The rain came down hard on the lodging house windows, it was freezing, and I only had one thin blanket to keep me warm. I got up, with the blanked wrapped around me and walked into the boy's bunkroom to go snuggle with my brother knight. As I walked into their bunk room I could hear loud snores, heavy breathing, and them tossing and turning in there sleep. I had to strain my eyes to see which one was Knight's bunk. I came to the one I was sure was his, but just to make sure, I bent down to get a good look at his face. I could see his hair was covering most of his eyes, as it always did, his mouth was slightly open and I could hear him breathing softly. I walked around to the other side of his bed and lifted the cover and gently laid down, trying not to wake him. But I did. He turned over to face me.
"Hey." He whispered in a emotionless tone.
"I was cold." I whispered back.
"Ya so was I." again in the same tone. He hardly ever showed his feelings, he didn't like to. So most of time he was emotionless. I asked why he doesn't like to show his emotions, on time and he said, 'It only lets people know you're weak'. Even though Knight is my little brother he always seems like my older brother, he's smarter then me in a lot of ways, and he is also looks older then me, he usually tells me what to do and I usually listen. And most of the time he is right. "Goodnight." He said, as he turned back over.
"'night." It wasn't to long before I heard his soft breathing again. I couldn't fall asleep I just kept thinking about the boy sleeping on the top bunk....Racetrack..... The only people who know I like him, is Knight and my best friend Blaze. But I guess anybody could figure out that I like him on account I'm always staring at him from far away, or when he talks to me I look directly into his eyes, and I never disagree with anything he says (even if it goes against everything I believe in) and if there's a fight ill always take his side.
He and Knight are best friends so I'm usually hanging out with him just to be around Race. He's really nice to me, him and Knight always stand up for me. One time he actually punched a kid for making fun of me. But he got in trouble for it cause it was one of the Brooklyn newsies. Spot (the Brooklyn newsie's leader) came down here and told Race if he ever touched one of his newsies again without a good reason, he'd have him soaked. I told him I was sorry for getting him in trouble with Spot but he said it wasn't my fault and gave me a hug. I've wanted to tell him how I feel about him for 3 years now, but I'm afraid if he finds out he wont act the same around me or even worse he might not like me back, I mean I know he doesn't, but I just don't wanna face the fact that I don't have a chance with him.
I better go to sleep or I'm not gonna have any energy for tomorrow. I turned on my side and closed my eyes, and I was asleep with in two minutes.