"W-We need to talk..."
I wasn't afraid or scare. Deep inside, my heart and will was burning inside of me, encouraging me to tell him how I felt. I was finally brave enough to tell him everything I always wanted. Deep down, I felt strong. However, I didn't dare myself to look him in the eyes. My cheeks were slightly burning red. My hands were both cold and sweaty as I constantly clenched them. I looked like a coward in front him.
"What is it, Mattie?" he said with a bright smile. That beautiful and wonderful smile that made me do crazy things for him. That smile that made me weak to my knees and stutter my words and lose my voice when I was around him. I loved and hated that smile.
I shifted my feet, always looking down at the ground and constantly tucking my long, wavy blond hair behind my ear.
" I shouldn't invited him to meet me behind the school…" I thought to myself.
I consciously shook my head and took a deep breath. I needed to tell how I felt. I slowly looked up to see he was still smiling at me with those pearly, white teeth. I quickly looked back down at the ground.
"Alfred, I..." I began to speak.
He patiently waited for my answer, slightly tilting his head.
"..I think," I continued "I think we should..."
"Hmm?" he asked, looking at me with a small smile. He wasn't say anything afterwards, patiently waiting for my answer.
"I think we should..."
"Yea?"
"I...we should..." I swallowed really hard. I could feel my eyes burning a bit from the tears. I quickly wipe them off, hoping Alfred didn't notice.
"I think we should break up..." I whispered slowly.
I didn't look up, I knew his smile was gone and I hated seeing his face without a smile.
"Y-You're breaking up with me..." he stuttered a bit. He nervously chuckled. "But, am I not a nice guy? I mean, I thought I was. Am I not good enough for you?"
"Al, you're really nice and all but...I'm just not feeling it anymore...we ca-"
"NOT FEELING IT ANYMORE? What the fuck is that supposed to mean!?" he raised his voice. I was startled from the sudden aggression and I finally looked up at him.
"Al, we can still be friends! I don't hate you, I just don't want to-"
"After all I've done for you, you're breaking up with me? Dude, seriously...I honestly thought you were the one.. We were going to move to Canada and get marry! Don't you remember that? Don't you want that? It was our dream to be together-"
"It wasn't OUR dream; it was yours, all yours!" I interrupted him. "That was all about you, I never wanted any of that! Al, I liked you, I wasn't in love you nor did I want your adoptive babies! Your whole illusion was driving me insane, I just wanted-"
"You wanted what, Matthew? What is it that you lied to me all this time, this whole year we've been together, is that it?"
I clenched my fingers. I couldn't fucking believe he was blaming ME for all of this. HE was the one who wanted that. HE was the one who plan all of that without my thoughts and feelings about it. HE was the one who was misleading himself into this mess. Not me!
"You..," I began to tear up, "You never listen-"
"You have no idea how much you just hurt me." Alfred interrupted, shaking his head.
"For fuck's sake, LISTEN TO ME!" I broke out, crying.
Fuck, I promised myself I won't cry!
"You never listen to me, you never tried to. You never stop and think if I was alright with all of that. You NEVER understood how I felt. You NEVER, EVER thought about me and my thoughts and my feelings!"
Tears rolled down my cheeks as I stared at him with fury. Alfred just stood there, quietly. He didn't react to what I said. He looked at me with hurt eyes.
"I guess I never did."
My eyes widen as Alfred turned around and walked away. I stood there, staring at his back until he was out of sight. My crying stopped and I wiped my nose with my red sleeves.
"I guess you never did care..." I said quietly as I walked to home by myself, thinking about what just happened.
A/N: Hello and thank you for reading this fanfiction. This chapter is really short but I promise you the future chapters will be longer. Future chapters will explain the plot and also hold many flashbacks. If there's still confusion, please inbox me or leave a review. Thank you.