got out before running back to his dorm the doc right behind me.
She rushed past me when we reached his room and went to the bathroom where I pointed.
That's about the time I couldn't handle it and passed out.
When I woke up I looked around and found myself in my bed. I jumped up and looked around, yep this was my dorm room all right. Sighing I laid back down and then closed my eyes and saw Seifer on the floor blood all around him.
I shot back up looking around again. Seifer!
I ran to the infirmary and saw the whole gang there. Selphie was being held by Quistis. Selphie was crying and Quistis looked like she wanted to cry. Squall was pacing looking even paler then his usual self mumbling crap to himself. Irvine had his hat pulled down in front of his face and his left leg was bobbing up and down nervously. Rinoa was sitting there just staring off into space.
"What-" That's about the time my voice cracked and they all looked at me. I think that's the first time any of them noticed I was in the room.
"Zell, tell me what did you see?" Squall asked walking over to me and standing closer then I felt comfortable with him standing. I shook my head and cleared my throat a couple times.
"Seifer was in his bathroom with blood all around him… he was really pale… felt very cold-" My voice cracked again and I noticed I was crying. Selphie jumped up and ran into my arms crying into my shirt. I cried into her hair my shoulders shaking.
What would happen now? Was Seifer dead or alive? Someone please tell me he is going to be ok!
Ok that's it for now enless people review! Oh ya flames with be laughed at because I learned its easier to laugh then to get upset about them! R&R please!!!!