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Summary: Blaine doesn't care if he has to take things slow with Kurt. He loves him enough to wait as long as it takes. Is just sometimes his body seemed to move by itself and not listen to his mind when he tells it to stop…

Warnings: English is not my first language, so please forgive me for any mistakes. Also, see the rating? It's M for a reason. Be sure to be comfortable with it, especially for later chapters.

"We should probably stop…" said Kurt panting a bit, face nervous. Blaine just smiled as supportively as he could a nodded. Of course he'd stop if Kurt asked him to. They haven't been together even a month, and he knew Kurt was new to all of this. The kisses, the touches, the embraces… he had been guarding himself for too long to just be comfortable with it this soon. Blaine knew. He had expected it from the beginning.

But it was damn hard to keep calm when he was with Kurt. He just… he couldn't stop himself. The way Kurt spoke softly when they were alone, the ways his eyes shined with a knowing smile because they were together and it was just perfect. The way he was always ready when Blaine tried to kiss him off guard, the way he would shyly part his lips when Blaine deepened the kiss… it was all too much for him. And he would find himself desperate for more, but trying to go easy because he didn't want to scare Kurt away. Kurt trusted him. Even when Blaine had screwed up in the past, Kurt still trusted him. He wasn't about to break that.

So he just laid back on the coach in the deserted Common Room in Dalton's Academy, taking Kurt's hand in his and caressing it. Kurt had a small smile on his lips, like he was still going through the small make out session they were just shearing, and Blaine just closed his eyed and rested his head, humming to himself. Life was fucking perfect.

When he opened his eyes again, Kurt was looking at him, unreadable expression in his face… he seemed somewhat nervous.

"What is it?" Asked Blaine, frowning a bit.

"Do you mind if I ask you something? Something personal?" Asked Kurt. Blaine raised an eyebrow.

"Kurt, you're my boyfriend. You can ask me anything you want."

"Even if it's personal?"

"Anything." Assured Blaine.

"Ok…" Kurt hesitated a bit. "I just wanted to know… Umm… I gathered from what you've told me… you're not a virgin…" said Kurt awkwardly. It wasn't a question.

"Err… no, I'm not" said Blaine a bit confused but expectant. It wouldn't bother Kurt that he wasn't, right?

"I… I guess that boyfriend you told me about? Mathew, wasn't it?" Blaine nodded. "He was the first." Stated Kurt, and Blaine nodded again. "Was he the only one?" he asked finally, and Blaine understood finally what he was getting into.

Well, it was fine with him, really. If Blaine knew all about Kurt's past relationships (never mind they were just a fake girlfriend, a one-sided crush and an unwanted kiss), Kurt should know all about his. Is not like there was much anyways…

"No, not quite…" Blaine answered. Kurt looked at him expectantly and Blaine sighed. Ok, so he had to elaborate. "There was Mathew of course… he was my first. He was a senior when I came in freshman year here to Dalton. It was really nice 'cause he helped me through the whole 'accepting myself' thing… he heard me sing one day and insisted I join the Warblers… I own that to him, you know? Since the Warblers became my family..." Kurt was looking at him with a small smile. Blaine guessed he could relate to that. "But then he graduated and left for College in San Francisco, and we both decided to end it up. We still talk a bit… he comments my Facebook every time something about a Warbler performance comes up. He was a big fan." Finished Blaine. Really, he had to be thankful for having such a good first boyfriend.

"That's really nice" said Kurt, and Blaine could see he meant it too. "So… who was the other? Or was it more than one?" Blaine looked at him uncertainly. It was one thing to talk about a proper boyfriend, but something completely different to talk about… flings. Blaine wasn't too proud of those, but he wasn't going to lie.

"There was this boy at a party the next year… I was kind of drunk and… yeah…" said Blaine lamely. Kurt face didn't show a lot, so he couldn't tell if it bothered him or not. It probably did. "I think his name was Sean. Maybe. But yeah… don't remember much of it. It's wasn't really a big deal, but it made me uncomfortable for days afterwards, so I guess it made me learn I wasn't one for one-night stands."

He expected Kurt to say something, but the boy just bit his own lip, like he was thinking hard about it. Should he had lied? Tell him it was only Mathew? But he preferred Kurt knowing all about him. Accepting him with the good and bad, just as Blaine did with him.

"Yeah, it doesn't sound much like you, having one-night stands." Was Kurt's response several seconds later. Even if it was guarded, Blaine felt relieved. He wasn't mad or anything…

"Yeah, never did that again. I mean… I hope Rachel doesn't count…" Which probably wasn't a good topic to bring up. Kurt cringed a bit. Yep, definitely not a good topic at all.

"So that's it?" Kurt asked. And Blaine just had to make a face, because he could hear in Kurt's voice that he hoped that was it.

"Hmm… I dated Freddy, a neighbor, for a couple of weeks, but then he decided he wasn't gay anymore, so yeah… hurt a bit." Kurt looked at him with understanding eyes. "It didn't go that far with him, though. Then… well, I did hook up with a couple of guys in some party or another, but it was just that… I mean, just having fun, right? And then…" Blaine hesitated and blushed a bit, and just like that Kurt's face was all serious, as if waiting for bad news. But it wasn't like he'd done something wrong… "then there was Keanu. He was the last one".

Kurt raised an eyebrow. "Keanu? Like Keanu Reeves?"

"That's the same thing I said when he told me his name" said Blaine, and he had to smile at the memory. "Turns out Keanu is a really popular name in Hawaii. Specially after Keanu Reeves." The mood was a bit lighter with that, and Blaine just hoped Kurt would drop the whole subject.

"And… do I want to know about Keanu?" Asked Kurt uncertainly. Damn, luck was not on his side.

"It wasn't such a big deal. Just kind of… a fling, when I went to Hawaii with my parents last summer. It was fun, but, you know, just the summer." Said Blaine looking a bit to the floor.

"So why are you embarrassed?" Asked Kurt a bit dryly. "Was it a one-night stand?"

"No… it wasn't like that" said Blaine defensibly. "But it didn't last long either, 'cause I was there just nine days. So I can't quite say it was a relationship, but… yeah, we spent a lot of time together."

And by 'spending time' Blaine meant 'had sex'. Not that he had to say it bluntly to Kurt. Actually, better if his boyfriend hadn't got that one…

Kurt looked at him for several minutes, making Blaine wonder if the conversation was over. "I take it you weren't playing chess?" He asked finally, and Blaine just had to blush. How could he tell his boyfriend that it had being like, the hottest affair ever (nothing compared with what he shared with Kurt, of course, but still…) and that after the third night in Hawaii he had sheared Keanu's bed every day? And night. Several times.

"Kurt… it seriously wasn't such a big deal. We were both single and well… just had a good time. We both knew it was just a couple of days, and… it sort of happened, you know?" He couldn't tell if what he said was helping or not. Would Kurt be upset because he slept with someone he barely knew? Or because he thought Blaine may have developed feelings since he hesitated to talk about it?

Truth was he wasn't sorry at all for that summer fling. It had been a blur of lust and fun and touches and hot and Blaine had learned more in those five days he spent with Keanu than in all his past experiences. He was confident he was a good lover ever since and damn it, he panted at the very idea of what he could do to Kurt thanks to it. What he could do with him. How he could make him feel, if Kurt ever let him…

Stop it, this is not the time to think about that.

"You're not mad about it, are you?" Asked Blaine after he saw Kurt was too deep in thought to say anything.

Kurt sighed and massaged his own temples before answering in a tired voice. "I can't be mad at something you did before I even met you. That would be pretty irrational, wouldn't it?" He said, and Blaine smiled relieved, even if he could see Kurt was not completely comfortable with the whole thing. Blaine wasn't either, but this kind of questions would have come up eventually.

"I love you now, just so you remember…" said Blaine in a soft voice. Kurt smiled a little at that, and Blaine gained more confidence. "I don't know if you could say I have a lot of experience… probably not. But none of them have made me feel the way I feel with you. So… it's a bit like a first time foe me too, you know? I feel butterflies in my stomach every single time we kiss, and feel so giddy and lightheaded about it you would think I'm some 13 year old girl dealing with her first crush." By the end of his little speech Kurt was fully smiling, and the awkwardness was all gone, thank god.

"Aren't you a charmer" said Kurt trying to be reprimanding and failing. He took Blaine's hand back in his own, looking at them while he entangled their fingers. "Sorry about that… I just couldn't stop wondering and… I had to ask." He looked a bit embarrassed too.

"It's ok, I said you could ask anything." Said Blaine, comfortable on being back to safe waters. "Besides, I really want us to be completely open with each other. What with communication being the most important thing in a relationship and all."

"Yeah… thanks for telling me. Hope I didn't make you uncomfortable" Said Kurt, looking more relaxed.

"Well, you kind of did, so I fully expect compensation… a kiss would be in order."

Kurt smiled widely, and leaned into him, closing his eyes. Blaine kept his open a little longer so he could watch him before their lips met. He just loved the way Kurt's face relaxed when expecting a kiss, eyes closed, like he trusted him with everything he was. It made Blaine feel all kinds of powerful.

A/N: Sorry if it doesn't show where this story is going yet. I do have a plot, I promise. Please review if you like.