1 Hello, minna san! This is a strange piece that many authors don't do
often. Recommended reading: "Onii-chan" by Dragonsdaughter. This is based
off of her fic, except this is from Kenshin's point of view instead of
Sanosuke's. (Arigato gozaimas, DragonsDaughter!) Kind of sad.
Disclaimers: Standard
Foolishness
Numbness washes over me like chilling water. Everything seems to be moving in slow motion, as if it's not real. My mind is trying to protect me, disbelief reigning my thoughts instead of reality. Truthfully, I know it is all real.
So why do I feel like I died instead of her?
I should never have let myself get involved so much. In all my vain attempts to keep her away from the darkness of the world.
I am such a fool.
I fought so hard, in the Bakumatsu, and found I could change a nation with just my sword.
But what good is it if I can't keep a single person safe?
I continue to stare numbly at the wall, where I don't even feel the biting cold of night creep along my skin.
I told her I would protect her. I thought she would be safe. The last thing I had expected was for her to be killed by Enishi's sword. She was innocent…
Innocent. I want to carve that word onto his flesh with my sword. But all I can do is stare blankly at the people trying to comfort me. Trying to wake me up from this dream-state. I don't have the strength to respond. I sit there with an empty blank stare from black eyes, not wanting to do anything but stay in my own grief and misery until no one recognizes me anymore.
What's it worth to be comforting?
I know I let Sano and Yahiko down. Sano's feeling overwhelming grief, and Yahiko has had to grow up too fast. I don't know how to help them through this…
When I can't even help myself…
I didn't want Yahiko to know the pain of death, for once you know it, it reaches out for you, drowning you, waiting in the shadows…
Until all that is left is your bloody hands and nothing but a bleak future.
I am such a fool.
Kaoru, I wish you were here…
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Arigato gozaimas to all who read this. *poor Kenshin…* Please review this story and tell me what you think. ^ ^X -Kenomi
Disclaimers: Standard
Foolishness
Numbness washes over me like chilling water. Everything seems to be moving in slow motion, as if it's not real. My mind is trying to protect me, disbelief reigning my thoughts instead of reality. Truthfully, I know it is all real.
So why do I feel like I died instead of her?
I should never have let myself get involved so much. In all my vain attempts to keep her away from the darkness of the world.
I am such a fool.
I fought so hard, in the Bakumatsu, and found I could change a nation with just my sword.
But what good is it if I can't keep a single person safe?
I continue to stare numbly at the wall, where I don't even feel the biting cold of night creep along my skin.
I told her I would protect her. I thought she would be safe. The last thing I had expected was for her to be killed by Enishi's sword. She was innocent…
Innocent. I want to carve that word onto his flesh with my sword. But all I can do is stare blankly at the people trying to comfort me. Trying to wake me up from this dream-state. I don't have the strength to respond. I sit there with an empty blank stare from black eyes, not wanting to do anything but stay in my own grief and misery until no one recognizes me anymore.
What's it worth to be comforting?
I know I let Sano and Yahiko down. Sano's feeling overwhelming grief, and Yahiko has had to grow up too fast. I don't know how to help them through this…
When I can't even help myself…
I didn't want Yahiko to know the pain of death, for once you know it, it reaches out for you, drowning you, waiting in the shadows…
Until all that is left is your bloody hands and nothing but a bleak future.
I am such a fool.
Kaoru, I wish you were here…
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Arigato gozaimas to all who read this. *poor Kenshin…* Please review this story and tell me what you think. ^ ^X -Kenomi