When they ask me, or rather when he asks me, tomorrow why I am so mellow, so drawn from the society here at camp, I won't have an answer. They, he, won't know the reason for my sudden change. Honestly, I blame it on him. Why? Because he made me feel like shit without even knowing it. He said those words and should have known that's not what you tell a girl. He didn't even get a taste of my heart fully, and he broke it, he murdered it with a shiny golden sword, he made me feel a taste of heart break, though I've never experienced a boyfriend/girlfriend relationship in my short life.
"Hi, I'm Jason, What's your name?" who would ever guess that the new kid would be considered a best friend by me in less than four months?
"Piper, welcome to camp. I'm sure you'll find it to be a home away from home. I know I do." Who knew that, that sincere smile on my face I directed towards him would become a frown today, a grimance at his very name, a stab at my own heart.
Hell it's not even his fault, though I won't admit it to myself. Really it's mine for getting so close. Why didn't I keep my distance like I did when I first got caught a glimps of him from afar. I shouldn't have started to hang with him; constantly battling with him for practice, eating with him even if we are from different godly parents.
I should not have helped him break up with his girlfriend. Then it didn't even seem like I had any personal motive or gain, but know…I don't know. After the break up we were closer, I don't know how it happened. Before it was just a regular friendship because we had the same love for a show, but after it was a great friendship… a best friend. Then came today…
We were just walking around the strawberry fields when he said the unthinkable.
"…they were asking me if I had an eye for anyone, crazy since I just broke up with HER. They kept asking who she is. They then asked if it was piper I like," looking at me as if the idea was crazy, "I said uggghhh, Pipes is my best friend." At this he smiled.
My best reaction was…"weird"… I kept my eyes down, how could I look him in the eye after something like that? I started thinking…Why do others say I'm pretty, beautiful, gorgeous…and he says ugh to the thought of dating me? I guess I really am ugly even if he says I'm beautiful when I criticize myself of how ugly I truly must be.
Oh well…No one but me will know of this anyways…Who would even care?
NO ONE
AN. I own nothing.